Saturday, August 13, 2005

A new life- love is..... (contains sex and hauning details not for children under 13) 12A
okay from the title you might of guessed but if your didn't then god you dum. lol. hope you like this chapater and i hope it makes me feel warm inside.injoy.

He looked at you, his face smiling.
"Your hand its covered in dry blood." he said his smile fading slightly. you rolled up your sleave to reveal the knife wound.
"im sorry the pain was to much" you had tears in your voice.
"Its okay ill help you clean that up." he went and got a cold cloth, and wiped it softly over your wound.
Benji walked in to the kitchen and saw you two.
"Ahhhhhhh you two are back together."
You and billy look at each other.
Benji walked over and kneeled beside you.
"Hey im sorry for that comment i made about you haveing your period i was out of line....you don't do you?" You laughed to your self.
"No im not due." he put on a releaved face and looked at your arm...but didn't mention anything.
He got a drink and went back to the living room.
"So wanna go back to my spot again, we can talk and stuff." billy looked into your eyes.
"Yeah that would be nice."you say noding.
He gets up with out a word, drains the cloth and comes back.
"Great" he says kneeling down then he kisses you,
Moving away you say "shall we go then, your dressed im dressed now lets go." You both stand up hand in hand and walk out to the front door.
"joel we're goin to the park see you guys later!" he yells.No reply as before so you both walk down the street making your way to the park.

~at park~
Your both sitting under billys tree. the ducks at the bottom swiming about and the chicks lpaying with one another.
"Beautiful" you say dreaming.
"Yeah i know" he was looking at you and not the ducks,"you are"
He kisses and you. soon you are both in a deep passionae kiss. Your black lip stick all over his face.You both laught at that.
"You seem tired." he says as yo yawn
"Yeah"
"So am i, why don't we rest here for a while, nothing will harm us."
you nod and lay there staring at the sky.
Suddenly you hear a voice calling your name, you look over at billy but he was asleep.
You hear it again, it sounds dry and weak almost a clear whisper.
No one was around as you lookout from the tree. it was completely deserted. suddenly you hear it again and feel a cool air serrounding you like a ghost or somthing. You feel cold hands round you neck and then your name whispered in your ear "____my love!____" it said. Then it left nothing.....it was all gone.
you sit down beside Billy, you are shaking.
Billy wakes up and looks at you. Your face is pale and you look confuessed.
"You okay?" he asks putting his arm round you
you nod.
"Yeah, it 8.30 i think we should get home." you had been there for a long time and it was dark now.
Billy takes your hand and you and him walk home. You tink of the voices and the ghostly fingers. *am i mad? never must have just been halusinating.* you think but not beleaving yourself.

~at home~
Billy and you walked through the door.
Benji was asleep on the couch and joel laying on the floor watching a scary movie.
"Hey guys whats up?" hes asks quitly.
"Nothing. i think we should go to bed."you say looking at billy.
"Yeah" he nods in agreement.
joel continues watching tv and you too go up stairs.
You both hold hands on the landing as you part ways (ahhhhhhhhhh)
"Love you." he says going out to kiss you but you move away.
"Whats wrong?"he asks
"Nothing night billy" you turn and walk into your room.
Billy stands confuessed watching your door.
*what just happened* he thinks
He walks towards your door and walks inside closing it.
you turn round
"What are you doing?" you ask
"You just left..we have some thing and your denaying it"
He takes your hand and you pull it away getting up to defened your self.
He pushes you aganst the wall.
"I love you and what are you doing in return nothing your just leading me along like a dog." he shakes his head and turns to walk way bit you stop him.he turns round and kiss him and say "i love you too im sorry." He pushes you aganst the bed and you both softly have sex.

no more details please.......


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Friday, August 12, 2005

A new life - The bolivard of healing
okay i nicked that title. HAHA Green day i nicked your title and chanced it and you'll never find outttttt! Okay im fine. So you guys read the last one.....good glad to hear it nad if you haven't seen charlie and the cocolate factory then get off you ass and go see it don't sit reading this....mybe read this first comment then go. okay here it goes injoy.

