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Monday, November 28, 2005

   update (please read)
u know i said that i wouldn't post for awhile? well that only lasted for one day. yesterday i was gonna post bur my parents got on my nerves so bad that i just lost it.(well in my world of darkness i lost it) man it so fricken sucks that when i barely touch the computer my parents go ballistic. my mom just keeps on repeating "get off the computer. is that all u ever do?" and dhere i am thinking 'yeah besides trying to ignore u and trying to keep my self from insulting u. yeah that's all i do.' i try my best to be 'calm' but she annoys the shit outta me. If she wasn't my mother i would probably smack her upside the head.(true but sad) Then there's my dad.*if u can call him a dad mor like a sorry excuse for a father*he just glares at me as if i'm the worst thing that happened to him! we never talk and most of the time we can't even stand seeing eachother*at leat i can't*He's never treated me like a daughter.basicly he's ignored and insulted me in my childhood. so i have no "fatherly love" for him what-so-ever. i would smack him but there's a part of me that fears him...T.T..

my brothers, i love them to death, tho at times i get really angry at them, but i love them. so i can't really hate them...or can i? my sister was the best sis. u could ask for, but she got married. don't get me wrong i love the fact that she's happily married w/daughter. it's just that we're not as close as we use to be.

But i guess there's the inner stuggle that i'm fighting.My parents see me like an irresponsible person and my friends see me as a resonsible and caring friend.but i always end up asking my self:"who/what am i?" "Good or Evil" useful of useless? loved or hated? Those are the questions i ask my self many times over and over. Each time it gets harder for me to control my temper.i'm either in the corner crying my heart out or i'm flaring up w/anger. my life is no longer calm. i feel like i'm breaking apart.Is there meaning to living a life u hate? Is there meaning in hate? But more importantly: Why do we learn to hate?..........

Enough bout this "hate". the one thing that brightened my day was getting to buy some MANGA!!!!!!!!! i bought ARCANA and LAMENT OF THE LAMB. i had a review on the two mangas but i've decided to cut it sort. so here it is.

ARCANA: personally i really liked it and the whole storyline was quite cool. i give it two thumbs up.

LAMENT OF THE LAMB: i didn't really get into it.so i would give it a one thumbs up. i mean u gotta give it some credit for the main characters were vampires.^.^

Wow this is probably the longest post i've written. Guess this is the result of not posting one day.^.^'lol well i guess i better let u guys go. you probably have places to be,ppl to meet/kill/kick/ect...oh yeah i got me a mood ring! it keeps on turning a dark shade of blue. what does that mean? o.k. i'm really leaving now.Thank u for reading (if u did) and please comment.bye.^.~

"I stand alone, everything that I believe in is fading."

~Godsmack
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