Thursday, July 24, 2008

   New.
I was looking at my comics cover just the other day and realized how ridiculously godawful it was. And with that i finally realized why no one was favoriting my comic (on here or smackjeeves) So i drew a new one. Much cuter, and it even looked more like the characters. i'm satisfied with it, for now. lol. I also fixed up the first chapter art, which im actually contemplating completely redrawing.

now to stray from the subject of what I have sold my soul to. lol. i went putt-putting yesturday, with my sisters and a few of their friends. and my one sister had brought along someone i hadn't met before. well i guess he thought i was cute and wanted my sister to set us up. this would have been pleasant... you know, if i wasn't illegal for him. (he's 19) but im used to that happening. it has actually happened alot in the past. i hang out with my older sisters and their friends all the time so become friends with their friends. then theres always the one that wants me. and im always illegal. maybe i should just stop hanging out with people alot older than me. lol. i never hang out with people my age, they're always at least 3 years older than me. i dont mean to, its just how it always happens.

wow, that whole last paragraph sounded really conceited. forgive me. lol.

So, i really hate sleeping. It is such a waste of time. There are so many better things I could be doing instead of sleeping 8 hours a night. think, if someone lives about 90 years, give or take, and they slept roughly 8 hours a night, then they have slept 30 years of their life. that thought just freaks me out. there is so much that could be done in that 30 years, why would anyone waste it in a dream world? ugh, i wish people didnt need sleep. with all that extra time, people could do anything! lol.

i just needed to get that out of my system. well, thats all for today. see you! =D

-CG.
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Monday, July 21, 2008

   wow.
so i haven't been on in forever. my comic is so time consuming. also, having a life is a big contributor. lol.

so, im really close to beating pokemon pearl. i know it came out like forever ago, and i bought it then too, i just never got around to really playing it until about a week ago.

still on the subject of video games, my WoW (world of warcraft) account has expired. i don't have enough money to pay for another month (I'm $360 in debt at 15, how sad is that?) but i want to play really bad. i need a job.

on a happier note, I've realized something. (and it's to my benefit. yay.) So, you know how people always say, "you can't get good at something overnight, blah blah blah..." well, thats kinda a lie. you see because I got good at stepmania overnight. (stepmania is like DDR and ITG, but on the comp. and you do it with your fingers on the arrow keys.) One day I was playing and i could barely do a song on standard, and the next i was rocking heavy and getting AA's. lol. no joke here. i hope thats what happens with ITG (i'm still on standard when i do it with my feet.) cause i play all the time, and im hoping to get better.

before i wrap this up, i wanted to mention that i've started doing digital art. i'm finally starting to get a hang of my corel essentials program. yay. so i would love if some of you would check it out. ;D

right now im working on a fanart of ash and misty. lol. im such a nerd, but i love it!

well, thats all for today. see you!

-CG.

p.s. i feel stupid asking, but i can't figure out how to change my icon. does anyone know?
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Sunday, June 15, 2008

   Hey Hey.
Hey everyone! =D Sorry that I haven't been on in the past few days. I've been working really hard on my comic. It's so time consuming. lol.

Well this isn't gonna be a very long post because I have to go to bed. I have cross country training in the morning. I just wanted to share my hard work. Check out the first page of my comic, what do you think?



If you think it looks interesting you can check it out at www.innocentrebellion.smackjeeves.com or just click on the page of my comic. i would really appreciate it. my comic needs more support. lol.

On a second note, i must mention that i saw the movie speed racer in theaters the other day. I had had low expectations for it. I didn't think it was gonna be that good. But Jon made me and alicia come and see it with him. omg. it was amazing. i was smiling the whole way through the movie. so you know how people sometimes make fun of disney movies because the people in them fall in love in like three days and its completely improbable? well, i say screw that, because it only took me two hours to fall in love with speed racer. also, not to mention the guy that played him was smokin' hot! lol. i cant wait until it comes out on dvd. i wanna see it again. well, thats all for now. see ya! =D

-CG.
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Tuesday, June 10, 2008

   What to do. What to do.
I'm so confused. Its about the guy friend i mentioned before. I really like him alot. But i don't know if I should tell him. i don't wanna ruin our friendship, but i can't stop thinking about him. i haven't seen him since the school year ended and i miss seeing him everyday. We text each other pretty much everyday, but its just not the same.

What i really wish i could figure out is if he likes me or not. He is so hard to read, i just can't tell. I'm usually very good at reading people. As an artist I'm always observing people. But that isnt even helping in this situation, because he just has such a good poker face.

The other day i was sitting there wondering what i liked about him so much. It wasn't that hard to figure out. He's extremely smart. He got straight A's all year. He's independent. Hes a computer geek, and a gamer. Hes pretty cute in his own way. He has perfect teeth, and the brightest smile. He's tall and thin, and has these deep brown eyes.

Advice? Especially from the guys. I would love some insight into the male mind. lol.
(and please more than just if i should tell him or not. im curious as to how and whatever you think would help. lol. i really need help with this.)

To think, two years ago I didn't even know he existed.

