Saturday, August 7, 2004

Nathaniel And Evan
Nathaniel I have mentioned before. He is a very close friend of mine. I met him when I was still in grade school. He's now 21 years old. He has his own place, a great job, you name it. He's really a great guy. We're dating now, and I should be really happy. But, the fact remains that I'm not. I'm confused, and scared; what else is new, huh?
Then, there's Evan. Evan is Nate's little brother. He's 14 years old. He'll be 15 in December. He's really sweet too and he lives with Nate. Amazingly enough, they get along quite well. Usually brothers are always fighting, but they don't. I don't think I've ever seen them fight, actually. They look out for each other.
Well, things have grown complicated as late with them. I am with Nate, but Evan is interested in me too. It freaks me out a bit, now that I know his age. He looks almost like Nate's twin, and I never paid much attention to him until a few days ago. I had no idea that he was only 14 until Nate told me. He looks a hell of a lot older.
Now, I'm a bit disgusted by the fact that he's interested in me. He's a sweet kid and all, but that's exactly what he is; a kid. Nevermind that he's my boyfriend's little brother.
Basically, the whole thing has thrown me for a loop. It shouldn't and I've been told that I think way too much, but I can't help it. I wonder if the brilliant minds of the past had to deal with depression and such? Was old Albert ever suicidal? Hmm...oh well, enough of my rambling. I'm going to get another glass of rum and coke, and watch a movie with Nathaniel and Evan.
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