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• 1989-10-00
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• in Miyavi's Head
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• 2004-09-29
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• Learning all about Miyavi
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• MaiChii

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• i have over 200 picos of Miyavi ^0^
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• umm...sincer ever
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• Chobits, Rozen Maiden, Air, and more
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• to Become Miyavi's wife
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• Listening to Japanese rock, playing the piano...ummm i love Ribbons...(no i am not the type who loves the color pink and still plays with barbie's) i just like ribbons for christ sake ...now look you made me angry...let me think of cruel and unjust punish
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• *giggles like a cute little girl who just killed her family...with a kitchen knife...and cut them to little pieces...limb by promising limb...laughing...she drops the blood stained blade to the floor...and sings a little song...about everyones wrongs...*




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Friday, January 14, 2005

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well this is how i feel like there are two of me and one is sad and is able to become happy...and the other is angry and wants blood...i feel trapped inside and there is a way out but i cant find it...i know where it is but im lost...and the other me laughs and taunts me...haunts me...and all i can do is try not to listen to my burning soul...my heart seems to dissapear everytime i need it to be there...my mind goes blank when i need it the most...and i play the piano...and when i do everything dissapears and it is just me...and my piano...my life changes and i feel perfect...i play fur elise and canon my two favorite songs that i love to play...i play them over and over until my hands ache and my heart is full...but when i stop all the memories come back...and i feel worse that i have ever felt before...that os false hope...false hope is when you think you have something great and you dont...and i told myself a long time ago that nothing was wrong...but i have to stop lying to myself...its not healthy...and i understand that cutting myself isnt healthy either...but its not something i plan on doing...i dont go around saying "hmm after my nice dinner of french fries i will cut the living hell out of my leg" no it is just something that happens...i try to stop but...that other me...tells me too...and im afraid...so i do it...

~Chii~
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