Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Lost!(this is a pome that came from the top of my head! i didn't even write it on paper yet!)
Lost,
confused,
why,
why must i do this to my self?
starve myself till i fall out?
why?
i'm confused,
i'm lost,
lost in the deepness of my heart,
lost in the mist of my mind,
no one is telling my to do this,
i don't no y i am,
i'm lost confused,
one who is loved my most,
and hated by few,
lost in a world,
the one thing i wanted,
i got,
love,
so y must i pain myself inside?
no eating till the point i fall out,
waiting 4 that moment,
eating little in 3 days,
the pain just comes,
i'm lost,
i'm confused,
y am i doing this?
y must i fight another battle of life?
lost in the deepth of my heart,
lost in the pits of my mind,
y must i put pain on myself?
y?
i don't no what to do?
i have every thing i want,
love,
friends,
family,
so y do i starve myself,
4 no reason?
(ppl this is true i really don't no y? i am lost! and yes i have been eating little 4 the past 3 days! it's 6:45am here. i don't no whats going on anymore,i happy. but if i'm so happy y do i do this to me? i just started doing this so it hasn't been long. but still i no what i'm doing. or whats wrong? i'm going to talk to my other sister about this in skool today x.x i need help but i don't no what 4! i stoped eating 4 sum reason but i don't no y! so yay if any of u guys can help me out with this it would be nice! and it odd b/c i don't want to be like the movies stars! i don't want to be that thin! so yaya plz help me i would like to no WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WITH MY MIND!!!!) well cya later ppl
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Monday, April 24, 2006

hihi
hihi ppl! it's 3:32pm here and i'm in my mom's classroom! and listening to my psp! yep it'm listening to Him "Wings Of A Butterfly" and my cuz' is looking over me cheacking all my missed spelled works! it's kind of sad when ur younger cousin is a better speller then u ^^' i no! and a few minutes ago he was chewing on my hair O.o odd i no! but mostly my whole family is odd like that too! lol! and now he is trying to make a deal with me about the comps.........and i think i'm going to take it so yay!............all day i was daydreaming x.x then in my civics class my friend is like "Courtney R U daydreaming?!?! O.o about wut?" then she laughed and so did i and i just replyed "Sum thing O.o" lol i no but it was odd b/c since now our civics class 4 now it D.A.R.E and i should have been listening to wut they were saying but i was and daydreaming and jokeing around with my friends alex and barbara about all this stuff! and 4 sum reason i started dancing and then barbara joined in but we were in our sets and it was fun! so yaya cya later on my mom need her comp! bye Mommy + Daddy = i support Tamaki and Kyouya love<3 I<3 Mommy and Daddy! Ouran High School Host Club is Love <3 98% of teens say "I love you" ... but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile.98% of teens say “I would die for you” … but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile 98% of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you're one of the 2% who hasn't, copy & paste this into your profile
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   GOOD MORNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hihi ppl! it's about 6:36am here! yeah! i on here early onec again! and yay i sleeped good last night n_n! but last night it was funny! i was washing and like when it was time 4 them to come out of the dryer! i was such in a daze in my room! i daydraming! lol but it was funny! i was listing to Lemon Demon! and my mom is like "Courtney....Courtney....COURTNEY go get ue clostes(i can't spell ppl i'm a bad speller) so yay. i really don't feel so good right now but i don't no y! my stomch is being a pain! damn maybe i should have eaten lunch on Friday! Owell! i think i'm going to have apple juice for brakefast this morning lol! like always! so yay well now i no me mom's up! and no she did no yell at me b/c i'm on the comp this morning! i'm going to be a bad girl today! MUAHAHHAHAH ok on saterday i had to do sumthing 4 crime watch and i got these really cool sponges! there super flat but if u add water to then the swell up! so yay last night i cut up one of them and put water on the and the but them in the frezzer! so this morning i took them out and they r ROCK HARD!!!!!!!!!!!! MUAHAHAHHA today i'm going to throw them at ppl in my skool! lol but since it's starting to get hot REALLY HOt! REALLY FAST!! lol and there really cold lol! so yay! but my middle finger on my left hand feels cold! i think i have blood problems in my hands and feet! b/c even when i'm wearing shoes my feet r still cold and sum times i can't feel them! with my hands well they can get cold really fast sum times and if i press down on sumthin like rock candy it will leave an inperin in my finger! and when i'm talking on me cell phone after well it could be about 10 mins. or so. and then my endex finger will start getting numb on what ever hand i'm holding the phone with! but i'm used to it! and my mom doesn't no either but w/e! so yay now it's 6:50am! so yay i best be going now! cya later bye n_n i'll try to be on later bye n_n
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Sunday, April 23, 2006

fan art!
hey ppl the pic below waiting!..............ya i put it on fan art! so ppl who souldn't c it on my site u can c it on fan art now! so yay enjoy ^_~ Mommy + Daddy = i support Tamaki and Kyouya love<3 I<3 Mommy and Daddy! Ouran High School Host Club is Love <3 98% of teens say "I love you" ... but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile.98% of teens say “I would die for you” … but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile 98% of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you're one of the 2% who hasn't, copy & paste this into your profile
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Waiting!

