Saturday, May 21, 2005

   My love and my sissy are back...
It was all a misunderstanding... the 8th grade dance was insane! People acted like they were drunk! My friends and I were so freaked out so we just did our own thing....explain more tomorrow...
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   Why...WHY?!?!?!?
My yard sale ended two hours early because of rain...looks like I'm going to the 8th grade dance...my mom and aunt are going to make me dress up and there are people I do not want to see going to be there....
Later...They got me...They curled my hair and after I eat it's the makeup and....(dun dun dun) the dress...........Write later...
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Friday, May 20, 2005

   Busy tomorrow
I am doing a yardsale tomorrow to raise money for needy preschool children all day then I'll be at the stupid 8th grade dance where I'll wear....(dun dun dun) a dress........NOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Long story short I wont be here. Sorry Bye for a while,
Aya
(ok....It's only one day but I know you'll miss me!Wish me luck!!!)
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Thursday, May 19, 2005

   So it ends....
Today I lost my boyfriend and sissy. My sister is gone and all I have are the memories of us together, good and bad. Sapphire has left me to be broken and beaten...
Here is a poem to make this post less depressing...

Insanity(Sheridian)
Reality is nice, but I wouldn’t want to live there.
I prefer my world instead.
I’m not suffering from insanity.
I’m enjoying every minute because
Every day’s a new adventure,
Seeing through a different perspective,
There’s no pain, there’s no sorrow,
No yesterdays, no tomorrows,
Just my world.
My world.
Whenever life gets tough, I pretend I’m not there.
I just slip into my world.
It’s where freedom is.
Life is so great when your life is your dreams because
Every day’s a new adventure,
Seeing through a different perspective,
There’s no pain, there’s no sorrow,
No yesterdays, no tomorrows,
Just my world.
My world.
You laugh because I’m different,
And I laugh because you’re all the same…

Another good thing… I survived testing. The characters are copyrights Marit. The poems are copyright me!!!K… bye all…
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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

   I WILL POST MY POEMS!!!
Thanx to sephiroth. I will post some of my poems.Also because
1.I am spontaneous and
2.I'm bored.
K here goes...

Darkness protects Light
As I walk on I see them.
They're so hopeless, but
Doesn't everyone have a past even if they dont have a future?
Dont't they remember being safe in innocence?
Doesn't their spirit long to be free?
Doesn't a life live on after death?
Doesn't a cold heart still beat with warmth?
Doesn't darkness protect light?

I wrote this for a drawing of Michael from the series Model. The drawing turned out really bad but I might post it now.

My sissy and I are writing poems about the webseries Deity. She is writing her poems from the characters' P.O.V and I am writing them about what they control. So far I only have 3 of 11.

Life(Nealie)
Someone once told me
that it takes a lot of effort to live in this world
and someone once tod me
life is harsher than anything else
but they're wrong, oh so wrong
life is taking time to help another
life is loving for eternity
life is hanging with your best friends
and dancing in the pouring rain
life is everything you want to be
life is me
well, don't worry
it'll be alright
sometimes you just have a rough day
what more can I say
just don't worry, keep on smiling and never give up on your dreams.
life is loving for eternity
life is hanging with your best friends
and dancing in the pouring rain
life is everything you want to be
life is me
someone once told me life was hard

Chaos(Daman)
Do you think I like the constaint fighting within myself?
Do you think my soul does not long for a purpose?
Yeah, I'll go out of my way to save you,
but in the end who wil save me from myself?
This war raging in me is tearing me apart.
Can't do nothin' 'bout it.
How long will it take?
How far do I have to go to feel like I belong?
To feel like I belong...
When the darkness in my heart goes too far
will you run away? Or will you stay?
When I open up and show you my light
whey do you think of me as a burden?
This war raging in me is tearing me apart.
Can't do nothin' 'bout it.
How long will it take?
How far do I have to go to feel like I belong?
To feel like I belong...
I can't do nothing
can't do nothing
can't do nothing to feel like I belong.
I'll go out of my way to save you
but in the end who will save me from myself?

I can really relate tho this poem

Pain(Morrigan)
Yesterday I fell against the cold floor.
My leg was bathed in crimson liquid.
I focused on the pain.
It's the only thing that's real.
My heart is as hard as stone.
All I ever feel is pain.
I'm so tired of broken yesterdays
and hopeless tomorrows.
Save me, save me today.
I still walk this lonely road.
It's the only one Ive ever known.
And I still hide from the sun
I wont let it touch me or set me free.
My heart is as hard as stone.
All I ever feel is pain.
I'm so tired of broken yesterdays
and hopeless tomorrows.
Save me, save me today.
The pain's the only thing that's real.
No one really shows what they feel.
Don't walk away.
Save me today.

