Friday, June 29, 2007

Hasta la Vista!
Ok here's the deal. Btw this is Thursday night. Anyway about tomorrow...My step-dad's daughter and her her spouse are coming into town to visit with their two daughters. I'm going to have to babysit for the better part of next week. Then they are going to visit other family for a couple days. Then they come back with us for two or three days and then they are going back home. So I'm not going to be on here very often. I would say I could at night but I'm going to be getting up early which means going to bed early. But I can't wait because the little girls are soooo cute! And I haven't seen them since my mom got married three years ago so I want to get the most out of this week. Anyway that's the reason I'm going to vanish for the next week or so.

Oh but I changed the theme again. I decided to go with something that was calm because my life is so hectic. I also changed my playlist to calmer songs. But about the cursor...I just thought it was cute! ^_^

Ok well see everyone later!

ttyl
-Linz


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Boredom
I'm bored yet again. And I don't have anything to write about so I'm going to post more RvB. And Cagalli Yamato...Unfortunately I'm such a nut case that the tons of chocolate I've consumed haven't helped. *sigh* I tried.
Enjoy the vid!




And I just kinda like this song!




ttyl
-Linz

P.S. I have family coming in to visit for the next week so I probably won't be on very often. I'll get on later to elaborate but I g2g!
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Thursday, June 28, 2007

Ok here's some RvB for everyone. If you haven't seen it before it's really funny. If you like it you can go to www.roosterteeth.com Enjoy!





Btw I think I'm gonna change the theme soon. As much as I love Halo I need a change. So I'm gonna try out a few different wallpapers within the next few days.
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Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Sorry
Omg I feel so bad because I didn't comment on anyone's site yesterday! As soon as I posted my mom made me get off the computer. I'm sorry because I know I haven't commented in a really long time! Ugh. I feel really bad. I'm going to go comment now.

ttyl
-Linz
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

I'm back!
Hola I'm finally back! Ugh so much has happened it seems. Ok so let's see between the last time I posted and now all of this has happened!

-Went shopping
-Worked for mother
-cleaned my room
-had friends sleep over
-majorette practice
-went to see Pirates of the Caribbean 3...again!

Ok now that I wrote it all down it doesn't seem like much but it did at the time! Anyway so today I had practice and then I went to the movies with my friends that slept over last night. Oh my...Johnny Depp! *squeels* And yes that was the third time I saw it...so I'm a little obsessed whats the problem with that?

But back to the majorette practice. Wow it was for three hours outside in the hot sun. (92 degrees!) It was a lot of work. I know a lot of people see majorettes as little frou frou girls who cary shiny sticks but it is hard work. I mean you try being out in the hot sun for three hours constantly moving around twirling, throwing, and other things. Ick in a few weeks band camp starts. That's when things will really be hard. We will be marching then too and the practice will be even longer. -_- Oh well.

K well there really isn't anything else for me to say today!

ttyl
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Monday, June 25, 2007

   YAY!
Ok quick post...very quick!

I HAVE EXACTLY 100 VISITS! YAY

Ok g2g!

ttyl
-Linz

P.S. I had a post from last night but I guess it wasn't posted because of the maintenance they were doing...I said then that I was going to be busy and I won't be able to comment. So just thought I would mention that...I'll tell you the rest later but I really have to go!
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Sunday, June 24, 2007

   FREEDOM AT LAST!
Yay I'm free! Free at last! Ok so I woke up to four text messages from my ex saying that he would only go out with two people in our grade. Me and someone else! Yes I'm freee! The bad part is that this other someone happens to be one of my best friends. -_- I told her and she flipped. She likes him in the kind of way where she tolerated him and attempted to be nice since I was going out with him. But now she could rfeally care less about him. Unfortunately he doesn't feel the same for her. But for the moment its not my problem. I know I sound incredibly insensitive but I'm free until school starts again. Then I'll help her with that problem. Until then FREEDOM AT LAST! Yay for me! I'm finally...for lack of a better word...FREE!

Ok well I just thought I would share that with you! Thank you for being so concerned and putting up with my rambling yesterday...I was very upset to say the least and had to vent some pent up anger. (Some of it was actually about three years old) Yeah once again thank you and I'm sorry for ranting.

ttyl
-Linz
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Saturday, June 23, 2007

   WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY????????
I'm warning you now...this is going to be a very long post because I write when I'm upset and I am VERY upset!


AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH! *whimpers* My ex won't leave me alone!!!!! Why I ask you why?!?!?! He wants to go back out with me and I know that but I'm not going back out with him and he knows that!!! Ugh this is horrible...I suck at being mean to people! It was nearly impossible for me to break up with him and that was after he told me he liked another girl! And my only hesitation being that I might hurt his feelings! I'm pathetic!

