Monday, October 23, 2006

   # hold me, love me, make me feel, kiss me, hug me, I'm alive

# current mood: Okay # physic condi: Yeah okay.. # fave song: cant remember name Ohio otaku... Sorry I didn't post yesterday, but I have good reason.. :) I went to a sycic convention It was really cool... I got my aura picture taken, also my name anylysed and other stuf It was really cool and when you pay for consul also there gonna explain thing like about my aura or about my name and they give all sort of characters things that go about you most of it was okay.. wich made me feel slightly uncomfortable but it was still fun Also sadder new... a mate of me who I was really close with or am.. is maybe going to decide to quite the education she's following now *same one as me* so .. that would mean.. I would see her less.. and I already didn't see her often so that's pretty sucky Well school still could go better.. but I'm getting there... I've decided to be myself and if people can't handle.. well that's there decision *sticks out tongue* Well.. I .. guess that's it.. I'll do visiting this afternoon.. since I don't ahve time now *I'm in the school library so.. ^^ * *big huggels and lots of love*

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Friday, October 20, 2006

   When it comes to it.. I have no one but myself

# Current mood: Oka # Physic condi: could do better # fave song : Last resort - papa roach Ohio otaku.. How are you all.. ? I'm doing good I guess... still a bit in a dip but I'll get out of it... I promise.. ^^ So the forum still is jsut about haning between avarege and bad.. but we will get there I have some friends on here wich visit every now and then and it means alot to me.. sounds strange doesn't It.. I mean it's just a forum.. who cares about something like that.. Well I think I do because it's something I made and.. that people visit it makes it so much cooler Well enough blabbing about that.. I'm watchin saiyuki.. wich I like.. and my mom watches to.. wich is jsut scary... Also watched a bit fruits basket.. wich I was delited to see again.. I like it very much Well I promised a poem yesterday.. but yesterday my0 didn't work so here comes the poem instead.. ^^ Awfull day A sting, a howl, my heart bust A growl, a fear, mind dust Hands feel cold Cheeks feel weat overall feeling dead Lying on a cracked floor Of a room with a squeeking door The wooden floor coloring red All my blood will be shed I throwe a stone, my mirror shatered All my pain now gathered I scream and loose the knife Strange I know I feel alive Soon followed by tiredness A heavy feeling on my chest STrumpel to my comfy bed I have no more blood to shed A scream of my mother fades away That's the end of this awfull day. Alright people.. I wrote this when I was a bit down.. so I know it's a bit of a dark content I hope you all like it pleas tell me what ya think *big huggels* Much love Iris/cat

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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Woah new theme!!

# Current mood: Doing okay # Physic condi: well.. good # Fave song : Sad piano solo - ? Hi otaku... Well as you all have seen changed the theme again haha.. ^^ really wasn't happy with the previous one but this is like super okay ^^ .. It's black and white right... Pink issn't me.. just to let you all know ^^ I must say lyt inspired me with her black and white theme so.. ^^ thank you lyt... Well today has been a normal day were planning my dad's anniversary for next week.. he's gonna get 50 ^^ jeej Went to the hairdresser and got my hair done lol It's so trendy *giggel* naah it's just like always.. I'm afraid to try out new stuff. Well I watched "Papa to kiss in the dark" Yesterday it was okay.. really cute.. But I was so devestaded cause the cute boy guess what.. was gay.. arrgh.. *rams head into a wall* I also got a new anime dvd.. ^^ "Milenium actress" It was super cute.. and really touching I almost cried but since my mom was watching I held myself up.. but it's a really nice story Also people I ADDED A LINK TO MY FORUM!! click on the pic above.. ^^ the forum is getting alive more and more.. ^^ *dances* So I'm gonna post another poem tomorrow.. ^^ I;ve written quite alot of those in a short time .. and I'm gonna go now.. ^^ and visit all of you're site's.. ^^ Big huggels with love.. Cati / Iris

