Monday, August 15, 2005

A new life - theres nothing left to do (contains suicidl thoughts)
i have to really stop that 'contains' such and such crap. anyway here the next part can someone please tell me what number im on i haven't been keeping count.

You huddled up in a ball to keep warm, the cold heavy rain is falling down hard on you. all your life things have been bad for you nad now you'v ran away from home, your dead boyfriend is haunting you and you've been raped and have no where to go for help because no one will beleave you.
you cry into your arms.*I might as well be dead, i don't deservre to be here im a bad person,* you take a pen knife from your pocket and run the blade across you arms, and your wrists, Then you hear footsteps.*is it tre coming back for more?* you think.
"Hey sweety you okay?" you look up to see a guy dressed in black from head to toe, with eyeliner and long black hair. He kneels down you."You need help sweety?" he seemed nice but trust is like planing your own death.
"I was just raped," you say tears running down your cheeks.
"Jesus, by who do you know?" he asks putting an arm round you.ou shake your head.
"Well did you even get a look at his face, because it wasn't me." he says, you look at him and stand up quickly. He smiles at you and you run into the street.He follows and grads you for you, you move quickly and run down an ally way, climb over a wire fence cutting your sholder on a lose peice of wire.
"Hey sweety come back" he followed you down the aly and pined you ageanst the wall.
"Twice in the one day, sweety your getting some action" he laughed in your face. you cryed, there was nothing you could do but cry and let him get on with it.

Billy, benji, joel and paul ran round like chickens looking for you. They all spilt up sking strangers and looking for clues.
"Hey mister you haven't seen a pretty girl round here?" asks benj.The guy looks at him nad points down the round.
"Yeah at hooters. theres pleanty of um there." he says
Benji turns to billy
"She at hooters." billy wacks him.
"Shes not at hooters idiot"
Billy turns to the guy agin and asks agiain.
"Dude she has long black hair, a black level 27 hoodie, black pants, and dark blue eyes have you seen her?" the guy thinks for a moment
"Yeah she went doen that ally not so long ago, a guy was following her." billy shot round to benji, graped his coat and ran out of the store benji was staggering behind him.Billy has the brim of his coat so he can't breathe.
"Billy, billy i can't....brathe." he says gasing for air.
Billy let go but kept running, benji caught up with him.
"A guy was after her, we have to find her." Billy turned down the ally and found you and the guy.He's forcing himself at you, hurting you.
"Leave her alone." billy wacks him, he falls to the ground.benji comes and helps you to your feet.
"He dude chill i was just finishing what the last guy didn't." he says defining aganist billys foot.
"What, last guy?" he asks
"I saw the whole thing, raped twice in the one day shes getting action." the guy laughed and ran for it. Billy let him go nad rushed to help you.
"Jesus, _____ don't do hat again, please" billy says wrapping his arms round you, you cry into his sholder while the blood runs form yours.
"Im sorry, i was scared something bad was going to happen, please it was stupid to go...." billy cuts you of
"Shhhhhhhh its okay really, your safe now" you don't say anything else, benji runs off to find the others.
You pull away from his arms as you hear the voice in your head again.
"Whats wrong" billy asks confuessed.
you gripp your head and move away from him
"_____ kill your self now before it happens again come and be with me, you don't desevre to live come come!" it says over and over
"Billy kill me please kill me, thats why i ran, i want ot die billy, i don't deserve to live." you look at him your eyes hauning. Clear nothing, no feeling in them, like a ghost.
He came to wards you.
"No you deserve to live your a good person, a ghost its hauting you isn't it thats why you came to a physic am i right." you nod
" Don't worry it'll be okay, i have felt it too. It'll go soon ill make sure of it."
He wrapped his arms round you again nad you looked at your arm as he did.It was covered in blood,just how you like it.

so will you kill yourself, will,as billy said, the ghost go away and will anyone beleave you about tre.....dought it.


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