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Wednesday, April 6, 2005
My past....
Look, I'm not mad at my father simply becasue of him lying to me. And you don't know what he lied to me about. He lied about my mother and the way she was, the things she did, not only to me, but to the pastor and to his family and everyone else just to pit everyone else against my mom. Noe he's doing the same to me. He's trying to say that I'm not going to see him because of my own emotional and mental problems. That I need anger management and therapy for depression and crap. I do not have depression. No. I won't go back to that. Not again... I won't do it again! I've been to Hell and back more than once, and I don't want to go back. I don't want to see my dad. In fact, as far as I'm concerned, I have no father. And don't penalze me! You don't know the abuse I've lived through! You don't know what hell's lke! To live in a home where no one can be trusted, where everythig told to you by your dad is a lie, and you not knowing it. Your dad's never home, but when he is, all he does is lie about you and your mom! To have a mom who has no self esteem, totally broken down emotionally and mentally, unable to help herself, and living with a man like that! Just picture it! Picture coming home to your mom crying everyday, being afraid to go home in fear of getting beat for no reason! Picture being so naive that you have no idea what's going on! Then when it hits you, it hits you like a truck! Picture your life being torn apart in one instant! Picture the pain consuming you so much tht you turn to a blade to rid you of your sorrow! Picture being ridiculed by the one who hurt you for not knowing, even today! Picture it! Feel my pain! I can tell you to, but you never will. You never will! So don't tell me not to be mad, dangit! Don't tell me how I can feel! don't tell me I don't have a right! You don't know hell! You don't know me! You don't know me...
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