Saturday, December 31, 2005

   happy new year n stuff!
yeah yeah yeah! happy new year. wishing this one is a successful painless one.
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Thursday, December 29, 2005

   cheeeeeeery!
though i know not why. i surely still look like crap and i am not any more satisfied with the direction my life is going ( it's dooooown if you didn't know) and yet for some reason i am happy. like sunny puppy happy. like retarded kid with a balloon happy. it disturbs me that i am happy with no reason. maybe this is a sign. everyone's being really nice too. i'm actually enjoying today. am i going to die?
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Monday, December 26, 2005

   mooooooorrrrreeee sllleeeeeeeep foooor sluuuug giiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrllllllllllll.....
i slept from seven this mornin to four this afternoon. god i'm lazy. gonna sleep some more so i can wake up at ten tonight for more work on science project. i so do my best work at night.
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Sunday, December 25, 2005

   they just blew up a bomb...
boys @ my house made a bomb out of buckshot and firecrackers. they gutted both and stuffed the contents of about 50 shells and a roll of firecrackers into a milk carton. the ground shook when they blew it up. glad i have a helmet. ate bookoo macaroni and cheese, and got one cmas present. a 100 dolla gift card to salon paris parker. as i's seeing it that's a "merry christmas, you look like crap."


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Saturday, December 24, 2005

   eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!
matt called yesterday from california! yay yay yay! i miss him so much and i was startin to think maybe i just didn't mean that much to begin with or maybe he just felt sorry for me while he was here. but he called! and sounded happy to talk to me! oh and he's coming back february 9th. me soo happy. almost gonna make christmas w/psychotic relatives bearable.
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Friday, December 23, 2005

   funny ghetto adventure!
hey home skilletz! eeermm sorry... anyway i am an outstanding key club member and we do good stuff for other people so yesterday we had a christmas dinner fo the po. anyway about 16 people showed up to eat, and we had food for about 100! so my geometry teacher and club sponser decided to drive through a rough part of town and hand out free food. course i, the crackerest of crackers was chosen to sit in the bed of the truck and yell " free food" at crackheads. needless to say i though " at least i'm gonna die on a pretty day!" anyway i got thru it without a hitch except for when someone set of a string of firecrackers and we all ducked! then later me and my best friend christy wen to the movies. long story short, i was sexually harassed by an 11 year old pot head. oh not to mention we watched harry potter and it was totally a butchery of the book. oh, case i forget later, MERRY CHRISTMAS N' STUFF! ( stuff being holidays other than christmas, none of which i can spell.) oh n took a test! see result!

Dark Beauty! You're mysterious and a riddle for
everyone, and that's exactlly what people
attract to you. You often wear a cold mask to
not show that deep inside your soul is as
pretty as your looks.


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Monday, December 19, 2005

this sucks
my parents finally admitted they were better off without me. wow! i feel loved. any way they've decided they're not sending me away i'm just not a member of the family any more. also they really really want me to go to LSMSA next year, which is a boarding school for the giftd three hours away. not only that but one of my best friends fron new orleans, Vy had come to stay for a while and now she's leaving. this is her last day here. and i still can't ever see charlie again and goat has stopped taking my calls. i just wish matt would get back and make everything better like he always does.
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Sunday, December 18, 2005

   i'm pisssssed!
my parents freakin' disowned me today. they said i don't live a lifestyle appropriate for one of "their" children. they're sending me to boarding school asap too. this just eats my ass up as you can imagine. more details later.
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Saturday, December 17, 2005

   yeah!
27 visitors! sorry that excites me but i don't have much else. goat stopped answering his phone and i can't see charlie n matt. however i have a girlfriend now ( i'm bi, by the way) she's real sweet.
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Friday, December 16, 2005

saaaaaad..................
i can never see charlie again and that's sad. we both knew it had to end but it still hurt. by the wat case you didn't know he was the one who was cheating on his fiance of 2 years with me. i'm a sucker for guys period so i let it happen. anyway we would always meet before my wednesday night classes and get freaky in the library study room. anyway as much as i lied to myself and said i could just do the physical and not the emotional it wasn't. i began to realize that i wanted to be with him. but i can't and i knew it. anyways this past wednesday was the last time we saw each other and we were foolin' around as usual and he says " i hope you understand" and i, trying to lighten things up say " yes i understand that you sir, are an ass!" wrong thing to say. he grabbed me with tears in his eyes and said " damn it, don't do this! you're alays so nonchalant. you mean so f----ing much to me. you have helped me with so much. but if you love me you have to understand i have to do what's right." and then he kissed me. a long sslowww kiss. you see i had never kissed him because i wasn't allowed, ya'll know how that works. that's what broke my heart. then he said " this is good bye, em" and he held me for a while and then he left. and i cried and cried. i still cry.

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