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Sunday, October 15, 2006

...Cruel and empty world, leave mii be, and I shall leave..
# Current mood: ...fucked up
# Physic condition: ****
# Fave song: Dead to the world - nightwish

Ohio otaku..
This is gonna be a long and pretty dark post
at the moment I really feel shitty... and pissed
and dissapointed.. I know.. that.. why I feel this
is may sound a bit selfish.. but I can;t help it

When you get an email with stuff.. from some one
dear saying he/she needs to work out stuff
is understandable.. but knowing you can't do anything to help them cause there breaking of contact doesn't make you or me feel any better..

also.. there was something wich shocked me a bit
even more.. I wont'mention it because it\s stupid..
school is going bad.. I'm doing bad..
and for all I care.. the world get's screwed up
oh wait.. It can't.. IT ALREADY IS!! ...

I know that the person didn't mean to hurt me..
and I know how she works out her problems but
I didn't know I would feel so fucking bad
when it came to it.. I feel.. left out.. at school
hear.. at my forum.. on other forums
I feel like I have no where I belong..

I told you this would be a shitty post..
maybeI should also have told this was gonna be
a selfish post..
I don't know If I'm gonna continue with the story
of my forum.. maybe when I feel like it

in the mean time here's a little poem

Empty is my heart
Empty and cruel
Leave me be..
I shall leave..
I wish to no longer care no more

Heart stabbed,
Heart ripped
Heart empty
Heart no long here

World who doesn't want me here
World Which I fear
Leave me be
I shall leave
No longer do I want to be here

sweet coldness...
Bitter end
Sweet coldness
Deadly friend

My blood red, draining from me
Dead corps I shall be
Cruel world leave me be
Me and my heart shall leave
No longer do I wish to share..
No longer do I wish to care

Alright.. I'm feeling a bit better getting that of my chest
I still feel hurt.. but I will heal again..
I guess.. much love to otaku!!

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