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• Celestin

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• the day i first saw sailor moon(4 or yrs. ago)
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• Inuyasha, Yu Yu Hakusho,DragonBall Z, One Piece, Kenshin,Fruits Basket,Angel Sanctuary,Planet Ladder,Saiyuki,Blade of Heaven,Fushugi Yugi,The Vampire Game,Gravitation,Absolute Boyfriend,Godchild,Nana,X...and so many more just to name a few...
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Wednesday, June 7, 2006

   hey....
Today has been...like hell...the littlest of talking w/my family has set my temper loose...and now I’m just about to give up on life...I don’t know why...but for a long time I haven’t thought about cutting myself...but today I have...tho I’ve never cut myself before...it's now very tempting...and the fact that I find it tempting annoys me more...and then I hate that my temper can reach at a level where I can actually do more damage than I’m willing to do...and that annoys me as well...but there is no way of releasing the anger that I have kept inside me for ages...I've been taught to keep it inside...but even that is killing me....I hate to see that I can cause such pain to my family and friends...and yet not regret most of them...is there something wrong w/me...or am I just....evil....I feel like I’m living in my sister's shadow...everyone expects me to be like her...but I’m the opposite of her....I’m cruel...non obedient...and...full of hatred....I just want to scream: "leave me the fuck alone. I’m not sis. why cant u understand that?! That I won’t ever be like her!" but if I do I may be alone...for real...and I cant stand that either....everyone at home thinks I’m ok...I’m not suffering but I am...then there are times when I just want to scream: "I hate you!"....so many things left unsaid....that could be said....but are not...I guess I must spend some time alone…thinking on what I really hate and try to fix it…before I break completely…so if u guys have any advice please do tell me. Well then till the next update. I hope everyone had a great day.

~Celestial69

P.S. no picies today. maybe tomorrow.^.^

on the bright side i got Straight "A"s on my grade card!! for the year!Woohoo!...now i feel better...lol

"I stand alone, everything that I believe in is fading."

~Godsmack
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