Wednesday, June 15, 2005

   Bah...
*sigh* I'm clamer now, no less mad and hateful of course, just calmer. I've been holding up in my room, giving everyone the silent treatment and the cold shoulder, except Draven (brother), he's okay, I love him after all. I don't wanna really let it go, cause it is so unfair. And the worst part is, nobody around here Cares how I feel, no no, infact, my mother doesns't like me giving her my attitude, so she threatened to call my father and have me go stay with him. What kinda threat is that, to make one stay with the other parent? But my dad and I would rip eachother apart in a matter of days, I love him more than life, but he and I clash if we are together for long periods of time, se la ve.
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Wednesday, June 8, 2005

   Okay!
Okiday, today I'm gonna put links to pics of my cosplay from A-kon! Whoo-hoo!!! lol Anyway, here they are...

http://www.otakuhigh.com/Akon16/gallery/Akon-16-Fri day/DSC00008

http://kse3.dyndns.org//ah/akon2005/pics/IMG_2746.jp g

Yay lol I saw those on others Cosplay galleries, it was So scary...lol Anyway, I'm gonna go sleep now...Tired...Bye bye bye bye........Bye....lol
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Monday, June 6, 2005

   Mew..
Okay A-kon was AWESOME! But my feet hurt! I had to work in the dealers room for 9 Hours! AH! Selling DVD's...hee hee but I got's free stuff so no worries....I'll have to upload pictures later...*lazylazy*....¬.¬ lol Yah so...Home life's been a little hectic the last few days:

My mother told my stepdad to go to his parents to get some money for gas, he went, got 20 bucks, spent 8 on food, then spent the rest at his friends for Pot! Then came back to my mom and said he needed money for gas. Fuckin' Dumbass! Well they were at odd's for a while, then mom asked him to Leave, he went ballistic and started yelling and stuff, she told him to leave, get one of his friends to come get him or something, but no one wanted him, so he stayed the night. Sometime during the day he Burned, dear god Burned!...one of my mothers books, for anyone that knows me, you should know how much I could have Killed him when I saw that.....anyway....Well my mother woke me up about 4:30 this morning asking if I had been on the computer or if I had seen her glasses, No to both, so I tried to go back to sleep. Then the yelling started up again and my mother came in a while later to tell me he had destroyed her glasses (which I saw later and they were Trashed, they were an expensive pair too..) that he had come at her with our iron, like he was gonna hit her, and to call the police, so I did, they came out and took him outside, Draven (my little brother) came and stayed with me for a while, then they were gone...Mom went to work, Draven went to his aunt's, and here I am at home alone. I don't want him to come back...I really really don't....anyway again....

I'm kinda cold and kinda tired, but I'm trying to pick up the mess he made, keepin' busy I spose..lol Oh well. I'll live...lol Wish he wouldn't....Blegh..

In the name of God impure souls of the living dead shall be banished into eternal damnation. Amen.
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Thursday, June 2, 2005

   Ah! Been a while.
lol Neh, I am Tired! Been a busy time, working on my outfit for A-Kon this year, I am Cos/Crossplaying as Edward Elric from the anime Full Metal Alchemist, fits me so well, we are both Chibi! lol Anyway if I figure it out, I'll post some links here to some pics of it! Damn Automail...grr...lol Yah, so, Anyway! I have Posted! My will be Done! lol I'll try to post liks in about a week, I gots lotsa places that I need to update still, so see y'all.
In tha name of God, impure souls of the living dead shall be Banished into eternal damnation. Amen.
PEACE OUT YO! =3
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Monday, March 28, 2005

   Alucard. It IS Alucard, Not Arucard, the Japanese do not have L's I believe, so that's why it's typed up as Arucard...It's Alucard=Dracula, not Arucard=Dracura!! It's just...NO DAMMIT!..*breathes* Below is a good description and explination of him.
(This is Not necessary to be read, I Promise!!!)

He's suave, he's strong, he's Super sexy, he has swarms of fangirls (I'm on of them, thank you! Back off!), he sports a dashing set of fangs . . . and the vampire Alucard is an unwilling servant of the Hellsing family, and the organization's trump card.

