Wednesday, April 4, 2007

I promised so here I am..

..:Current mood: Okay :.. ..:Physic condi: could be better:.. ..:Fave song : Night falls:.. ..:Artist : Ninja Scroll:.. ..:My deviant art :.. ..: other: 4 new wallpapers 4 new drawings and me.. a fucking otaku legend!?!:.. ..: current drawing project: naruto chibi's 7 deadly sins + naruto girls tragedie :.. for progress on both the projects click the following link : ..:Projectstatus :. ------------------------------------------- Heey otaku, Thanks for the understanding of my abscences.. I didn't mean to leave it like that.. but this weekend .. I was really really really feeling like crap.. and a happy post is what I wanted to post for you all.. ^^ so..well as said.. I was sick this weekend.. I forgot how nasty a cold can be.. dang the stupid weather around here... thanks to that.. I couldn't be on here.. and well... my onee san steph hasn't received mail from me in.. 6 days jsut because I wasn't feeling well.. makes me really want to kick myself.. but other then that... today was okay... it was a sort of cultural day at school... me and two mates went to sing.. lol since I have a cold.. and can't sing even if I don't have a cold I sounded awfull.. but my two mates can sing good.. so I fellt a bit out of place and was more on the background of things.. the second part we saw a movie.. it was really beautifull about the second war... W0II somewher ein poland.. it was called the pianist.. yesterday eve me and my dad went to the cinema and went to see 300.. it was sugoi.. I cried my eyes out at the end it was so sad.. so beautifull though.. and the fun part was me and my dad and only four other people there.. ^^ it's so much more fun that way.. so... let's see.. two new drawings in my gallery... and I really got to visit a lot of people.. *shakes her head in disbelief* also..many people commented on my drawings.. but i don't know how ot thank you.. it can be stressing because sometimes I forget on who I commented something back and who not.. *shakes head* .. ^^ wel anyway.. I better get at it then *hugs everyone.. super uber tight* Ja ne for now!!

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Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Important read!!

..:Current mood: Okay :.. ..:Physic condi: could be better:.. ..:Fave song : Night falls:.. ..:Artist : Ninja Scroll:.. ..:My deviant art :.. ..: other: 4 new wallpapers 4 new drawings and me.. a fucking otaku legend!?!:.. ..: current drawing project: naruto chibi's 7 deadly sins + naruto girls tragedie :.. for progress on both the projects click the following link : ..:Projectstatus :.. ----------------------------------- Okay.. right now I don't have time to make a proper post.. but tomorrow I will.. I just wanted to let you all know... that I'm sorry I haven't updated yet..!! I will visit you all tomorrow when I have more time.. I wanted to do it this weekend.. but I layed in bed for almost two day's because I was sick.. I hope you al can forgive me for my long long long long long long abscense.. and you can all wait till tomorrow for my visit.. ^^ *hugs* ^^ Thanks you all.. *waves*

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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Long time.. oh my