You wake up to the sound of the alarm next to your bed and to the smell of brunt otast *lovely butter and burnt toast anything else for a broken heart* you think staring at the blood on you arm. It had stopped flowing by the look of it....about sometime after you feel asleep.
You get up and walk over to your dressing table.
*Panda eyes* you think as you look at your self in the mirror. Your eyeliner driped down your face a good cry does that to your definless makeup (unless its rimmel london then cry all you want)
You wiped it off, then used the cloth to wipe the blood nad the blade of the knife.
In the mists of putting your knife in the drawer, you door swung open, and you quickly covered your arm.
"Hey you okay?" asks Paul as he looks at you.
"Yeah im fine, look i don't want any breakfast and i don want any company okay" you say waving your hand in that little ' don't gimme that shit' way.
"Yeah well Billie joe, tre and mike are down stairs sos Benji and joel." he says smiling slitly. you look dumbfouned at him.
"And billy wheres he...oh god he hasn't killed himself..please god no!" you say lookig horrifild.
He looked at you as if to say 'What the fuck'.
"Course he hasn't killed himself..."
" thats fine...but im not going down stairs."
"Hes not home hes at the park, drowning in his sorro." Pauls says poeticly.
"Fine fine ill come down." you push past paul and he follows you down the stairs.
"Hey _____ how are you this morning?" asks Billie joe with no idea what you wen through.
"Fine im getting a drink." you walk into the kitchen only to discover billy was sitting by the table.
"Hey im sorry i upset you yesterday." he saud head down
You felt bad as you looked out the window not replying.You go over and sit across from him taking his hand.
"Its not your falut im so sorry, i was just upset, i just don't know if i cna do this." he lifted his head and you looked into his eyes.
"I can help your wounds heal....but only if you want me to."
You smiled.
"Yeah i think i relized while i was crying last night that i had hurt you more than myself... so yes i do want you to help me just don't break my heart coz i couldn't take that."
He softly grazed his thumb over your nuckles..
"Ill won't brake you ill never break you im here to help."
You felt tears in your eyes.
"Your on the bolivard of healing and i beleave that im gonna be there to walk beside you.Always"
You both smiled looking into each others eyes.
*I really am on the boluvard of healing and hes the one that walks beside me*

ahhhhhhhhhhh and so the healing proscess begins.....

he was mentioned more you have to say it.
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Thursday, August 11, 2005

A new life - Hearts bleed
okay the last one was sad. boo hoo. but hey this ones gonna be....really i don't know i just write these of the top of my head.well here go's

you cry into your pillow.*Wounds don't heal wounds Never heal* you think over and over.
You don't want to move on so soon with another guy and had been really upset when you heard his name on the news. You where at your friend Jessica's house staying while your parents where away. It hurt you badly and jessica's family did every thing they could to help.
You heard a knock at the door.
"Hey _____ can i come in?" benji says
He sits down and puts his arm round your sholder but you push it away.
"Whats up billys down stairs and says that he upset you or somfin. And somfin about a guy that was killed in the war." he says with no idea what he was talking about.
"That guy was my boyfriend and i think that its too soon for me to be going with someone. I still love Jimmy and miss him offly."
Benji looks at you.
"OKya so he didn't upset you." he says dumbfounded. you get angrey at his lack of simpathy.
"Get out please just leave me alone." you yell
He edges to the door.
"OKay okay, geez sombodys got her period." he says
You close the door in his face. *rude bastard* you think
you cried somemore until you hear another knock this time its billy,benji,joel and paul.
"Can we come in please" asks joel
"No please just leave me alone." you cry running your hands through your hair.
"Come on we want to help" says paul,"please"
"No can't you understand hearts bleed and right now mines bleeding to death." you cry to your self.
"Come on guys she wants to be alone give her some space this is my falut i don't want it to get worse." you hear billy say
You stop to listen for a minite and cry somemore you had made billy seem guilty,that hurt you that he was hurt your heart bled more you just want it to stop.
You grap the knife in your bedside table and slit your arm from elbow right to the top of your wrist and watched the blood drip down your arm, the pain drips away and you fall onto your bed wepping and watching the blood. Then you sleep after an hour. tears still flowing blood still dripping.
The pain never will go away.

okay that was sad to me i nearly cried while wrighting it. (don't laugh)
heres a pic for you can't find any more good ones.

benji for all you guys that love him personaly i love um all ingluding green day.
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005

A new life - wounds DON'T heal
Okay first off im not going to give you guys a "what happened last time" coz u should'v been reading. and instead am gonig to waste my time telling you about how great charlie and the cocolate factory is. it rocks go see it if you haven't allready. there u go time wasted now lets rock.