(i did this pic a while ago! it's called Waiting! tell me what u and if i should put it up on fan art thx and cya later) Mommy + Daddy = i support Tamaki and Kyouya love<3 I<3 Mommy and Daddy! Ouran High School Host Club is Love <3 98% of teens say "I love you" ... but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile.98% of teens say “I would die for you” … but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile 98% of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you're one of the 2% who hasn't, copy & paste this into your profile
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'ello ppl!
LOL!!!(sorry i laugh at stuff like that)

(don't b/c if u do u might never smile again n_n)

hihi ppl! i'm happy right now!^o^ GO LEMON DEMON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they rock! lol there a band ppl! i'm not crazy.............wait yes i am lol! hehe ya yesterday went like this.........in this order.......ok,calm,in pain(i hit my foot on the counter! don't ask),scared,worried,sad,O.o i cryed a bit too O.O it's amazing! i say tears!, then worried again,then i felt bad, then i got surprised, worried again -_-,i felt bad again, then i got happy, and joyed, and ummm yaya yesterday was really comfusing too! and to add to all this i had a really bad headache XP and i felt like crap b/c of it! so yaya n_n and now i'm happy! and i have to do homework to day _._ i don't want to do it tho! so yay Mommy + Daddy = i support Tamaki and Kyouya love<3 I<3 Mommy and Daddy! Ouran High School Host Club is Love <3 98% of teens say "I love you" ... but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile.98% of teens say “I would die for you” … but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile 98% of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you're one of the 2% who hasn't, copy & paste this into your profile
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Saturday, April 22, 2006

hihi!
hihi ppl! yesterday.................i had SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=D it was awsome! lol but i got home last n ight around like 10:40 or sum thing like that! but since i was so beat i couldn't do anything but go to sleep! lol! but yesterday sum girls almost got the whole skool kicked out! so yaya it was fun i road Sheikra twice! it was ok! i don't no y ppl r so scared of it! and i road the Montu once! O.O ppl if u think Sheikra was scary then don't go on Montu! O.O it ROCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!XD it's much better then Sheikra!!!! lol! but i had fun lots of fun! so yay my feet hurt now! and 2day i have to go do sum thing 4 crime watch! yep i'm in crime watch -_- i really don't want to be in it tho! *sigh* i'll deal! so yaya and i road Gwazi! thats was fun! n_n i got to site next to my friend thats a guy and i have a crush on him..............but it's a little one! b/c were good friend n_n so yaya.............hhmmmmmi think thats is! so what did i miss yesterday? Mommy + Daddy = i support Tamaki and Kyouya love<3 I<3 Mommy and Daddy! Ouran High School Host Club is Love <3 98% of teens say "I love you" ... but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile.98% of teens say “I would die for you” … but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile 98% of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you're one of the 2% who hasn't, copy & paste this into your profile
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Friday, April 21, 2006

   it's amazing!
hep ppl! it's 4:22am in the morning here! yep! ur thinking WTF R U DOING UP THIE EARLIEY?!?!? well if u read my last post i told u guys thats i'm going to bush gradens with my skool! so yay we r leaving home in a few! to get to the skool by 5................well i think! lol! but i only got about 4hours of sleep last night! yep i went to bed at 12am ..............i think and i up! i no amazing! so yay i well cya 2marrow b/c i won't be back till back 12am in the morning so baciscly saterday! so yaya i think i'm going to take sum manga with me on the trip but i'm not sure! well cya later bye n_n Mommy + Daddy = i support Tamaki and Kyouya love<3 I<3 Mommy and Daddy! Ouran High School Host Club is Love <3 98% of teens say "I love you" ... but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile.98% of teens say “I would die for you” … but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile 98% of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you're one of the 2% who hasn't, copy & paste this into your profile
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Thursday, April 20, 2006

Dark Feelings1221
well ppl who read my story on ~*Dark Feeling1221*~ i have added 2 more parts of it 14 and 15 n_n i think lol! well i no i added 2 parts thats all! and 4 ppl who never read it! well u should lol! jk if u don't want to! so yaya! it's 5:48pm and i'm still in me mom's classroom -_- i no sum times it takes her ssssssooooooo long~! and it's sick of waiting here >:O! so yaya well cya later n_n bye n_n Mommy + Daddy = i support Tamaki and Kyouya love<3 I<3 Mommy and Daddy! Ouran High School Host Club is Love <3 98% of teens say "I love you" ... but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile.98% of teens say “I would die for you” … but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile 98% of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you're one of the 2% who hasn't, copy & paste this into your profile
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hi!
ppl my mom won't let me post in the mornings no more! T.T i miss doing that! it set off my day! well 2marrow i migh tpost but it would be at like 4am in the morning! b/c i'm going on a field trip to bush gardens with my skool! well it's ok the 7th graders that paid! and i paid ^.^ so yay! and right now i'm in mee mom class room! and it's 4:33pm! but skool got out earliy today but i went to the talent show! and i was lucky b/c sum of my friend where there! it was really ok -_-; if i said that every1 was good i would be lieing! lol but it was ok! and right now i'm playing with play-doh! that my mom had from one of her expraments she did with her calss! and she teachs regular 8th grade -_-;! so yay i'm geting ready to get sum more play-doh! and feel 5 again! lol i loved that age! and me dad said he might get my a cridit card! but if he's not lieing (he is 98% of the time) then i will have on! ^.^ with me name on it cool n_n well cya around later n_n Mommy + Daddy = i support Tamaki and Kyouya love<3 I<3 Mommy and Daddy! Ouran High School Host Club is Love <3 98% of teens say "I love you" ... but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile.98% of teens say “I would die for you” … but only 2% actually mean it, if you are part of that 2% add this to your profile 98% of the teenage population does or has tried smoking pot. If you're one of the 2% who hasn't, copy & paste this into your profile
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