This poem reminds me of my sissy. It also reminds me of a younger me...Anyway I'm sorry it's so darkish. Please tell me what you think all. Thanx. Good bye for today and good night everyone!!!
^_^b bye, Aya

P.S. Deity and it's characters are copywright of Marit, NOT AMAYA, the poems ARE.
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   I dissappoint myself...
...I have a bad day and I take it out on everyone I know. BAD ME!!!! BAD BAD BAD!!!!!! I was upsets today...Nyeh...Anyways I am still debating whether to put my poems on this site or not. A little help? Please help me decide...Oh and I found these at sparrow.net.tc








(this totally describes me, 'specially today)

For sissy:

It's us!!!

K guys C U laters!!!
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Monday, May 16, 2005

Did I survive the first day of testing?
I don't even know. I'm calminig my nerves. By the way-I forud this...

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Amanda but I'm called Amaya
Birthday:	August 26
Birthplace:	Gotta deathwish?
Current Location:	In my mind
Eye Color:	Right: Blue/Golden Left:Green/Golden
Hair Color:	Blonde
Height:	5'8"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Both
Your Heritage:	Dunno....
The Shoes You Wore Today:	are five year old sketchers with bright blue laces.
Your Weakness:	Not tellin'!
Your Fears:	I honest to god don't have one
Your Perfect Pizza:	EXTRA Cheeze
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Get my web site up and popular.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	Either .... or ^_^ or <^_^>
Thoughts First Waking Up:	The night has passed. The day is dawning. It was all a dream...
Your Best Physical Feature:	I don't know but I love/hate my eyes
Your Bedtime:	Late at night...don't really have one.
Your Most Missed Memory:	All of them...
Pepsi or Coke:	ANYSODAJUSTGIVEMESODA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Both!
Single or Group Dates:	As long as I'm with the one I love.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Don't really care, give me any!
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Bananna!(I like vanilla slightly more...)
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Either...
Do you Smoke:	No!!!Neva want to...
Do you Swear:	Heck no!!! At least not unless I'm reaaaallllyyy mad
Do you Sing:	Yup! Been takin' lessons for about 2 years.Watch for me in the music biz(half joking)
Do you Shower Daily:	More twice per week...
Have you Been in Love:	Eh...yes and we will probably be together forever...
Do you want to go to College:	Yup!
Do you want to get Married:	*blush*
Do you belive in yourself:	YES!!!Most of the time!!!
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Nope.
Do you think you are Attractive:	No...
Are you a Health Freak:	No.
Do you get along with your Parents:	Sometimes.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yes, the chaos of them are calming.
Do you play an Instrument:	NO!!!(I used to play piano and trumpet and I learned how to play the harp in about ten minuates)
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	NO!!!Neva want to..
In the past month have you Smoked:	NONONO!!!!!
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	How many times must I say no?
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Yep! ^_^
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Well, duh!!!
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	Only the middle parts...
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	No...
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Yep, 'bout5 times
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Once or twice.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	NO!!! DON'T EVER ASK ME TO EITHER!!!!
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Only in good fun...^_^
Ever been Drunk:	No...
Ever been called a Tease:	No...
Ever been Beaten up:	Nope! It's the other way around!!!^_^
Ever Shoplifted:	No, never will
How do you want to Die:	Old, painlessly, remembered, as a hero.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Detective or Psychologist or Actor or Singer or Writer or Artist.
What country would you most like to Visit:	ALLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!BWAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	Any
Favourite Hair Color:	Any
Short or Long Hair:	Either
Height:	I dunno, taller than me?
Weight:	Don't care cuz I'm not like that.
Best Clothing Style:	Any!!
Number of Drugs I have taken:	NONE!!!
Number of CDs I own:	Don't care
Number of Piercings:	As long as they don't go overboard I DON'T CARE!
Number of Tattoos:	Don't care!!!!
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	This one depends on what they are...
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

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Sunday, May 15, 2005

   Penacost Sunday
I need to stop staying up past midnight on Fridays and Saturdays... So bored....

Got these from purplepopcorn.com

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Saturday, May 14, 2005

   Adoptin' virtual pets...






I'm a sucker for cute stuffs...
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   IGOTITIGOTIT I GOT IT!!!
I got the 4400 on DVD!!!! *sings* Nya ha! Nya ha! I got it! I feel so lucky! *stops singing* Bad news is I have to WORK on cleaning my room(psh! Yeah right!)
I also have the KOJAC theme song!*sings again* When I need a man...
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