Billie wraped his arms round you.
"SHHHHH, its okay we won't tell anyone." he said.
You felt comforted and stopped crying but stil had tears in your eyes.
You heard benji sniffling.
"Benji's cryin joel." said paul
"Am not....my alergies are acting up." he pouted and went into the kitchen.
You giggled a bit at his childishness, joel laughed as well so did paul nad billy. These guys made you feel better but for you and bily you felt it was right but just to fast.
"Come on i wanna show you somfin." billy pulled you by the arm to the door. You both are fully dressed, him with a level 27 hoodie and you with a Von ducth hoddie.
"Guys we won't be back till later bye." he yelled they didn't reply so you just folowed him out the door.
He lead you to the park and covered your eyes.
"What is it billy?" you ask
"Hold on this will cheer you up."
He lead you down to a spot by the water hid by the trees, no one knew where it was but you nad him.
"Here." he took his hands away.
"O my god. its beautiful."The trees cover over the water, and the ducks swam by the botom. it was completely seret.
"I come here to be alone and draw and stuff."
You looked into his eyes.He came over and put his arm round you.
"Don't be scared im here to protect you in this world and i know that i only met you yesterday but it feels like a lifetime coz your so right for me."
"Thank you" you both sat down and you put your head on his chest and he kissed you.You kissed him back and soon you where both in a pasonite snog. You kissed his neck leaving black lipstick over it.
You both laughed at that.
"Your so sweet billy."
"So are you." You where both about to kiss again when billys watch beeped. It was 12.30.
"Wanna get somthing to eat, i know a great place." You nod and you both climb out from the serect spot.
You both walked back to the car with billys arm over you.
Suddenly you felt somthing and pushed away from him. Something hurt inside and you relised that this wasted to be.
"Im sorry billy i cant do this it isn't right."
"But____ we have somting you even said please"
You shook your head and backed off thne ran up the road.
"____ come on please tell me whats wrong"
He grapped your arm *damn my slow feet*
You fell ot the grass crying
"My old boyfriend died to months ago and i haven't been with anyone since coz i loved him i was going o marry him when he had to go to the war and fight. he was killed by a sniper attack and i can't be with someone so soon please you have to undrestand"
He put his arm round you
"Wounds don't heal quickly you have to know that. but ill protact you please i love you."
You looked at him eyeliner sermed down your face.
"No. i can't im sorry"
You run up the grass and walk home by your self,billy sat there feeling horrible then made his way home.
You went in through the door icnoring joel saying hi and slammed the door on your room.You sit up there and cryed.

okay so that wasn't a nice chap but drama people i live for this.

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Tuesday, August 9, 2005

A new life - The rehad reject
okay. by the title you can guess.
but read the last memo if you don't understand.if u like my stories please visit my links at the top nad read my Gc,green day and me stories. put them on your site please.
Heres the other chapter.

You stand in the kitchen.
*what just happened* you think
*billy kissed me...should of seen that coming*
Suddenly you felt arms around your waist.
"Hey." billy put his head on your sholder and kissed your cheek you flinched."don't be scared this feels right you know it does"
It did you couldn't fight it.So you kissed him, suddenly the door of th kitchen swung open, benji walked in and suddenly his eyes widened.
"What the.?" billy and you looked wide eyed back at him.
"You guys...how long." he asks dumbfounded (is that a word).
"Only this morning calm down." benji sighs a relefing sigh
"You'v only known each other for what a day."
Billy nods
"Yes but..never mind benji."
"You didn't fuck did you?" he asks looking scared.
"NO! sick perve." you say
He looks hurt.
"The other guys will have to find out later."
"We already have."
You all look round to see paul and joel standing in the door way.
Paul looking quite hurt, he likes you ahhhhhhhhh.
"Its okay really we don't mind,you guys can hook up if you wanna we understand."Paul nods slowly.
Billy kisses your neck and you flinch. he had hurt one of your cuts.
"Jesus!" he yelled
"What!" they all went over.He lifted your hair back.
"Its nothing." you say
Benji pulls up your sleeve and joel the other.
"Theres more here."they say together *freaky twins*
"I think i better tell you guys what the deal is here." you say sadly and pull away from them and walk into the living room.
They all followed and billy sits beide you.
"Im a cutter, i cut because so many things get me down alot,i do heroine and smoke the odd time." billy looked wide eyed."
"I was in rehab for a month but it didn't help."
"Anything else we needa know." asks paul ," like your a murder"
Joel decks him."shut up" he whispers.
"Its okay." billy says as he sees tears in your eyes.he puts his arm round you.
"We dont need to mention this again and we can help you in any way you want." benji says so lovingly.
you cry into billys sholder and hear him tell the others that bilie joe,mike and tre could mybe help.you don't feel happy about that but leave it and just cry.

