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Thursday, February 23, 2006
Mishy has many hardships ahead...
Not the tittle of my life story part two, but of NOW. Ok, I wasn't going to tell you, since I don't want anyone worrying, but I have to in case...
MISHY (AKA me..)
-Right side of heart has leaky valve
-Thyroid not producing enough enzyme or something...
-I may have a problem with stomach or appendix...
When I went to the doctors yesterday, I had sharp, stabbing pains on my left side high up where my ribcage was. A sharp, stabbing pain, yes. Like a minute it'd be like- someone poking me UBER HARD then go to a soft poke of my side, and it hurt. I got an antibiotic that says I shouldn't be exposed to light or fake light for a long time. Why? If it's strong, while it's traveling through my bloodstream, it could give me a rash, that's why. I'm going today at 7 to get a sonogram of my stomach and appendix. Haven't eaten since 12, doc's orders. Just 2 hrs. 15 min. to go, right? Rosalie keeps saying "Michelle, if you get it removed, can I have your appendix?" Then, her and Angie go on about how they KNEW it was going to rupture and I'm gonna die. Lovely advice to give, eh? I'm scared that I might since I have a heart murmur already! T.T Cia, you said you had lotsa stuffs like operations, did this happen to you? *sigh* I'm hungry and scared of the results. Angie said that if I get too excited or some emotion, I could have a heart attack, since during Advisory Class, me, Rosalie, and Bobby were laughing REALLY hard. I got to the point I tried hushing them, couldn't speak since I was laughable, hard to open jaw, couldn't breath, and started tearing. I have an UBER BAD migrane headache now... eeeeh... I do hope I don't get a heart attack or die, though. Then I think-before I was born, I had no memories, no thoughts, never existed, didn't have even a brain to see pitch black...if I die, I won't think. See no black, just be gone. I'm crying now, since the idea of death does scare me. Especially if I DIE. God, I'm pathetic. Hopefully, I can scan my new piccys, Rosalies, and Nikki's to prove Fern and Raeza wrong. eheheh... *sigh* I'm uber hungry. I hope I don't need an operation. Hold on...
Sorry, contemplating. Okies, I'll say it. I think I'm gonna die. Really... *sobs* I'm scared. I also think I am depressed. Not ya know, sad, but depressed as in that medical condition. My mom is. i read her notebook I found, and she wrote her problems (she has LOTS, poor Mther-Bear...) and depression was one of them. It's al my fault, and everything bad happening right now, I'm blaming on myself. I blame myself for ThePupInuyasha leaving, my mom being depressed, people hating someone I am close to...I just can't handle all this stress! I really am going to get a heart attack, eh? *sigh* I just pray to God, I live to have a family and be all I can before I am deceased. I need a boyfriend to cheer me up right about now... lemme see:Eric-getting along better, we talk, walk to 6th period together, he doesn't completely hate me now. Nestor-we talk when he's not surrounded by friends other than Alex, he's not a jerk (always...), he likes poking me. This is relativley new, actually... and well, I'm only interested in them both. Oh well. Matthew keeps bugging me and staring at me. Dante is forever hitting on me, but Matthew is cute, so I don't particuarly mind, Dante however...eh. Not so great. He hits on 6th graders and ma friends, that perv. *sigh* I really wish I could have the strenghth to hug Nessy, Eric, or Mat...(nicnames, BTW..) Ah. *Mishy dreams* Yes, yes, I am a lovesick girl, neh? And I like all older anime guys, I'm so sad! T.T Pathetic creature am I...crap! It's five now. Sweet Jebus. I'd better go. Have much planning to do...MUCH. Wish me luck, guys![insert heart symbol here] NNNNOOOOOOOOOO! Grandma making food (smells GOOD!!!) and I can't eat! T.T WAGA! >_<;;;
Sayonara, I begin my journey now...
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