..:Current mood: Okay :.. ..:Physic condi: could be better:.. ..:Fave song : Night falls:.. ..:Artist : Ninja Scroll:.. ..:My deviant art :.. ..: other: 4 new wallpapers 4 new drawings and me.. a fucking otaku legend!?!:.. ..: current drawing project: naruto chibi's 7 deadly sins + naruto girls tragedie :.. for progress on both the projects click the following link : ..:Projectstatus :.. ----------------------------------- Hiya Otaku, Well.. It kinda hurts that I didn't get but two visit's on my last post. .but I can survive that.. I know it's been quite some time since my last update but I shall visit all ov you know and tell you about my horrible weekend.. and monday... prepare yourselfs..!! but first,, Oh my god.. for new drawing and four new wallpapers probarly gonna upload more.. tee hee.. ^^ well let's move on Saturday: well so I invited a boy over I maybe kind of like.. it seemed to go fine.. here's the deal with him.. he almost doesn't talk.. and gives me a feeling like.. yeah I'm hear but whatever.. while on the other side when on msn or sms he talks to me like.. like.. well.. not like then.. I don't get it.. I don't get like feelings.. it's stupid.. and certainly it confused me on the the next topic.. my mohter!! *jaws music* she's not to live with. lately she searches every little thing possible that can be turned into a fight. even if I don't do anything she manages to make it into a fight. It's never good enough with her, she nags about school, she nags about a job, she nags about my clothes, she nags about my hair, she nags on that boy I mentioned, she nags on everything possible. And when I respond a bit annoyed because she nags so much it's hell.. even my dad admits my mom is hot headed lately... it's not normal anymore.. I think she seriously might have a problem.. don't get me wrong.. my mom.. she can be super freaking AWSOME.. and nice.. but.. lately.. I don't know.. it's just to hard to live with her... there.. that's possibly all the bad things.. oh yeah wait.. I forgot about school.. how could I all teachers are jerks.. just because they THINK we don;t have other things to do doesn't mean it is that way I mean.. god.. what's up with them.. they just give more more more more more more more it's not normal anymore.. and it's stressing me out making me irratable giving my mother more excuses to like nag me up!! but enough about bad things.. lately I've been writing stories.. naruto fanfics.. more likely.. ^^ tee hee.. so here's a about 200 tenten drabble from naruto.. WARNING IT:S SAD!!! very sad!! ------------------- Tenten knew she was trash. That's why everybody abused her. Neji who just wanted a go. Lee-kun dragging her everywhere pretending to love her just to make Sakura-chan jealous. Teten let them use her, because she cared about them, even if deepdown she knew the didn't care about her. Tenten hadn't mind being used, untill even the one she loved tossed her aside, spitting and beating her up. Yelling over and over again:"I used you, because that's the only thing your good for: The words she had heared so many times in her own had sounded so cruel when said out loud. Standing on the top of Konoha mountain she looked over the village with a sad expression on her face. She let herself step over the edge falling, a piece of paper clutched in her fist. "It hurts to hear the thruth, even if you already know it" well that's it for today.. I'm gonna go visit you all after I updated the fanart section so.. be patint..!! Love you all Ja ne thanks for listening

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Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Mii an otaku legend!?

..:Current mood: AWsome :.. ..:Physic condi: could be better:.. ..:Fave song : Night falls:.. ..:Artist : Ninja Scroll:.. ..:My deviant art :.. ..: other: 2 new wallpapers 2 new drawings and me.. a fucking otaku legend!?!:.. ..: current drawing project: naruto chibi's 7 deadly sins :.. Which done which not? --> Shikamaru -- sin: Sloth *done* --> Naruto -- sin: Greed *done* --> Rock Lee -- sin: Lust *done* --> Neji -- sin: Envy *done* --> Sasuke -- sin: Pride --> Choji -- sin: Gluttony *done* --> Gaara -- sin: wrath ----------------------------------- Whoah.. live reporting from frogland here's is your host Me!! (cheers) yes people I'm happy, yes people I want to apoligize for being down yesterday, and yes I love you all and god.. I don't know what I would do without you all.. *tears of hapiness* you guys really are awsome.. but for now.. no more crying but unwords!! first up: updates -> 2 new wallpapers and 2 new drawings.. pleas check them out and enjoy.. ^^ *big cheesy grin also.. I just looked up at my portfolio today and noticed.. hm.. otaku legend.. wait.. otaku legend.. me.. omg.. *faintS* I coudln't believe it.. ^^ but I was so hyped.. not normal.. also congratz to my big onee=san lytjuh who became a otaku legend as well without even knowing *laughs* it was really funny I was talking to her and like.. hey I became an otaku legend and she was like.. tsss yeah brag about it, and me well your one two you know and she was like no way! me: well yeah.. I think you already were one last week when I checked it was so funny .. ^^ so big huggels for lytjuh~!! other then that I want to say sorry to my little sister shishou... who I may have starteld yesterday with my post.. gomenasai lil sis.. know that I'm a loth appier now thanks to you.. well all of you .. but well.. it's hard to explain *laughs* also I've started to write letters again but it's still not going fast, I got a like.. *thinks* how do you call it in english.. well I got to do a report infront of the class about my opinion on ghost and I'm freaking out a bit by that since well.. it's infront of the class it's next week monday so wish me all luck... also today was fun, we had instead of gym salsa dance lessons,, it was so much fun, and like the girls needed to dance with a boy but luckly we changed partners very often it was realy neat to dance with all sorts of boys, there were like three boys super in it.. later I found out that they actually followed lessons each weak so they were really good, I came to realise I really like to dance like that as well even though I stink at it, my mom lauged at me but still said i had potentiol.. *laughs her ass of* yeah right when j.lo admits her but is fake.. well anyway.. I don't want to make this post to long.. and go celebrate I'm an otaku legend now.. so people.. Sayanora an dlots of hugs filled with love and have a super awsome and lovely day Ja ne Cati0vz

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Monday, March 19, 2007

   Lazy day, Lazy day!!

