Wednesday, February 23, 2005

The Eye of the Storm....
Well, the Uk continues to be battered by the Siberian Stoms been blown in over the North Sea, things are starting to look as if they are totally crazy. I woke up this morning and came downstairs, as I usually do and the first thing I had to do was turn the fire up due to the fact that it was SO COLD down here, lol, it seems to really be freezing here, I am sat here with my jacket on too. Although the snow falling outside is really pretty, I am not looking forward to going out in it.

Not much happened yestrerday relaly, I did alot of sleeping and just basically was bored, unfortunatly, I have so little to do when I take the day off school, that is why I am going in today ^__^, it gives me something to do at least, which is better than nothing and just sleeping all day :)

Tommorow will be the Funeral of the teacher, Mr Sweryt, god rest his soul, so I need to have my clothes ready, this will be the first time I have been to something so formal as this, it is going to be quite a sad event, so, I have got black clothing ready for it.

Well, I need to get ready to brace the storm, I will leave you with the next chapter of my story, hope you enjoy it, I finally got action in there, lol

Chapter 14 – A time to depart….

It was a sudden awakening, he woke up to the night above him, the first thing he saw through his blurry vision was the half moon in the sky, shining down on him, an aura on the ground. The weather had stayed calm, it was cold, and he found that he was on the snow, laid next a roaring fire, turning to it he could see the smoke raise from it, and the embers inside snap and crack as the fire engulfed the wood. Sitting up, he could not see anything but a fire, tree, where the others rested, and the empty wastelands, there was a huge cliff behind him, but, it seemed of no concern.

Getting up, he looked over to the tree, while rubbing the snow off his trousers, still soaked red from the torture he had endured so long ago. At the tree, he saw all 5 wolves, sleeping, around Cheza, her hand on there heads, he looked and smiled, he could see them smiling gently in there sleep as they rested there, this made Richard feel warm in these cold wastelands, he looked as he saw there happy faces, they were in bliss.

As he stood there, a gently breeze blowing past the cliffs, he began to think ‘They would be going to paradise now’, he knew he had been with them for a long time, and had made a lot of good friends, but what they did back at the keep was an example of how much trouble he actually was, he had made them go out of there way, in such a way to risk there lives, he didn’t want them to do this, he wanted to let them continue there journey, hence why he did it. He was not ungrateful for the help, indeed quite the opposite, he was happy; overjoyed they would do such a thing, but, he thought it was time he stopped been a bother, and even though it pained him, he decided it would be best to drift off into the night, if they did reach paradise, not a lot would be left here anyway, and everything would end, so, he was sure he could live long enough till then.

He would miss Blue and Kiba intently, but, he was happy for them looking over where they laid with Cheza, they looked do peaceful with her, he could see them smiling, this was a first time he felt they were really smiling, and not just to try and be strong, whispering under his breath he said, walking into the wind, away from them, past the burning fire, “Goodbye my friends, may you find paradise, I had fun” with this, he walked forward, picking up his pace, the wind was not strong, and he did not have to fight as he walked through the snow, compacting beneath his feet.

Walking away, he began to think what he would do, and how the Wolves would react, he did not want them to try and seek him out, and if he said goodbyes, he would not be able to leave, it would be too sad, they would be able to seek things out for themselves, he hoped they would forget him, and carry on there journey, while he would try to seek out an existence in one of the few towns left, perhaps get some work, and for the last days of this world, live out what would be considered a ‘normal’ life in this world. It would be difficult, but, it was better than been a burden on someone’s back.

He walked for about five minutes, the fire was but a distant glimpse now, he didn’t want to look back at it though, he would become ‘emotional’ if he walked forward, and not looked back, he thought he would be able to control himself, although the tears were in his eyes, he had to hold them back, he could not allow himself to become emotional. He heard running behind him, he thought to himself ‘They know, please, don’t be one’ he carried onto walk forward, pretending he didn’t hear it, and hoping they did not see him, but from behind he heard a call, he immediately recognized the voice,

“RICHARD!” it was Blue, he was sure of it, he stopped walking, but he didn’t turn around to her, he continued to look forward his head looking down still. He felt her in her Wolf form, sitting next to him, looking up he could sense she was upset, but, he didn’t want to say anything, this was hard enough already, “Richard, where are you going? You aren’t leaving are you?” she looked to him, cocking her head, a tear running down her muzzle,

“I have to” Richard said, bobbing down and looking to Blue, his eyes full of tears, now running down his cheek, he used a finger to wipe away the tear running down her muzzle, and put on a brave face, trying not to cry,

“You don’t have to, we are nearly there, paradise, only a little further” she looked up to the cliff, the clouds covered the top, the moon shining through them, now turning full, and going red,