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Monday, October 16, 2006

As the sun will shine again, I pick up pieces of my life

# Current mood: Serious case of moonswings # Physic condi: Okay.. I guess.. really!! # Fave song : Killing time - metellica First off.. I feel better then yesterday.. thanks to all sweet comments and.. I know now alhought I should have known this from the start i have a place where I belong and that's here with you all.. and ofcourse with my sisters.. So thanks to everyone who pméd me and left comments It realy means alot to me So as I said I feel better then yesterday even though my mom sill nags.. I somewhere still feel shitty but I'll get over it.. :) It's all talked out.. I will survive.. mom still shitty.. I mentioned that before didn't I.. Oh and the poem I wrote yesteday.. yes it's mine. Don't know who asked.. but just to let you know.. ^^ thanks for liking it.. Also I want you all to know thanks for worrying and I really feel guilty now.. because I feel like I made you all feel worried while I don't deserve this .. cause I know you all have problems of youre self and here I am making a big fuse.. Sorry for that sis.. I think it came out harder then the meaning of it was.. but thanks for understanding and being my sis *bows* I'm deeply honored.. and once again thanks to all of you.. darn.. I keep repeating myself don't I.. well finished book report today, need to study for french, need to reply to emails.. and lots of other stuff.. mussn't foget to comemnt on everyone lol I think thats about it.. ^^ *giggel* See I'm happier.. not to worry about me.. it would make me feel bad if you all did worry i don't deserve it.. Well.. as you all may see.. I changed the theme!!! and.. well I'm off now.. got to visit you all *big huggels and lots of love* TO ALL OF YOU Cati/ Iris

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Sunday, October 15, 2006

...Cruel and empty world, leave mii be, and I shall leave..

# Current mood: ...fucked up # Physic condition: **** # Fave song: Dead to the world - nightwish Ohio otaku.. This is gonna be a long and pretty dark post at the moment I really feel shitty... and pissed and dissapointed.. I know.. that.. why I feel this is may sound a bit selfish.. but I can;t help it When you get an email with stuff.. from some one dear saying he/she needs to work out stuff is understandable.. but knowing you can't do anything to help them cause there breaking of contact doesn't make you or me feel any better.. also.. there was something wich shocked me a bit even more.. I wont'mention it because it\s stupid.. school is going bad.. I'm doing bad.. and for all I care.. the world get's screwed up oh wait.. It can't.. IT ALREADY IS!! ... I know that the person didn't mean to hurt me.. and I know how she works out her problems but I didn't know I would feel so fucking bad when it came to it.. I feel.. left out.. at school hear.. at my forum.. on other forums I feel like I have no where I belong.. I told you this would be a shitty post.. maybeI should also have told this was gonna be a selfish post.. I don't know If I'm gonna continue with the story of my forum.. maybe when I feel like it in the mean time here's a little poem Empty is my heart Empty and cruel Leave me be.. I shall leave.. I wish to no longer care no more Heart stabbed, Heart ripped Heart empty Heart no long here World who doesn't want me here World Which I fear Leave me be I shall leave No longer do I want to be here sweet coldness... Bitter end Sweet coldness Deadly friend My blood red, draining from me Dead corps I shall be Cruel world leave me be Me and my heart shall leave No longer do I wish to share.. No longer do I wish to care Alright.. I'm feeling a bit better getting that of my chest I still feel hurt.. but I will heal again.. I guess.. much love to otaku!!

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Monday, October 9, 2006

   My0 works again *jeej*

Current mood: okki Physic condition: bwaaaaaah Fave song: no idea... really Hi otaku.. sorry for my very long abscense it shall not happen again.. thanks to my mom my0 won't fail me again.. *we throwe away junk from the pc and it's working like a well oiled machine* laughs.. other then that.. I'm doing okay 4 day's of school and then a week of.. *BWHAHAHA* Yes I deserve that really .. okay and.. well beside that again.. I'm doing good.. yeah.. I guess the forum is really going upwards I can say I made a first part of the fanfic about the place I'm gonna post it hear as well And once again.. I shall post the url too.. ^^ http://cati0vz.proboards105.com ..well either way.. I'll report more later on Here's the first part of the fanfic A place to Stay A cold breeze, a deep howl, raindrops falling with buckets from the sky. A window clapping, a curtain blowing, papers flying throughout a deserted room. Shrieking is heard as the window is closed, the papers softly landing on the ground Scattered all over the room. A dark figure stands behind the window, a flash of light Struck down from heaven and the figure is gone. Moonlight mansion, seems to be deserted. “Com’n silver get that ass moving!!” “Will you calm down already, the mansion won’t go anywhere you know!!” “Yes but.. I just want to get there as soon as possible” she snapped back looking at him with a don’t you dare me look. “But… ninjette” The girl stopped dragging the boy along but was now standing like a statue looking Amazed. “…Ninjette?” the boy pinched her, waved his hands before her eyes and finally she gave him a pointing finger. He turned around and could only look in shock as well. “That... gate... is...” he brought out “Big...” She ran over to the gate “Big... No I was thinking more like.. enormous, not normal, and maybe they don’t want visitors” “If they don’t want visitors, then why is the gate open” The girl replied back to the concerned words of the boy and was already standing on the other side of the Gate. ‘Hey wait for me!!” Meanwhile, a young lady in black stood before the doors. Having, a unusual Party with her. A troop of very, very large spiders. “Now this can’t be it, it’s so big; it’s so… old…” One of the spiders clicked his fangs impatiently. “Yes, yes my sweetie be patient you’ll have dinner soon” She walked up the stairs and was about to rang the doorbell when a little devil, Accompanied by a little angel stopped her. “DON’T” the little red figure screamed in her ear “Holy smokes” the girl looked at the tiny men “What in heaven’s name are you” “Hey!! “he poked her with his pitchfork “You don’t hear me insulting you either now do you… I’m from hell, she’s from heaven!! “He pointed to the little creature surrounded by bright light “Don’t mind him pleasure to meet you, the lady of the house wanted me to inform you do not ever ring the bell, if you need to get inside, just call for us” “What, why don’t ring the doorbell, what are you two” “What do you think, were door keepers you silly girl” ………………………………. Writer: now that we have met some of our players, Will this story have a next chapter; will the girl and her beloved spiders Get in the house? Will the boy and the girl who entered the grounds Of Moonlight mansion even make it to the mansion. And will the lady of the house, welcome her guests or punish them? Many question will be answered... or maybe not *sinister laughing* > To be continued Well I'm off to visiting.. *ghuggels* sayanora and lots of love

