Friday, August 12, 2005

A new life - The bolivard of healing
okay i nicked that title. HAHA Green day i nicked your title and chanced it and you'll never find outttttt! Okay im fine. So you guys read the last one.....good glad to hear it nad if you haven't seen charlie and the cocolate factory then get off you ass and go see it don't sit reading this....mybe read this first comment then go. okay here it goes injoy.

You wake up to the sound of the alarm next to your bed and to the smell of brunt otast *lovely butter and burnt toast anything else for a broken heart* you think staring at the blood on you arm. It had stopped flowing by the look of it....about sometime after you feel asleep.
You get up and walk over to your dressing table.
*Panda eyes* you think as you look at your self in the mirror. Your eyeliner driped down your face a good cry does that to your definless makeup (unless its rimmel london then cry all you want)
You wiped it off, then used the cloth to wipe the blood nad the blade of the knife.
In the mists of putting your knife in the drawer, you door swung open, and you quickly covered your arm.
"Hey you okay?" asks Paul as he looks at you.
"Yeah im fine, look i don't want any breakfast and i don want any company okay" you say waving your hand in that little ' don't gimme that shit' way.
"Yeah well Billie joe, tre and mike are down stairs sos Benji and joel." he says smiling slitly. you look dumbfouned at him.
"And billy wheres he...oh god he hasn't killed himself..please god no!" you say lookig horrifild.
He looked at you as if to say 'What the fuck'.
"Course he hasn't killed himself..."
" thats fine...but im not going down stairs."
"Hes not home hes at the park, drowning in his sorro." Pauls says poeticly.
"Fine fine ill come down." you push past paul and he follows you down the stairs.
"Hey _____ how are you this morning?" asks Billie joe with no idea what you wen through.
"Fine im getting a drink." you walk into the kitchen only to discover billy was sitting by the table.
"Hey im sorry i upset you yesterday." he saud head down
You felt bad as you looked out the window not replying.You go over and sit across from him taking his hand.
"Its not your falut im so sorry, i was just upset, i just don't know if i cna do this." he lifted his head and you looked into his eyes.
"I can help your wounds heal....but only if you want me to."
You smiled.
"Yeah i think i relized while i was crying last night that i had hurt you more than myself... so yes i do want you to help me just don't break my heart coz i couldn't take that."
He softly grazed his thumb over your nuckles..
"Ill won't brake you ill never break you im here to help."
You felt tears in your eyes.
"Your on the bolivard of healing and i beleave that im gonna be there to walk beside you.Always"
You both smiled looking into each others eyes.
*I really am on the boluvard of healing and hes the one that walks beside me*

ahhhhhhhhhhh and so the healing proscess begins.....

he was mentioned more you have to say it.
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