..:Current mood: Rather, not good :.. ..:Physic condi: could be better:.. ..:Fave song : Night falls:.. ..:Artist : Ninja Scroll:.. ..:My deviant art :.. ..: other: 2 new drawings + 1 wallpaper + 2 ecards:.. ..: current drawing project: naruto chibi's 7 deadly sins :.. Which done which not? --> Shikamaru -- sin: Sloth *done* --> Naruto -- sin: Greed *done* --> Rock Lee -- sin: Lust *done* --> Neji -- sin: Envy *done* --> Sasuke -- sin: Pride --> Choji -- sin: Gluttony *done* --> Gaara -- sin: wrath Ohio otaku, Yes i feel fucked up, *sigh* sorry you all I guess.. I though I was gonna come out of that depression but apparently not, I still feel kind of lonely, I feel so many feelings that I don't wanne feel it's annoying me and pissing me off at the same time.. so next to feeling fucked up I feel pissed of as well.. *shakes head in disbelief* well anyway.. *clears throuat* I did draw something.. but it issn't one of the deadly sins.. sorry you all.. just can't find the inspiration to work on gaara and sasuke now.. but I will soon.. so for now only 1 new wallpaper 2 new ecards and 2 new drawings... forgive me all the only lighteor n this day is that I got a 8 for a french listening test.. and yeah that's good.. I was at least a bit happy with that.. so was my mom so.. + side... but next to that fact she still keeps nagging on how i should find a job and that I need to do my best in school even though I already am giving all I have.. she is just pushing me and it feels awfull.. all she can do is nag.. she never gives me compliments.. she alwasy just keeps pushing same for my art, whenever i ask her for my opinioon she's like. hm. yeah that's nice darling.. with the attiude like saying.. "what ever"it freaks me out.. why cant'she see that even though I stink at it, for me it means alot.. she just doesnt fucking see it.. *sigh * I'm gonna go off now.. I probarly will visit you all today or either tomorrow.. *waves* see you all soon I hope

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

Whoah.. wallpaper time !!

..:Current mood: Okay :.. ..:Physic condi: could be better:.. ..:Fave song : Night falls:.. ..:Artist : Ninja Scroll:.. ..:My deviant art :.. ..: other: alot of new wallpapers:.. ..: current drawing project: naruto chibi's 7 deadly sins :.. Which done which not? --> Shikamaru -- sin: Sloth *done* --> Naruto -- sin: Greed *done* --> Rock Lee -- sin: Lust *done* --> Neji -- sin: Envy *done* --> Sasuke -- sin: Pride --> Choji -- sin: Gluttony *done* --> Gaara -- sin: wrath Ohio otaku, !! lol so first off.. omg.. I've never updated so much wallpapers at one.. but since not all of them show up here.. you better check out my deviantart.. other then that I posted my naruto oc... a drawing of her that is.. *squealS* omg Ilove her so much *cheers8 lol sorry got to.. work on my controlling thing still no other sins drawn.. I'm sorry for that.. I just can't bring myself into forcing and drawing one.. then they will only come out fucked up I hope everyone readed the poem.. in my previous post.. lol cause i think that was the last time I was gonna make a happy poem.. lol I really thought I was gonna die in the progress.. other then that steph mailed me.. and she issn't angyr.. ^^ *cheers* thank you onee san also I chatted up with my little baby sister shishou..and her realy sister Yuki , (*driffter on here) and it was really fun.. I really wonder if I can ever live without siblings again.. *laughs* also visit my big onee san lytjuh on here she's super sweet and super awsome.. and she kicks super ass.. ^^ lol also visit her boyfriend and my nii chan silver.. he kicks ass just as hard.. lol has anyone noticed that I said alot of lol in this post.. I think i'm happier then I realised.. ^^ lol.. *WOOT* .. time for me to slowly get going and study some more on my french yes people .. I have a bunch of homework.. and guess what.. I don't really mind.. lol yeah I know wierd.. I probarly think different about that tomorrow.. but I'm just in such a good mood.. unbelievable *shakes her head in disbelief* well anyway be sure to check out my new wallpapers further more Lots of lovable love and big teddy bear hugs and have a wonderfull and sparkling day Cati

