Sunday, May 23, 2010

Self-satisfaction
Damn it’s been a while since I made an actual post, well staying with tradition I’ll warn you first up if you have a weak constitution … wait make that any constitution at all just stop reading right now. What I say isn’t black and white, right or wrong socially acceptable crap it’s just my hazy grey controversial views of the world.

It’s not hard to tell from just listening to a single thing I say that I believe I’m superior to most people, most are probably scoffing ‘yeah you’re a typical narcissist’ well hate to break it to you but that’s far too simple of a label. Think people! Yes a narcissist is someone that believes they are superior to everyone else and they get great enjoyment from flaunting this. Ok ok I do this constantly and it’s beginning to sound like I’m just in denial. But what sets me apart from your typical narcissist is that I am completely open about what a flawed person I am, I know exactly what is wrong with me and I have no problems admitting it not only to myself but everyone else. I see people who believe they are superior but are just the same flawed slugs as everyone else and I can’t help but want to crush their delusions when they act like that. Just like I had previously discussed in one of my posts. People see their own flaws in others and subconsciously hate themselves for being weak which leads to them wanting to destroy any reminder of their hated self they want to live out their delusions clear from reality.

That being said it’s easy to assume I’m not the maternal type I don’t want children ever, and I make that constantly clear. I’m first to admit that I’m one of the furthest you could find from a suitable role model. While I’m comfortable with my own flaws I have absolutely no intention of deliberately corrupting another human being just for my own self-satisfactions. And because of this everyone says what a great mother I would be (it’s at times like this I have to wonder if I only associate with people that have some form of brain damage) their argument being that because I’m aware of myself I would make a better parent then those that believe they are wonderful parents while everyone else around them can see the reality, that in fact they are absolutely shocking parents.

Well I recently brought ‘Gunslinger Girl II Teatrino’ I’d seen the first series a while ago and I can’t say that it had the greatest impact on me. Surprising considering my constant talk about creating the perfect killer using the innocence of children. But it was the exact opposite with the second series. This series seemed to focus more on the actual depravity of adults rather then just the girls development almost like déjà vu of the episode ‘Blood Sport Fairy Tales’ from ‘Black Lagoon’ which prompted one of my disgusted with humanity posts last year. The episode where they revealed how Triela was initially found was about the trafficking of children for the purpose of creating ‘snuff films’ (if you don’t know what this is I have to say I envy your innocence and hope you can maintain it). It’s not hard to imagine that this is all real..
By the end of the series it was safe to say that like my contempt for dating and women my dislike of humanity in general had reached new levels. But more then anything it made me want to know how people can want to have children? The more I think about it the more I can only see their reasoning as a selfish excuse for self-satisfaction. I’m not straight out saying that no human possesses the ability to raise a child in a loving environment that’s not the entire issue here.

What I am saying is that it’s no different then when as a farmer you save an abandoned lamb raise it with love and affections then still once it’s old enough you send it away to be slaughtered, actually that’s probably less depraved. Why? Because it’s simple and devoid of humiliation. It doesn’t matter how much you love your child or you try to protect them it’s impossible to guarantee their safety, in reality this world thrives on entertainment that derives from humiliating violence. I’m not just talking about the extreme issues that were in the series but in general look at the increased bullying in schools, even online, just walking down the street can have consequences these days.
Does it seem like I’m over-reacting? Well think of it this way if a parent truly ‘loves’ their child they will know about the existence of the true world. You can’t tell me that in this day and age there are people out there so naive they don’t.
So why would anyone want to intentionally bring a child into this world knowing the facts? They think they can forever protect them? An even more pathetic and naive notion.

And honestly what’s being done about it?
I’ve said it before there is no justice system hence the rise of the vidual anti, but that still has no affect. These depravities are markets; they thrive on the fact that people can’t face reality. The majority of people ignore that this is happening because they are honestly not strong enough to face it.

But it’s not just that, that got me thinking also Pinocchio who was raised by Cristiano. In the series he says how desperate he was for a son that was why he saved Pinocchio
when he found him. But he had no idea how to raise a child so he just raised him in the image of himself and created a killer. Even giving him the name Pinocchio. Also ‘John Doe’ says that the reason he taught Pinocchio how to kill was because he wanted to have his legacy passed on. That’s the way that many parents function they want to have their memories live on it’s a form of self preservation, they know that they can’t achieve immortality so they take the next best step they have a child and raise it in their image. Simply put self-satisfaction.
As adults it’s suppose to be their responsibility to make clear well-informed decisions for their children who can’t. They make the choice to have the child and to raise it a certain way. It’s no good looking back after the child has grown up and become a corrupt adult that they realise ‘oh wait I think I did this wrong.’ It’s a human life for god’s sake, so why is it that people don’t think about the consequences and affects of their actions?
I understand that you could probably suggest that it’s a basic instinct to repopulate the earth that over-rides all rational thinking, but I still can’t understand how that instinct can be even greater then that of a parents desire to protect their child.

I know if what I’m suggesting was to become a reality then the human race would eventually die out. Well why not? It’s not like it would be the worst thing ever, humans are leading a path of self-destruction any way so why intentionally subject others to it. Maybe the bottom line is that the human race really is just selfish.

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