Monday, November 28, 2005

   update (please read)

u know i said that i wouldn't post for awhile? well that only lasted for one day. yesterday i was gonna post bur my parents got on my nerves so bad that i just lost it.(well in my world of darkness i lost it) man it so fricken sucks that when i barely touch the computer my parents go ballistic. my mom just keeps on repeating "get off the computer. is that all u ever do?" and dhere i am thinking 'yeah besides trying to ignore u and trying to keep my self from insulting u. yeah that's all i do.' i try my best to be 'calm' but she annoys the shit outta me. If she wasn't my mother i would probably smack her upside the head.(true but sad) Then there's my dad.*if u can call him a dad mor like a sorry excuse for a father*he just glares at me as if i'm the worst thing that happened to him! we never talk and most of the time we can't even stand seeing eachother*at leat i can't*He's never treated me like a daughter.basicly he's ignored and insulted me in my childhood. so i have no "fatherly love" for him what-so-ever. i would smack him but there's a part of me that fears him...T.T..

my brothers, i love them to death, tho at times i get really angry at them, but i love them. so i can't really hate them...or can i? my sister was the best sis. u could ask for, but she got married. don't get me wrong i love the fact that she's happily married w/daughter. it's just that we're not as close as we use to be.

But i guess there's the inner stuggle that i'm fighting.My parents see me like an irresponsible person and my friends see me as a resonsible and caring friend.but i always end up asking my self:"who/what am i?" "Good or Evil" useful of useless? loved or hated? Those are the questions i ask my self many times over and over. Each time it gets harder for me to control my temper.i'm either in the corner crying my heart out or i'm flaring up w/anger. my life is no longer calm. i feel like i'm breaking apart.Is there meaning to living a life u hate? Is there meaning in hate? But more importantly: Why do we learn to hate?..........

Enough bout this "hate". the one thing that brightened my day was getting to buy some MANGA!!!!!!!!! i bought ARCANA and LAMENT OF THE LAMB. i had a review on the two mangas but i've decided to cut it sort. so here it is.

ARCANA: personally i really liked it and the whole storyline was quite cool. i give it two thumbs up.

LAMENT OF THE LAMB: i didn't really get into it.so i would give it a one thumbs up. i mean u gotta give it some credit for the main characters were vampires.^.^

Wow this is probably the longest post i've written. Guess this is the result of not posting one day.^.^'lol well i guess i better let u guys go. you probably have places to be,ppl to meet/kill/kick/ect...oh yeah i got me a mood ring! it keeps on turning a dark shade of blue. what does that mean? o.k. i'm really leaving now.Thank u for reading (if u did) and please comment.bye.^.~

"I stand alone, everything that I believe in is fading."

~Godsmack

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Saturday, November 26, 2005

   Hnnn....

Man I'm so frikin tired of not being commented on so I've decided to forget posting for awhile. It's not like anyone is gonna cry over it. If they do then...too bad you shoulda commented.(you still can) During my break I'll be writing my stories and trying to finish them tho i doubt i will. y am i even telling u ppl this it's not like ur reading it.....*stomps off*

"I stand alone, everything that I believe in is fading."

~Godsmack

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Thursday, November 24, 2005

   HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!

HERE'S MY LIST OF THINGS TO 2 B THANKFUL FOR:

1. my family(tho they can annoy me at times.)

2. for mangas and anime.

3. for a computer(or how else would i b posting this?)

4. for my friend (@ home and on the otaku.)

5. for money(how else would i b able to fuy mangas/anime.^.^')

that's all i can think of...so many i can't list'em all.

"I stand alone, everything that I believe in is fading."

~Godsmack

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Wednesday, November 23, 2005

   quiz...again.

Youre pure evil in my mind, but theres something
about you that I like, I just cant put my
finger on it.


A Random fandom (Trust me, it has nothing to do with faness, it has pics)
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"I stand alone, everything that I believe in is fading."

~Godsmack

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   Whaaa......

ok i've just returned from my surgery...ok now i officially hate needles!!!!!!they hurt u they are evil...lol. i'm ok and ill survive. now i just need to take care of my self (well my eye really) plus i need to get new glasses or i'll be blind for quite awhile. i hope brother takes me to a book store so i can buy me some get well mangas.*wink wink* i certainly hope so.anyways that surgery was a really painfull experiance....let's hope i dont have to undergo it again.*shudders* well i gatta go and rest till the next post.bye-bye.*waves*

"I stand alone, everything that I believe in is fading."

~Godsmack

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   Withering

I sit here
withering away
into nothingness
till I'm born again.
Only to wither away once more.
An endless cycle
that can not be stopped.
Only the love of an Angel,
but there's none around me.
I'm alone and.....
withering away.


thank u for reading it it's my first poem on this post. comment please!

"I stand alone, everything that I believe in is fading."

~Godsmack

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   quizzes

What is Your Ideal Anime Weapon?


Hosted by theOtaku.com: Anime. Done right.






What Anime Rose Are You?


Hosted by theOtaku.com: Anime. Done right.

"I stand alone, everything that I believe in is fading."

~Godsmack

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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

   Today....

today was another day of boredom in the school of useless.The teacher tried to teach us a whole math chapter in two days that was really stupid in his part..no one understood the lesson so basically everyone failed..sosiology was cool we're learning about religions...german class was boring and accounting was boring except for a few minutes...it sure is cool today...man i need to get my adverge up in Algebra. i have all A's except in math...i have a 87...T.T..

well i have to go...wish me luck i'm having surgery tomorrow..it's nothing really bad..i didnt tell my friends i didnt wanna worry them..so they dont know until they read this post...i'm sorry guys. i didn't wanna worry u.don't worry u'll see after our long break.

"I stand alone, everything that I believe in is fading."

~Godsmack

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So me !!!!!!1(exept that i'm a girl...lol)

K- kick ass american manager!


Which Gravitation boy is your love match?
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"I stand alone, everything that I believe in is fading."

~Godsmack

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Monday, November 21, 2005

   Today's topic....

I have a question for those who read my posts and like sesshomaru/inuyasha/koga...
What would u do if the only way u could become the mate of either sess/iny/koga is if they were to piss on u to mark u as
"thier territory"? >< *lmao* please send me your comments on this..
i originally sumited this as an article but i guest they didnt approve of it so i decided to post it here...*evil laugh*

"I stand alone, everything that I believe in is fading."

~Godsmack

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