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Friday, March 16, 2007

With every moment, the heart changes

..:Current mood: lesser fucked up :.. ..:Physic condi: could be better:.. ..:Fave song : NEver alone:.. ..:Artist : barlow girl:.. ..:My deviant art :.. ..: other: 2 new wallpapers:.. ..: current drawing project: naruto chibi's 7 deadly sins :.. Which done which not? --> Shikamaru -- sin: Sloth *done* --> Naruto -- sin: Greed *done* --> Rock Lee -- sin: Lust *done* --> Neji -- sin: Envy *done* --> Sasuke -- sin: Pride --> Choji -- sin: Gluttony *done* --> Gaara -- sin: wrath GHai there otaku, Thanks for all your kind words in cheering me up, I guess they helped a bit cause today was slightly better.. I won't say it was superb.. but.. it was certainly better then yesterday well on top of that I want to thank you all for looking at my ecards and I'm super happy that you all like them, I mean omg it .. that's so awsome oh oh and and.. the ecard on top of this pose.. WAS FEATURED!! yes it was on the main ecard page for a whole 24 hours, the whole day my ecard,, you know how good that made me feel I was like.. hey that's my ecard.. hey it's under featured.. hey.. wait.. WOW!! so yeah that was a defan highlight.. ^^ ** well for today I only made two new wallpapers. I still haven't got the change to like, draw the other two sins or anything else for that mather, I guess my mind is currently blocking all creative drawing skills or that my drawing muse will is on vacation again *sighs deeply* also.. thank you silver for the kind words in your post.. they made me laugh.. as for the rest of you who commented also thank you.. your kind comments made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. so there for here a little happy poem.. for as far as I can write happy poems In times of darkness, In times I feel despair I know there's people Standing there to catch me In return I want, to be there for them the same To make sure they know I care To let them know I share Some of the feelings They feel to too Some of the fears I also know so well To let them know they're not alone So that I in return Don't have to be alone as well that we can catch eachother As one another falls Our greatets glory may not be in never falling But our greatest strenght lies within the friends we have. (C) cati0vz .. catiprojectc .. Iris omg.. faints.. I've never dawn a poem like this.. I thought I was gonna die in the middle of it.. *laughs her ass of* other then that this poem is dedicated to all my friends on here and to all my internet siblings I have (-> steph, lytjuh, shishou, silvereagle, and ran) may you all read this and know i care a lot about you, also to all my other my0 friend this is for you all as well.. know that I care about you all Hugs for everyoen With lots of love included Ja ne Cati, Iris

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Thursday, March 15, 2007

   When tears no longer dry

..:Current mood: fucked up :.. ..:Physic condi: could be better:.. ..:Fave song : I hate everything about you:.. ..:Artist : something with three:.. ..:My deviant art :.. ..: other: 5 new ecards and two new wallpapers:.. ..: current drawing project: naruto chibi's 7 deadly sins :.. Which done which not? --> Shikamaru -- sin: Sloth *done* --> Naruto -- sin: Greed *done* --> Rock Lee -- sin: Lust *done* --> Neji -- sin: Envy *done* --> Sasuke -- sin: Pride --> Choji -- sin: Gluttony *done* --> Gaara -- sin: wrath hi otaku, I actually didn't want to update today cause I feel rather fucked up and thrown into a botomless pit, yeah it's botomless I've been falling for quite sometime now today was just awfull really sucky really.. argh I just want to beat the living day light out of something.. the feelings I have inside are not pleasant one's..but I'm trying to supress them.. and so far it's still going good today was the kind of day that everthing went wrong ec.. you know.. the kind of day everyone has. there for I was happy to come home to be able to do a bit of school work en settle down behind the pc making ecards and wallpapers I made 5 ecards.. be sure to check them out there quite awsome if I might say so myself and two wall papers.. (one of the ecards is on top of the post) so that cheered me up a bit today no new naruto pic.. I just couldn't bring myself into drawing something gomenasai I hope everyone is doing fine.. and well did have a better day then me.. *laughs* that's not a difficult thing but still... *sighs deeply* anyway that was my post.. not to long not to short.. I all hope you like my ecards and wallpapers.. Ja ne and lots of love and have a wonderfull day/night/afternoon Cati0vz

