Sunday, August 21, 2005

A new life - scars
the title so gives it away.Well you read the last one and heres this one sorry its late......i was away last night at the oldtown inn (resterant and inn)
here it goes.

You lie on benjis bed you arm and stomach covered in blood.
Tears running down you face. the pain was over welming and it wasn't going away. Benjis knife dropped out of your hand hiting the floor with a thump.
You could still hear them talking down stairs.
*Please make it stop*you thought* please....make him stop it, or kill me make me die*
You eyes closed and you feel into a deep sleep.

~down stairs~
"Woo look at the time, i think we should go guys."billie joe says tapping his watch.
"Yeah i think you should go too" joel eyes billie joe,
"Oh just coz you lost the fight..hahah" mike laughs in the coner
Joel folds his arms and dosen't reply.
"We'll let our selve out." billie joe walks towards the door and mike and tre follo like sheep.
"Benji where exactuly is _____" asks billy
"I don't know mybe in my room." he shrugs and goes back to petting cashdogg.
Billy gets up and makes his way up stairs to benjis room.
"JESUS!" he yells.
Joel, paul and benji all run up the stairs to assist.
"O my god...what happened." says joel looking at the blood.(don't be sick)
"My knife...my beautiful knife that cost me $13" benji picks up the knife which is cover in your blood.
Billy kneels beside you.Joel looks at paul so does benji waiting for him to say something.
"What? i have nothing to say"
Joel rolls his eyes *this storyline just gets better don't it* he thinks.
"Damn, theres alot of blood." billy says putting his hand on your arm.
"Benji, Paul go get tissues or something." joel says pointing to the door.
Benji and paul run off to get something that will soak up blood.(please don't use your sick ness)
You open your eyes.
"Billy?" you say
"_____"
You quickly notice that hes noticed your scars.
You get up and push him away.
"What are you doing." he says landing flat on his ass in front of you.
"Leave me alone please." you get up, push past joel and into your own room (well billys room as well but just for the story)
You sit on your bed and cry.
So much was going on that you where sure that your body wasn't the only thing scared, you heart was as well not to mention your soul.So my emotial and physcal scars that you lost count.
Blood still driped down your arm and your stomach. evenually you just took the shirt off and through it ageanst the wall.
There was a knock on the door and billy came in. you quickly grap the sheets of the bed and but them round your self.
"You okay." he says closing the door.He sits beside you on the bed.
"No billy im not okay, but i don't want to discuss it....ever."
He puts his arm round you.
"Cutting your arm," he looks at the blood on the sheets, " and your stomach an't the answer, they only lead to more pain and scars."
"I know," you put your head on his sholder and cry.
The pain and blood still flowing from your arm and stomach. Was this ever gonig to stop, the cutting and rape, the pain and scars.....it was all to much.

there is more beleave it or not i really don't want to stop this now it's to fun.

i can't find any gothic pics of slit wrists and stuff if you can help.
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