Thursday, November 29, 2007

What each kiss means
What each kiss means
-Kiss on the stomach: I'm ready.
-Kiss on the Forehead: I hope we're together forever.
-Kiss on the Ear: You're my everything.
-Kiss on the Cheek: We're friends.
-Kiss on the Hand: I adore you.
-Kiss on the Neck: We belong together.
-Kiss on the Shoulder: I want you.
-Kiss on the Lips: I love you.

What the gesture means...
-Holding Hands: We definitely like each other.
-SLAP ON THA BUTT: That's mine.
-Holding on tight: I don't want to let go.
-Looking into each other's Eyes; I just plain like you.
-Playing with Hair: Tell me you love me.
-Arms around the Waist: I like you too much to let go.
-Laughing while Kissing: I am completely comfortable with you.

Advice:
Don't ask for a kiss, take one.
If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in Love.

Requirements:
Post this again after reading!!
Or you will have a bad year of Relationships.

If you LIKE, LOVE, OR MISS someone right now
and can't get them out of your head
then Re-post this within One Minute and Whoever you are
missing will surprise you.
Repost this as "what each kiss means"
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Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Damn
Since Casey's passing it looks like I'm not going to see hawthorne heights.They were going to come on december 19th and we're gonna get our tickets renewed.So much for my little cousin's first concert.I'm not mad at Casey or hawthorne heights,im just...mad that casey had to die.i dont care if they were on tour or not.if casey died anyway.i would of been just as upset.i'm gonna tell little yuui now.
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Sunday, November 25, 2007

Casey Calvert
Casey Calvert was a very beloved part of Hawthorne Heights and is now dead.He was with HH since 2001 and passed away yesterday.According to the band he was just messing around on the night of the 23rd and had passed in his sleep and they are dead sure he was not doing anything illegal.He was the rythm guitarist and also did backing vocals(screams).we will miss you Casey and all due respect to his family.Please do not listen to any gossip about his death because we do not want to the memory of him to be tainted.


R.I.P.Casey Calvert(2001-2007)His spot in Hawthorne Heights will never be replaceable
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Wednesday, November 21, 2007

what do i do?
i want to die.simple as that.my nana fucking glared at me when i came out my room with some manga,just because i tripped over a box of videos she put in front of my door!i mean i pucked them up for god's sake!now he's mad at me for always being on th computer.it like the only place i can feel safe.why would i want to return to th real world if everybody's always yelling,screaming,and hurting eachother.i don't kno if anybody's noticed yet,but even th slightest bit of yelling done by my nana makes me cry.it has made me insucure.my cousin yuuki even said that im not as trong as i used to be.there has been times were i have told her i am going to kill myself and i have almost sweared at her.she thinks she's deppressed?!try having to put up with her yelling everyday u come home!eversince i moved in with my step-mom i have heard nothing but yelling.i wish she'd just die and go to hell already!im tired of it!im capeable of doing things by myself.i almost went into foster care because i got deppressed and i would cut myself.it seems she doesnt do anything for me except hurt me emotionally more and more.one time i was on th brink of hanging myself and i tried!I jumped off my cousin's roof with the rope attached to my neck.unfortunately the rope snapped.yuuki has been quiet about it though.i feel like everybody hates me.only my step-mom and my biological dad love me.nana doesnt call me sweetie orhoney or darling like she does with my little brothers and sister.it makes me sad when my dad calls me princess because i feel that im not deserving of that title.there are times that i will not talk for days on end.i'll just sit there with my note book planning my demise.ill draw pictures of me killing myself or suicide notes and poems.i worryed my dad last nigh cuz i wouldnt talk and i usually have fun when im talking with my dad,but all i did was stand there and watch him play wow.why cant anyone see that i am fucking depressed.i got a cold right now cuz if im cold i dont go where it is warm i stay there hoping ill freeze.oand lately i havent eaten.i think im trying to starve myself.she got mad at me cuz i accidently melted a bowl.i put it on the burner and it was still hot.i mean everybody does that every onece in a while.my little brother tryed comforting me.she says thats wat was burning,but she asked me when the food was still cooking.shes such an ass hole who wont listen to the whole story.then she gets me in trouble when i dont do anything b/c they believe her over me cuz she's older.shell bend the truth so much it not even close to th real story.i called her a lier and got in trouble once.another thing she doesnt do is:everyday i crunch up in a corner,break-down and cry until i fall asleep with my face behind my knees.i feel i am useless,i cant do anything right and i was supposed to die a long time ago.my real mom never even loved me.she chose drugs and child melestors over me.now shes ded.i disrespected her so much until my dad said that she was skitsofrantic.i still dont forgive her but it makes it hurt less.if my parents could see what's in my diary,they would see what i always keep locked up.i fell that there is no one who could help me.i dont see why ppl make a big deal out of suicide any way cuz we all have to die any way.it just like roses,but in this case.i am the very ugly rose.everybody says im pretty,but i always tell ppl that they are prittier cuz i like to make ppl happi even if i am not.i dont think i can ever be happy.sometimes i think im in a coma and that i will wake up anyday now.ive just been in it for 13 years now.i wonder when i will die.i think its the best thing to do.it would make nana happi and if shes happi everybodies happi.but raven would be sad cuz we both made a promise not to break eachothers hearts cuz theyre broken enuff.just everyday...it feels like ice cold hands are ripping into the flesh of my chest,ripping out my heart,then slowly ripping my sould apart so i suffer more and more,but the pain feels even more real th next day.u kno wat?i am not even safe in my dreams.i have dreams of ppl pushing my off of buildings and cliffs and it hurts so much when i hit th ground.i suffocated in my dream too!if i didnt wake up i would be here.sometimes i wonder if i right to wake up.on sunday i woke up with a terrible headache because i had a dream i shot myself in the head and this morning i had a dream my best friend betrayed me and choked me.now my throat hurts.now my little brothers crying and i wish i would die the most horrible,terrifying,painful death right nowi cant even try to smile and eyes hurt from crying.i need some help,anyway that wat yuuki says.but who could help me?
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Video of the week
u kno th drill

japanese tetris parody

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Sunday, November 18, 2007

okay....i have some things to say


dont join the military


This is for naruto...

on the weekends,don't wake me up so early or i'll look like this









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Thursday, November 15, 2007

video of the week
Okay,same as last time.if you like the video more than the rest of the videos i'll post on here,then,vote for it.

Shoes-Kelly

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Saturday, November 10, 2007

New Album
AFI is coming out with a new album

my fan site needs more members.just PM me to join.u should check it out.i have news about the cd and Guitar Hero III
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Thursday, November 8, 2007

   video of the week
okay,i want you to watch this and if you like this more than the rest of the videos i post during the month,you can vote for it when i have the video of the month.

Gerard singing umbrella

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   *Update*Raven's sleepover
I did go,but i am not aloud to go see her for awhile,but i had lots of fun and i might of made out with her a few times.lol.
my cousin yuuki:akward.
yes,i know.well,sorry it took so long to get it updated.
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