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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Ohio, and ja ne... read along

..:Current mood: Doing well :.. ..:Physic condi: could be better:.. ..:Fave song : Poisen:.. ..:Artist : Alice Cooper:.. ..:My deviant art :.. ..: other: 3 new pics which two of the of the project!! and maybe later on some wallpapers:.. ..: current drawing project: naruto chibi's 7 deadly sins :.. Which done which not? --> Shikamaru -- sin: Sloth *done* --> Naruto -- sin: Greed *done* --> Rock Lee -- sin: Lust *done* --> Neji -- sin: Envy *done* --> Sasuke -- sin: Pride --> Choji -- sin: Gluttony *done* --> Gaara -- sin: wrath Ghai otaku, here for my life journal welcome and brace yours seats.. ^^ *squeal!!* SO today I finished another two of the naruto deadly sins project.. I love them.. also I colored one of my previous pics which is up to.. I did this because I.luv.kiba asked me to.. so.. there you go.. ^^ My day today was good.. well could have been better.. cause.. well a mate of me and I were suppose to like do a project together for history class today she suddenly said, you know it's better that we don't do it together, with nor real reason she left it with that.. I think that's rather mean.. but ooh well.. guess I cant'do much about it.. also another girl was talking about me behind my back.. that I was irrating. XD.. ghi I just laughed at that.. lol... other then that .. today was normal.. and boring.. and I felt that feeling again which I hate.. loneliness.. it's awfull.. *sigh well to talk about other things which I worry about I think my big sis.. steph is angry at me.. or doesn't want to talk to me anymore.. I could be mistaking ofcourse which I hope.. well anyway.. i'm currently also working on a special drawing I ocne promised her.. I left her a message.. but .. ah well.. just hope she'll read it and that she finds it okay well before I go here's a little poem, I made.. quite a while ago.. I surrender to the pain, My fighting is in vain Pain issn't so bad Cause when you feel pain You know your alive I surrender to my tears My cheecks turning wet I cry till all my tears are shed Then you know your not dead Even when your tears are red I surrender to my fears Every image in my hunting me Hunting me in my head Cause when you can feel fear even fear is something to hold dear I surrender to my weakness I surrender to my ugliness I surrender to my emptiness I surrender to my pain I surrender to my tears I surrender to my fears I surrender because I'm weak Forgive me for not being strong Guess this world is not where I belong (C) cati0vz <.> Iris ------------------------ well it's a bit gloomy but i like it anyway see you all around and may you all have a super lovely day Ja ne

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Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Whoa.. I'm up to it.. BELIEVE IT!

..:Current mood: Okay:.. ..:Physic condi: could be better:.. ..:Fave song : Violel song:.. ..:Artist : jem:.. ..:My deviant art :.. ..: other: Uploaded 5 new pics in gallary!! :.. ..: current drawing project: naruto chibi's 7 deadly sins :.. Ghai Otaku XD! How are you all, today was pretty good for me since I came up with a new project.. I'll post some information about it for those interested thos not.. just scroll!! --> Naruto Deadly sin project chibi style yes you heared it corectly seven lucky naruto fellows are gonna be used for this project and I already got three done.. how I came up with it.. beats me.. but I love it... so here comes the list --> Shikamaru -- sin: Sloth *done* --> Naruto -- sin: Greed *done* --> Rock Lee -- sin: Lust *done* --> Neji -- sin: Envy --> Sasuke -- sin: Pride --> Choji -- sin: Gluttony --> Gaara -- sin: Anger that are the seven boys and as you can see already three are done.. also i'm thinking of a side project to do a none chibi version.. but that's just an idea MY IDEA!! okay well let's go on!! other then that I'm pretty.. well still same as before.. nothing special you know .. maybe even a bit sucky drawing and sleeping is my only way out of here but I'm glad to be back here.. ^^ I don't know why but everytime I come to this place i feel a bit better.. and yeah.. that's good *hugs all of you* I got a warm welcome.. of friends.. and that's good.. made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.. but.. other then that.. I'm gonna upload the drawings now.. ^^ ghi.. BE SURE TO CHECK THEM OUT PLEAS!! thank you!! Luf yo uall *hugs* Ja ne

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