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Friday, December 29, 2006
ZOMFG >
i am soo stupid!
I've realized that i don't ever consider anyone else's feelings any longer D:
i'm always thinking about my problems and too depressed to pay attention to any one else's
when i notice people have it much worse than me
people living in poverty and can't afford loaves of bread, when my family just recently received a 56 inch plasma for our theater room.
Some people don't even have three rooms, kitchen, bathroom and bedroom.
My family had four bedrooms, a workout room, a utility room, dining room, living room, pantry ROOM, two and a half bathrooms, and a theater room.
Some people can't afford cheap clothes, while i'm always wearing the latest fashions.
and to top it all off i've got to have the genious, artistic, musical, and athletic genes.
i feel so terrible.
so many people have it so much worse than i do.
and to top it all off, i've been told i'm not bad looking by many guys my age and three years older.
I feel like such a dumbass for not considering anybody else's problems, if they have them i try to console them. I WANT to help but i can't
there's nothing i can truly do.
But lately i've been depressed...
I've seen so much more things that no one is eer supposed to see, having someone die in front of you is not an easy sight to hold. I know this.
having friends commit suicide or dying unexpectedly isn't easy to cope with. I know this.
And finding out that a family member can never keep the promise they told you because they died on their way home one day isn't at ALL easy to deal with. I know this.
I suppose i was caught up in my own petty problems, none of the above, that all happened earlier in my life.
But i suppose it's hormones and shiz that make the smallest things count now.
i can't freakin' see the screen,
i've got a B in math
or i can't run a mile within 3 minutes.
so what?
i can't believe i stressed myself over stupid things like that when there are people who have it much worse, and to top it all off I got EVERYTHING i wanted for Christmas.
I feel so spoiled, so pampered.
I can't take it any longer.
I want to help others but i'm too much of a spazzy clutz to do so...
So, for those of you who had problems and felt like i didn't consider them, i am so sorry.
Please do forgive me.
ZOMFG >
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