-CG.
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Sunday, June 8, 2008

   new comp.
right now i am completely content. first off i just got a new comp. (which im on right now.) its working great and its just so much better than my old one. and so much more convenient. =D

secondly, there is this guy friend of mine that i really like. and today he did the sweetest thing. (well for him at least. hes not necessarily on the sweet side.) something happened on tuesday with him that i wasnt too happy about. but you know hes always doing asshole-ish things so i just forgot about it. but then today he sent me a text telling me he was sorry for ditching me he just didnt know that girl that was sitting there. i had completely forgotten about it, but it was obviously still on his mind for him to bring it up now. it makes me actually feel like he cares. sometimes i cant tell if he does. idk. but it just made me really happy. cause i like him alot. =D

-CG.
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Friday, June 6, 2008

   cedar point was so epic.
okay, so cedar point was the shit today. I mean I've already riden every roller coaster in the park but it was still ridiculously fun. I went with my sis, her friend jon (whose pretty much like an older brother to me), and his friend liz.

i got to ride everything i had wanted. We rode the raptor, millenium, mavrick, maxair, power tower, dragster, and probably something else im forgetting to mention. I mean, jon did break my phone screen with his ass but i don't care. i have a warranty on it. The day was still good. lol.

Now to explain the whole jons ass smahing my phone screen thing. Well, first off i have to mention that I have an enV. Now, if you have one you know those are thick ass phones. but its worth it for the keyboard. anyway, so we went to go ride millenium and i told jon to hold my phone in his back pocket. So he did. Well we didnt even think that 160 lbs jon sitting on it would be too much pressure for it. well it was. and we got off millenium and i grabbed my phone out of his back pocket to text someone and i open my phone to find the screen fucked up. i was so pissed. but i dont blame jon. i actually don't really care anymore. i mean i can still use it. you can still kinda see the screen on the left side. and i can still call people on it. as well as text. im all good.

but yeah.
Check this shit out.



And no, thats not some sweet background. That would be my phone screen smashed to shit.

the part im really worried about is telling my parents. ill tell you how it goes. lol. that should be interesting.

-CG.



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Thursday, June 5, 2008

   I'm Back!!
Well, I haven't been here in forever. I've been much too busy. But now I'm back and rocking it. sweet. I'm going to cedar point tomorrow. (Well technically later today) should be epic as hell. I'm excited. Of coarse since I have a season pass i can pretty much go whenever, but you know, its still awesome. =D

I'm happy to be back. But I gotta go get some rest so i can enjoy some millenium force. See ya!
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Saturday, April 21, 2007

   Friends...
Alright. So, I used to be friends with this girl at my school. But since I don't want to publicise her name I'm gonna call her "Sally".

And yes, before I did say I used to be friends with her. Not anymore. Although some of my friends are still friends with her and they sometimes ask me why I'm not her friend anymore. So here's my answer.

I honestly just don't get along with her. I mean, she's not a bad person. Really, Sally's nice most of the time. But I'm just sick of everything! I'm sick of sitting in the corner of the room the whole time at a dance trying to make her feel better, because shes stuck herself there and is crying about something ridiculous. She does that every single time! I mean, if dances turn out that bad every time you go, then don't!

Also, she's depressed most of the time. I mean, I can understand someone being depressed if their having a hard time. But everyone is always giving her advice and telling her things to make her happy. I have even tried! But all she does is come back with this ridiculous emo bullshit about why her life sucks, and how she doesn't deserve anything good.

Everyone wastes their time trying to give her a positive outlook. But she is never going to change! I even asked her one time if she had the chance at something better, or happier if she would take it. She told me no. She said liked being depressed. So, I stopped trying to give her advice. Because if she doesn't want to be happy, why even try to make her that way?

Sally might just act depressed all the time for attention or she might need medication. I really don't know. All I do know is that something isn't right.
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Saturday, March 31, 2007

   11:29 a.m., I feel alone.
People can so easily hurt others, without even realizing it.

I'm an optimistic person, I'm happy most of the time and I always think about the good in life. But, I sometimes feel like I'm obligated to be happy. I mean, most of the time I am, but, when ever I feel sad, my friends don't even seem to care. I feel like they just think, "Oh, with the way she is she'll come out of it." But thats not true. When you're sad it hurts hearing that. And even my close friends seem to just blow me off. They always care when other people are sad, so they stay with them, comfort them. But when I tell them I'm sad, they just think it's not that big of a deal and they don't even try to make me feel better. And because they do that, I get the feeling that they don't even want to be my friend or hang out with me. It makes me feel alone. I hate being alone.

So, if this stuff hurts so much, why do I pretend like it doesn't bother me. I think I've figured out that I pretend like I don't care because I'm trying to be a good friend, a better friend. Because as I said before, I already feel like they don't even like me, and I want them to. So I try to be a better friend. I just can't understand why they can't see how hard I'm trying. I don't want to loose my friends.

Everthing seems to be going wrong. I'm not usually like this, but right now I feel like I'm loosing everything.
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Friday, March 23, 2007

   blah.
I really don't know my mood right now. But I know its not happy. I've been feeling kinda crumby lately. And I've been having to listen to nothing but happy music to keep my mood decent. blah. I really don't know what it is thats making me feel like so much crap. I hate being unhappy. =[

Anyway, on a better note, I'm going to a sleepover at my friends house for her birthday tomorrow. It is going to be soooooo fun. It was last year. I fell asleep in her grandpas wheelchair(don't ask). So maybe that will put me in a better mood. I hope.

So, to keep up my mood, and anyone elses I'm going to put up a funny quote from them book I'm reading.

"I think if you don't like a girl, then you shouldn't horse around with her at all, and if you do like her, then your suppose to like her face, and if you like her face, you ought to be careful about doing crumby stuff to it, like squirting water all over it." --Holden Cawffle, The Catcher in the Rye.

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