Monday, August 22, 2005

A new life - Little things
okay heres the deal. Im not gonna be here for 2 days well mybe to morrow but most diffinitly not wednesday. My parents are on vaction and leaving us here. im going to my cousins house but i really don't wanna go but im going to my best friends house tomorrow so thats not to bad. heres the next chap by the way if theres alot of swearing in it please bear with me im trying to get rid of anger about my parents there hitting me and calling me a bitch and making me do things i don't wanna.

You lay in billys arms. he kisses you softly, rocking you from side to side, comforting you.
"Its okay, you don't have to tell me anything but ill help you in any way possible." he says a tear in his voice.
"Im sorry im sorry, please for give me, i just want it to stop." you cry into his chest. you can hear his heart beating.
He tightens his grip round you.
The sheets you where holding now on your lap,all blood. Your black shirt aganst the wall all staned with dark blood.
"What ever motherfucking things hurting you well stop it together." billy swore
You smile a little.knowing he was there for you made you feel better.
"Little thing thats all billy, there just little things that always get me down." you say smiling
He looks at you. Smiling.they weren't the exact lerics (i don't think) but they where close enough.
"I love you." he says huging you, you could hear a tear in his voice, the only guy in the world that would ever cry with you.sweet, you bagged a nice one.
"I love you too."
He kisses you and you both lie back on the bed and look at the celing.

~half an hour later~
You are lieing in his arms. Blood all over his grey shirt.
"Ill get some bandades.Be back." he gets up gives you a kiss and goes out the door. You pull the sheets round your body.
The wounds sting like hell.
~down stairs~
"Hey is she okay." asks paul as billy walks into the kitchen.
"I don't think thi is gonna be over for a long time." billy walks over and gets bandades out of the cabnet.
"I gonna go back up stairs, benji i would wash your sheets if i where you there all blood."
Benji looked confuessed and horrifid.
billy goes back upstairs.

~in the room~
"Okay now stay still," he buts the bandages round the wound on your stomach.You flinch.
He puts his hand on your face nad runs his fingers though your hair.
"Itll be okay, im here for you."
You lower your head but don't smile.
"really every thing will be fine."
"I just wanna die billy i can't take this anymore, its too much for me." you put your hands to your face and cry.
"No no don't say that."
"They may be little things but there don a hell of a job bringing me down."
Billy looks at you but dosen't reply there was nothing he could say. He just fixes your wounds and says nothing.
You cry, what if this goes on forever what if you kill your self and go to hell.what if he still tanits you over and over......they'd never beleave you when you told them...there was nothing for you in this world.
These little things are far from little to you they where huge!


sorry its so crap but hey my anger left and there wasn't alot of swearing thats not to bad.huh?



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