okay so that wasn't htat exciting. read again.

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Monday, August 8, 2005

A new life - teen rebelion
okay so you stayed the night with good charlotte (in there home) there offering you to stay there for a while if you want. okay the deal is that they don't know that your a cutter, you smoke and do drugs.

~next morning~

You open your eyes to find your self laying in a blood red bed. it was pretty comfay. you had dropped of like a stone last night,with pages of drawings and poetry over you bed. You lift them all and put them untidyly on the desk.
"Was that a dream or am i really at good charlottes home?" you look in the mirror, and see the cut on your eye and lip.
"Definitly real."
You get dressed and washed and go down stairs. it was only 7.30 so u tried not to wake the rest of them. u took some pencels and paper down stairs and sat in the living room drawing and writing. you drew a beautiful picture of a hand holding a heart.
"Ohhhhhhhhhh nice." you loked up to see billy standing over you.
"Don't look its horrible." you quickly cover it
"No no its beautiful realy." he lifts away your hand and takes it from you.
You look dumbfounded.
"Wow! your as good as me. have a good sleep?" he asks
"Yeah." you reply smiling.
He sits beside you and takes your folder ful of drawings and poetry.
"Wow these are good and the poetry wow!" he was impresed.
You blushed.
"Don't be shy or ill be shy right" you laugh
"So, whats tre gonna do, he forgot his medication." you say
But before billy could answer he kissed you. his tounge foureding its way into your mouth, and you let it.
He drew away.
"Hee. that was nice."he laughed.
you get up and walk into the kitchen leaving him al alone


to be continued...........ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.


tune in next time and coment.
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Sunday, August 7, 2005

A new life......gee what number is it?
okay doky peoples. here it is. sory for the delay. I can't even remember wot number it is. will some one please tell me?
Well anyways....injoy.

You and billy both sit there waiting for tre to come say sorry (okay that sounds kiddy like but anyways)
"Motherfucking bastard" you say to your self," i coulda kicked his ass so damn hard"
Billy laughs,
"Im sure you coulda"
You shoot him an evil look
"What are you implying?"you say just as tre,mike,billie joe and paul walk in through the door.
You and tre give eachother evil looks
"OKay now you two better not fight again" says billie joe as if you where both kids.
"Fucking slut" you hear tre whisper
"Im not a slut" you say to him
Tre looks round but says nothing
Mike sits down on the seat nearest you (he didn't sit beside you coz cash dog was on the right nad billy on the left)
"Excuse him he didn't take his medication to day"mike laughs
"You arn't supose to tell anyone i needmedication mike you dickhead" says tre angrly
Mike ducks as he throws a vase at him and it smashes aggest the wall.
"WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT!" yells joel from the kitchen.
"nothing noting at all" yells tre back
You laugh at his stupidity
"Tre go sit over there" paul points to te coner,tre walks over and trows himself into the seat.
Pual and billie joe start picking up the peaces of the vase when Benji nad joel walk in.
"What the fuck happened?" asks benji,"moms vase!"
"No need to ask who did that," says joel, they both look round at tre together *scary twin thing* you think.
They look back round at you and billy.
"You two are cleaned up wow nice job" says joel pushing cash off the seat beside and sitting down instead.
"Thank you thank you" billy pulls his shirt like hes inportant (im not saying anything)
"What was wrong with me fixing it?" asks benji sounding hurt
"Nothing its just that....he forced me."
"Evil!" says mike laughing
"Is that all he does laugh and spite people." you ask
They all nod,including paul and billie joe hwo are finished clearing the mess.
"Always,trust me i know" says billie joe.
"So do have a place to stay?" asks Paul
"No." you says staring at your feet
"We,v got a spare room you can crash here if you want" joel says smiling at you. Billy,paul and benji agree.
"Well,okay." you agree happily,and stay there for the night.