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Saturday, September 30, 2006

   # totally scrwin up school, forum is going better

# current mood: blablabla *cries* # Physic condi: Okay # FAve song : no idea... Okay hello otaku... 1. For those who are wondering how are things going with the boy from the fair.. Not good.. *cries* I added him on msn.. but no succes he hasn't bin on yet... and it's even the question if he even wants to talk to mean.. I .. *sigh* 2. School is TOTALLY going bad... I learned for a french test..and I totally screwed up..!! totally.. even though I learned. also other things are going bad 3. + side my forum is going a bit better some really sweet people are actually posting there And I'm forever gratefull to them.. ^^ it may sounds a bit.. over done.. but I'm really really glad.. 4. There's more going on.. but .. don't feel like explaining .. hope you all understand well that's about it.. I don't have much more to say... *cries* oh yeah.. I can't stop crying.. *huggels all of you* Lots of love

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Sunday, September 24, 2006

   Fair...

-# current mood: following the river stream -# physic condi: Okay.. bit bruised here... -# Fave song : moonlightpary - ? Hello otaku.. ^^ I'm here for my weekly report *dances around* Well it was fair in a nearby city. lol.. it was okay nothing special but still fun.. ^^ I went into the.. *thinks* lol.. I'll call them bumping cars for now.. lol those were fun.. turns out I'm a pretty good driver.. if there aren't people after me.. *sigh* also I won a teddybear *YEEY* And I saw this ubberly cute boy.. lol.. I think My eyes popped out of my skull.. ^^ the bad part was one of my mates saw that I was like chekking the guy and she went up to him and asked him his email I went like.. okay.. you didn't have to do that you know... somewhere I found it sweet she did it.. but ussualy I rather take care of my own love life wait.. I don't have a love life.. so that's not possible *sulks* either way.. my final day of work was friday monday I'm gonna give my working uniform and discount pas back.. ^^ and then bye bye bitch ^^ Yeey and.. my forum.. is.. going well.. or atleast I think it's going well.. thank you Lytchan, silvereagle and dranz.. ^^ you three are the best.. !! (big huggels for everyone*) Lots of love and again big huggels* Cati/Iris Previeuw : Next week I'm gonna upload and post another drawing.. It's my new oc cati.. ^^

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Sunday, September 17, 2006

   Woezah

Current mood: ...nya.. Physic condition: okay Fave song: move it up - ? Heya.. well another week has passed and so far .. I'm okay I think Except for the fact I'm having trouble with a certain teacher at school.. and that's not good .. really trust me it issn't Beside that my forum is pretty much dead.. (note: thanks to people who joined but don't join if you're not gonna post it gives me fals hopes but still thanks.. :) ) it's fair over here... I went friday.. well I've had a look.. it's pretty much boring.. like it's any different from the other years.. was word a hope.. i'm in a creative dip and have been feeling lonely lately, I really miss my big brother and sister.. I miss a lot of people.. it's hard to explain.. but I feel like.. not so happy.. really not.. Well I better go and visit all you're sits *huggels( Baaij

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Saturday, September 9, 2006

Good...

Current mood: Yohei Physic conditions: getting better Fave song: aquarius, Ohio otaku How are you all..? Well either way.. Yes I know I'm neglecting this place.. But I have a good excuse, okay here it comes: "A bunch of elephants came into my house and cracked my pc" *looks around* Okay here comes the truth: I've been really busy, and I haven't had time till now to post, so here it is I hope you all understand, the position I'm in School started again.. so only saturday post's I gues.. but good news to .. well good .. for me.. I quited my job, after today I couldn't take it anymore and said farwell... It was good while it lasted and now I'm gonna try find something else Well either way I hope you all are okay and I'm gonna do my visit round now So Bye!!

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