Thursday, June 7, 2007

   14 more days!!!
emo guy left today(too bad, i was starting 2 like him as a friend) michelle was being a bitch today again, one of the overdose kids is back, and my happy pills are making me hyper. so all in all, pretty normal day
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Tuesday, June 5, 2007

   still not sure about emo guy
im on happy pills and im waiting 4 them 2 kick in but i have a little more energy than bfor so i guess they're starting 2 work........I MISS MY FRIENDS DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!
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Saturday, June 2, 2007

   scary day at prairie st john
today was supposed to be "fun friday" but two boys got their greedy little hands on a lot of pills and were stuffing their faces when staff wasnt looking. they were both carried out in an ambulance 'cause of overdose. i didnt realize they were doing anything so i just heard all of this stuff from other teens there. 1.they hid the pills in a pen 2.the pills were small,white and some were colored 3.they were warned by some of the kids in my group but they ignored them 4.when they dropped some pills on the floor, a different boy dove under the table to grab them so we think he gave the pills to them. thats about all i know about it and hopefully they wont come back to prairie st john 'cause i didnt like either of them in the first place....wow, its only my second day here and already something bad has happened....anyone think im cursed?
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Wednesday, May 30, 2007

   prairie st john aka my living hell on earth
i have to go to a god damn CONDO looking place to help me with my anxiety?!?!?! FUCK the people who say that place is an office!!! it looks more like someones god damn fucking house!!! and what the hell is with the whole arts and crafts?!?! im not five years old damnit!!!!!!! im going to my personal hell for a month......GET ME THE HELL OUTTA HERE!!!!! *runs for the door screaming then suddenly stops* anyone have ideas how i can make it a living hell for the people who work there without breaking any rules?
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Thursday, May 24, 2007

more sad sayings
"i dont miss you i miss the person i thought you were"
"all i can do is smile and pretend im okay"
"tell me why i lost you tell me why you lied tell me that you loved me or at least you tried"
"you shouldnt be anything special to me your just another guy you shouldnt lead me especially if its a lie.one day its love the next day its done you hurt me too much to be the one."
"she sits in the corner singing herself to sleep wrapped in the promises that noone seems to keep"
"love hurts.boys lie.friends cry.people die.parents yell.you always try.your never good enough and you dont know why."
"i hurt myself today to see if i can still feel i focus on the pain because its the only thing real the needle tears a hole and becomes a familiar sting i try to kill the pain but i remember everything"
"im suffocating under your lies"
"i love you is eight letters long but then again so is bullshit"
"excuse me but i think you forgot to give me back my heart back when you so kindly ripped it out"
"what lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies inside us"
"the best things in life are unseen thats why we close our eyes when we kiss, cry and dream"
"i want to go back to believing everything and knowing nothing at all"
"im not afraid of happy endings im just afraid life wont work that way"
"our vision becomes clear when we're blinded by tears"
"im not crying over what you said its what you didnt say that hurts me the most"
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i found some sad quotes on quizilla
"cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are."
"i try to keep it together but im falling apart"
"dead in her mind and cold to the bone she opened her eyes and saw she was alone"
"i told you from the start just how this would end"
"numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it"
"pain doesnt hurt when its all you ever felt"
"everything i know about breaking hearts i learned from you"
"real tears are not the ones that fall from the eyes and cover the face but those that fall from the heart and cover the soul"
"can we go back to kindergarten when cutting meant stealing a spot in line?"
"i think its cute when you say im pretty i just hate liars"
"dont say everythings perfect when everythings broken"
"sticks and stones may break my bones but words can shatter a soul"
"so slice open my vein and let the romance bleed away"
"sometimes the person you want the most your better off without"
"it hurts to love you the way she does and then look at you and realize how much you dont care..."
"sometimes i wish i could fastforward to see if it was ever worth it"
"im broken when im lonesome..i dont feel right when you've gone away"
"how can i feel if i cant breath"
"i love walking in the rain because nobody can see my tears"
"2am and im still awake writing a sad love song"
"sometimes i want to go to sleep and never wake up"
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Monday, May 21, 2007

   more random shit

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

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   random shit

Your Psyche is Blue

You are deeply emotional and very connected to everything (and everyone) around you. By simply understanding other people, you are able to help them heal and let go. While you are a very deep and thoughtful person, you do have a very silly, superficial side. When you are too blue: the weight of the world's problems hangs over you When you don't have enough blue: you lack perspective and understanding

What Color Is Your Psyche?

You're Totally Sarcastic

You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny. Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it. And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad.

How Sarcastic Are You?

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Friday, May 18, 2007

this post 4 school friends
hi guys, srry i haven't been 2 school 4 a week and i have more bad news 4 u...i might not go back 2 school this year...i have 2 have day treatment 4 my anxiety and depression(i didnt tell them i wanted it, they thought it would help me)so i dont know wen ill see u guys again, im going 2 send an e-mail saying the same thing and mayb call a few of u.
*4 hours later*
mom told me 2 say this so noone freaks out *clears throat* "im okay, nothing bad happened 2 me, and i miss u guys T^T"
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

   SCREW THIS!!!!!
im getting sick a lot!!!! Today its a really bad cough, yesterday stomach was upset, and who knows wat it will be tomorrow!!!!!!!
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