“I have been too much trouble, back at the keep, they came back for me, risked thee lives, I didn’t want anyone to be hurt because of me, and anyway, you have what you need, Cheza, I am surplus to requirement” he looked back down, and sat down, he wasn’t going to be going anywhere now, but he had to make her understand, she nuzzled his chin, and he looked up, holding her head slightly,

“You have been no trouble, how many times have we to tell you, we are doing it for you because we are your friends, you did it for us back at the lake remember, and me in the tower, although I would have preferred not to have left you there, I did, it is the same” a sudden realization came to mind, he had been doing the same things for them, he had not even considered this, he had been doing the same things he wanted them to avoid,

“I, it, it wasn’t” he couldn’t get his words out, he knew she was right. Standing up, he looked out to the distance, and saw the fields, empty, and long, “I still have to go” he looked out, and began to feel a darkness inside him, cutting himself off,

“I won’t allow you to” he heard another familiar voice next to Blue, Kiba was stood there now, looking straight at him with his yellow eyes, staring straight at the back of his head, Richard looked down, a tear hitting the floor,

“You have what you need, Cheza, I am no longer going to slow you down, I am sorry, please, I love you all, thank you so much” he could no longer hold himself back, he broke out into a run, running as fast as he could into the wastelands, from behind, he heard Blue call to him,

“Richard, please, No” he could hear her Whimper, and howl as he ran, he closed his eyes, but the tears still escaped, he didn’t want to do this, but was left with little recourse, he cannot be a bother this way.

Before he could run very far though, he heard running behind him, and then, suddenly, he felt something hit his back, and he was knocked over into the snow. Landing on his stomach, he tried to turn over, but in doing so, he came face to face with Kiba, he was snarling, Richard could see every one of his teeth in the moonlight, as red as the moon, he looked at him like he was ready to kill him, he had seen this look so many times. His paws were firmly placed on his shoulders, he could feel the claws extend slightly, pinning him to the floor, his paw standing on his wounds, his face contorted slightly in the pain, but, he did not call out.

Closing his eyes, he began to wish he never even came here, he was about to be killed, it was a stupid idea to have tried and run, it was always going to end like this, but as he awaited for the teeth to be sank into his neck, nothing happened, but he heard the growls and snarls from Kiba, as he said to him, “Understand us, we need you, we put ourselves out to protect you because we are friends, why don’t you understand” he seemed to be angered, Richard opened his eyes to see he was face to muzzle with him, his teeth were razor sharp, he could see each one of them in his mouth. He closed his eyes again, turning his head on his side, tears streaming from his eyes, absolute terror in his voice, the fear spreading all over him as he was effectively pinned to the floor,

“I, I know you did it for, friendship, but, I keep risking your lives” he was too scared to make much coherent sense, and struggled to say what he did. As he did though, the snarl stopped, and he felt Kiba, instead of Bite into his neck, lick his face. Slowly adjusting himself, he looked back up; he was unaware actually of how many tears had fallen down his face, and how much he had sweated, Kiba looked at him, still licking away the tears and sweat, saying as he looked back at him, a little distance between face and muzzle now,

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you, but this is how much I care for you, Richard, it makes me angry that you won’t just accept it, this is how we wolves show our friendship, we protect those close to us, understand” Richard looked to him, and let this go through his mind, they were not Humans after all, they were wolves, there ways were different. He then clicked, he had been such a fool, another tear feel down his cheek as it finally came to him, and he said, silently, croaking in his voice,

“I am sorry, I never thought, I didn’t think, I am….” He was cut of by Kiba, who now took himself off him, sitting next to him, saying,

“It is ok, we are not offended or anything, just, we don’t want to lose you” Kiba sat there, and Richard nodded, sitting up, he slowly stood up, wiping the snow from him, he looked back down to Kiba, and began to walk forward,

“I am sorry, I will come with you to paradise” he looked forward and felt Kiba nudge his side, looking at him, Richard bobbed down and put his arms around him, holding his White fur close to him, the warmth, he felt strength from it, more than usual, was it this moon?

They approached the camp again, Blue rested next to the fire, all the other wolves awake, Cheza also with them, Richard looked at them all, slightly blushed, and sat at the fire, not looking to anyone, Blue moving and sitting next t him, stroking her on the head, he said to her, as she sat next to him, Kiba on his other side,

“I am sorry, I love you Blue, I will not do that again” he rested, placing his head down on the snow that was beneath him, it was cold, but, he could stand it, it was as cold as his heart had been,

“It is ok, let us all rest now, just because Cheza is with us, means nothing, it has not changed a thing” she rested next to him. He looked to the sky, and then thought, ‘I am such an idiot’, and with this final thought in mind, he began to sleep.

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