All right so he's texting me right now; I told him it's not going to work between us and that when I said we could be friends I meant in the same way I am with my other guy friends from school. Which means he DOESN'T call me! And that we might talk once school starts if we have any of the same classes. But then he said he couldn't deal with me not hating him or loving him! I wanted to scream and pull my hair out! He's impossible I tell you, IMPOSSIBLE! He tries to tell me how I feel while trying to get me back! like either one will work anyway! But I told him that it's hard for me to hate anyone and that he should move on. That he should go out with Sasha (the one he had feelings for) and that I wasn't trying be mean but he should find someone else! He said never! So fine then, I give up! I'm done! Enough with the advice! I tried to be nice but nooooooo. So he can just go being lonely for the rest of his life even though I KNOW that won't happen! *takes deep breath* the title of the post says it all...why, why me, just why?

All right now I have to complain a little...feel free to skip over this part!

I mean if my life isn't complicated enough now I have to add this into the mix of stresses in my life! Seriously my life is chaotic. I have only slept in my bed once this whole week! And no I'm not a slut! Ok my parents are divorced. So this week my mom is at the beach getting a massage while I'm stuck at home. So I'm with my dad this week...the week when he has to work a lot. So I have slept over at his girlfriends house 3 days, my granmas once, and in my house once. So I have had to carry around a duffle bag all week with clothes and what not in it not knowing when I'm going to be at my house! Ugh and then there are the long term stresses. My parents constantly arguing about who's house I should be at when. Helllooooo? I'm old enough to decide for myself! Ugh and then there's my mom's relationship with my step-dad. You could write a series of books about it! To put it simply they have decided to get a divorce three times now but they are still sleeping under the same roof! Ugh. And my grandma who I love dearly but is always asking questions about my life. What am I supposed to tell her when she asks how my week was? "Oh just the usual, I broke up with my bf who I loved, my step-dad walked out and then right back in, oh and I haven't seen my room in four days! So how was your week nana?" Yeah I don't think so. So I end up telling her that I broke up with my bf and that I'm fine about it and the rest of my family is fine! Such a huge lie but I hate seeing her worry about me since she is already all worked up about my uncle who had his driver's license revoked for DUI. Did I ever mention how messed up my family is??? Well they are! Waaaaay too messed up for me to begin to explain! But wait don't forget the step-families! They have something to contribute too! All right so the mother of my dad's girlfriend's deceased husband strongly disagrees with everything my mother does. (Did ya catch all that?) All right now see if you can understand this one! My step-ex-adopted nephew who is older then me is hot but I can't go out with him for various reasons one big one being that we're suddenly related but not really because he really isn't even related to my step-dad who also isn't even related to me! So how's that for logic. And no there hasn't been anyone who could figure out what his actual relation to me is besides the people in my step-dad's family.

So there are just a few of my problems. I could go on forever with some smaller ones but I don't have the time for that and I'm sure you don't want to read about them.

So I'm sorry for ranting like that but that's what I do when I get mad and worked up about something. I don't get mad at anyone in particular...I write...I write a lot and I write it fast! And like tonight I write it when I'm dead tired so all the angry thoughts come out without hesitation. Plus I feel much better when I wake up. But waking up requires falling asleep so I better go! And once again I'm really really sorry for ranting. But AAAAAAHHHHHH!!! HE NEEDS TO LEAVE ME ALONE!!! UGH! I'm going now I promise I'll stop ranting.
*thinks happy thoughts* *takes a deep breath*

ttyl
-Linz

P.S. If you haven't read my poem yet it's still posted...I'm very proud of my poem. ^_^
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Thursday, June 21, 2007

   Taking a personal poll
Okay so the guy I wrote about in my poem called me tonight. Like I said I still kinda like him but I won't let myself go out with him again...I know I deserve better. But when he called I told him I was busy and that I had to go which was a huge lie. But he asked if he could call back tomorrow and I said yeah. STUPID STUPID STUPID! Anyway I'm too nice to be mean and say no. But what should I say tomorrow because I don't want to talk to him. I don't want to be mean but I don't want to think he has another chance. So what should I say to get the point across that I want to be left alone but I'm not a horrible person???
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So sorry
Hello everyone I'm very sorry I haven't been on here in a while! So I slept over at my grandmas and had enough time to get on a few peoples sites but not many. And then yesterday my friend slept over so I didn't really come on here at all. I made up for it today and went to everyone's site that posted in the last three days and commented. But anyway I don't really have much to say. Ummm well I hope everyone has a good day!

Oh and here's a poem I wrote...tell me what you think...it doesn't exactly flow very well but I tried. I'm not much of a writer but every now and then I feel inspired. Here it goes...

One night we were talking
While staring at the stars
About acquird things that happened
And about stupid scars.

Then he said something to me
That I thought I would never hear
I felt so happy
And thought there was nothing to fear

We had fallen in love
And wanted it to last
But then something happened
And it happened very fast.

While I was gone
He found another girl
I wanted to scream so loud
It would have made her hair curl!

He came running back to me
And started to pout
So we tried talking
And working things out.

Despite our greatest efforts
We couldn't make ammends
And the truth
Is still hard to comprehend.

Now here I am
Late at night
Still trying to forget
About that horrid fight.

But I know I must move on
Must put it in the past
But there's something inside
That still wants it to last.

And in case your wondering, yes this is about me and my ex. I wrote it the other night at my grandmas when I couldn't fall asleep because I was upset, but I feel a lot better now...poems seem to be a good stress reliever for me.

ttyl
-Linz

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