okay this is all i could thing of my mind an'it very broad at the moment. read the next one to find out wot happens.
always.....chloe4

im sorry im still trying to get good pics of the whole good charlotte band, i have a lot of green day but not until there in the story more.
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Saturday, August 6, 2005

sorry guys really sorry
please please forgive me. i was at my friends house all night and had no time to think about it. please bear with me my computers also acting up and it may take a while for me to get it fixed. i will try to get the story on to morrow but right now ill leave you with a few pictures and captions to intertaen you.sorry once again


mike:ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i broke a nail. oh god help me.

i haven't slept in 3 days.

ohhhhhhhhh. you can see my house from here. HI MOM!
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Friday, August 5, 2005

continuation of Anew life~4~
okay so you and billy are up in the bathroom cleaning your wounds. (do not use your sick minds on thinking sex thoughts come next) mybe they do have sexy thoughts. read and find out (that sounded chessy but oh well.)

You put the cloth to your forehead. it stinks with pain.
"Ah okay that hurts" you say
"Here let me before you kill your self." billy takes the cloth of you and then he puts it to your fore head.*he thinks he can do a better job than me. cheeky* you think
"There. see i ddin't kill ya'" he smiles and turns to drean the cloth of your blood. *owwwww nice ass* you think staring nicely until he turns round then you stop.
"Here now stay still." he put the cloth to your eye. His nose had stopped bleeding but he hadn't washed the blood of yet.
The cold water stunk like muder on your cut (i like useing the word murder)
"Hey that hurts."you flinch
"Stay still and it might not hurt as much." you didn't like his tone very much but you don't like the way anyone speaks to you now days so you let it go.
"There, now i think i should get cleaned up myself." he turned round to drean the cloth once again.*hee hee nice veiw* you laugh to yourself.
He cleans all the blood of his wound (me: i liked the blood. it looked good in my mind)
"I don't think Tre like me very much does he?"
Billy laughs
"Duh. he just got in a fist fight with you nothing to worry about"
*funny very funny* you think
"hahaha very funny are you always that sarcastic?"
"Yeah when i wanna be." he smiles a smile that would make your mother love him (my mum don't like any guys outta green day or good charlotte she dosn't like green day coz they look better than her and shes younger.lol)
"Should we go down stairs or stay here incase tre decides that my arm needs to be broke for him to feel important."
billy laughs
"Good one. I think we should go down stairs, and if he trys anything he has me to go through."
"Yeah and you make him pay for this hoodie it cost me £15."
"Sure."
You both go down stairs, your standing behind billy when you reach the door way to the living room looking over his sholder.
"They must all still be in the kitchen."
You sit down on a chair beside cash and billy sits beside you.
You both sit waiting for them to return from the kitchen, coz hell would freeze over before ether of you go in there.

okay there you go. next bit tomorrow as useual. injoy.

sorry bout all the billy pics its just coz hes the only member in the story at the moment and as time goes by benji nad joel and billie joe and the other guys will be here.
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Thursday, August 4, 2005

For braindeadguitar
okay heres apoem for poor brain dead but i didn't write it saw it on a get well soon card. all of you may join in if you wish (but its only a poem)

Its just a little set back
beleave me nothing more
it will only take a day or two
then im pretty sure

you'll be back to your old self again
laughing with the best
but until then make the most of it
and take a little rest.

its by some guy alax.

anyways im not writing the continuation of the story until tomorrow coz i haven't been thinking about it and lost track of where we were and so on so forth. come back tomorrow to see it i promise it will be on (note the i-mean-it look) comment on the poem and make someones day (did i fail to mence that shes sick yes all together now 'ahhhhhhhhhhh')

see ya'll later
always...
chloe4


haha all for you brain dead. lol
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