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• Michelle
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• Become a manga-ka, or novelist :)
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• My pinky can bend a full 90-deg. angle and turn completley backwards (now), and uhm...I'm pretty good at DDR :) (Heavy, and Oni) ^-^
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Sunday, June 25, 2006
In the depths of darkness, love is nowhere to be found...
*Laugh a fake smile*
I am feeling better today, I think...Drei-Kun not answering his phone, nor has he called...I worry if it's my fault...I have not cut myself though...that is...good, right? *sigh* Like a selfish child endlessly hoping for everything in the world, crying when reminded she can not have anything at all...I am nothing more than that...a child...a stubborn wallowing-in-self-pity-child...I fear for us...I do...why must I feel so frustrated and confused..?! I do not like this feeling...Then again...maybe it was never meant to be....after all, you should not think what you're feeling...if you do, what does that mean you are...? *sigh*
Listening to: A Lack Of Color-Death Cab for Cute
:) Yaays...? This song is so sad and makes me cry, reminding me of my situation...*sigh* I must stop this wallowing...I did not lift the veil to my true world...I kept it closed shut, waiting for someone to carry it off....it never was....here I am, still living this lie...what a shame...?! Am I being cryptic? Poetic? Burden-ish? Forgive me...*sigh* Again I go with the 'I'm so sad, look at me, I wallow in self-pity and act sad like a child'-act. It's horrible...do I crave this attention? What is wrong with me? Perhaps I do...Heh. Stupid Michelle...self-pity, there we go again...*chuckle* I do not care if anyone comments...I feed off the attention, isn't that right Michelle? They're what keep you going...what keep you sane...what keep you alive and begging for more...all this help I am getting...heh. It makes me crave the attention of people worrying about me...I really am a selfish child, aren't I? I will not cut myself, so do not worry to give me that which I feed off of...human kindness...I laugh in their faces, spitting, smitting, laughing at their stupidity...I am not a very good human being, am I? I need therapy, man... heh. Like that ever helped me... right...is this really me...? Or have they taken over? I dunno...maybe I am...scizophrenic? Who knows...I black out a lot, and whenever I ask my friends wha I did, they laugh like I'm joking, not answering me...saying they forgot...they would...they don't take me seriously on that matter...truth be told, I scare the shyt out of myself a lot...I must go...wallpapers need making...I submitted my background have now...it's old...I was lazy so it's all late...no one looked at my newest fanart of a week or two ago...thanks...though, it's ok, really...it's not your fault, and I blame no one....as long as people keep up with me, I am happy enough, yet guilty I don't do the same...*sigh*
Thank you so much if you read all of this crap. heh. I think I am scizophrenic....nice...
Okies, well do check out my fanart and new wallpaper...
You know that Sasuke and Naruto bg I made? Yeah...some idiot accused me of plagiarizing that pic. I had to crop off a lot of the pic to only have Naruto and Sasuke, fill in a lot of white spaces in the pic, and typed the text myself, and they accuse me of stealing the wallpaper. It took a LONG time to make...bish...
Should I submit it again? I dunno....*huggles*
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I smile to hide the pain of eveyday
I have my problems like everyone else
I just handle them a little differently...
~*~
[Insert fake smile here]
[Insert false hope line here]
[Insert hug here]
End.
God, people are gonna call me emo or shyt...
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