Of course, just because he's stuck in the position of a servant, that doesn't mean Alucard is subservient in any way. He holds an overarching contempt for humanity in general, and is downright disgusted by most of the vampires that Hellsing dispatches him to destroy. He may not be able to physically harm Integra (or, for that matter, bite her), but the two engage in regular verbal sparring matches, in which a certain sardonic smirk never leaves his face.

And it isn't like they just lob insults at each other, either. A discussion between Integral and Alucard is usually an intelligent, well-reasoned, calmly carried out debate . . . full of hidden nuances, carefully veiled threats, and a lot of things left unsaid. Underneath the civil appearance between these two is a whole lot of animosity - based on species; he can't stand being bound in servitude to a human and she's grown up hating vampires - but underneath that, there's a mutual respect and caring that neither would actually admit to.

Alucard has a lot of pride and dignity, being a very old and powerful vampire (567 years, actually). Put that together with plenty of disdain for humans, and you can see that he wouldn't ever confess to having a friendship-ish-thing with any of them. But he has a similar connection with Walter, even though the mild-mannered butler leaves it unsaid out of respect for Alucard's notion of dignity.

And Alucard has a bit of respect for Seras, the girl whom he turned into a vampire; she has yet to figure this out, since he treats her with plenty of contempt on the surface, and she's still too insecure to notice. He doesn't understand why she tries so hard to hold on to her humanity - he lost his own centuries ago, and has been doing just fine without it. But he can see the strength and potential within her, the qualities that will someday make her a worthy (in his eyes) member of the undead.

While we're at it, Alucard also has some spark of admiration for the counterpart trump card of the Iscariot organization, Paladin Alexander Andersong. Again, he shamelessly mocks the priest to his face, but has admitted that Alex is brave - and good for an entertaining fight on occasion.

So there you have Alucard. Aloof and mocking on the surface, but a very complex personality underneath - oh, and he has guns. Big guns. Can't forget about them. After all, he may be an enigma, but there remains one aspect of his character that's very simple: he aims, he fires, and things go boom.

Why do I love Alucard? The short answer is: because he's so damn cool.

I can and will give you a longer answer, but that's basically what it comes down to. Alucard's coolness is an overpowering and irrefutable aspect of Hellsing, one of the things that helps draw people to the series at first glance. Those people who haven't seen a lot of Hellsing tend to be Alucard fans, and this is why.

The guy has style. His long and uniformely red ensemble is very classy; his motions are elegant and minimalist, and it doesn't hurt that he never has to worry about dodging bullets; he wields his massive guns with the kind of artistry that comes when you execute art for art's sake. He does everything with superb confidence: he's good and he knows it.

Integra may be the title character of the Hellsing series, but I have to admit that Alucard is the embodiment of it. The elaborate panels of battle scenes that crisscross the manga, filled with the swirls of torn fabric and bodies, the swarms of bats, the whorls of darkness, the pools and splashes of inked-in blood - these usually involve Alucard, and those that don't seem to have the same signature nevertheless. The morbid wisdom and occasional philosophy that the series has to offer is frequently from Alucard's speech and actions; the rest of the time, although different characters have different perspectives to offer, the best and most lasting ideas are similar to his. The whole mood of the series is Alucard's mood as well: the cockiness, the violence, the confidence, the darkness, the humor in some places and the deadly seriousness in others.

In short, if you love Hellsing as a whole, you can't help but love Alucard. Of course, some of his traits endear me to him more than others. His inner struggles, for instance (and yes, I can hear you saying "What inner struggles?" They're brought to the surface rarely if at all - and I like that too - but they're there) fascinate me. His psychology fascinates me (hence the title). His self-confidence impresses me, as Integra's does.
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   Mondays...
I'm not too fond of them, but today was okay, for it was a B-Day (block scheduling at school lol) and I love most of my B-Days! lol Anyway, I'll see if I can post some more art later, it'll probably be some of my Vash work from my Trigun obsession....lol Anyway! Well I think I'm done ranting, Chao anyone!
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Sunday, March 27, 2005

   Ah, EASTER!
The Holiday of Me, chocolate, and Eggs. My Kinda Day! lol Happy Easter to one and all! Now I'f I can just figure my way around this place.....lol
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