Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Feeling Depressed...

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~Tomorrow~
This is a song, not a poem

I just wanna cry
and I don’t know why

I just wanna die
and I don’t know why
Sometimes life is so hard

Will you help me?
Will you tell me that I just
have to hang on till tomorrow?

Will you save me?
Can you heal me?
Keep me just hangin’ on till tomorrow?
Life is so hard

I burn and ache inside
and I don’t know why

I think of you and scream
and I don’t know why
Sometimes life is so hard

Will you help me?
Will you tell me that I just
have to hang on till tomorrow?

Will you save me?
Can you heal me?
Keep me just hangin’ on till tomorrow?
Life is so hard

Somehow I’ve come to this
and I don’t know why

Forgotten memories
making me cry
I just don’t understand

Will you help me?
Will you tell me that I just
have to hang on till tomorrow?


Will you save me?
Can you heal me?
Keep me just hangin’ on till tomorrow?

Without you, I don’t know what to do.
Please tell me that you’ll be my tomorrow.
Life is so hard

I don’t know why
But I’ll try…to keep on till tomorrow.

Will you help me?
Will you tell me that I just
have to hang on till tomorrow?

Will you save me?
Can you heal me?
Keep me just hangin’ on till tomorrow?

I’ve got to just hang on till tomorrow...
but life is so hard
Without you, I don’t know what to do.
Please…

Will you save me?
Can you heal me?
Keep me just hangin’ on till
tomorrow?

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   Yesterday

Play wonderland online! First of all: My apologies to everyone. I haven't really been able to visit people lately T.T;;;

Second: Yesterday started out ok. In the morning, I got on the internet to check e-mail and start updating my site. Then I went to the eye-doctor. The reason I went to the eye doctor is because I was in an accident a few weeks ago in which I hit my head and got a concussion. Fortunately, my eyes checked out fine--at least no worse than usual -__-;;; The doctor said that my eyesight was probably worse for awhile because of stress from the accident.

I forgot to bring the measurements for my kimono so I couldn't buy fabric yesterday and I couldn't get my hair done quite yet...or buy my DVD yet...however when we were walking in the mall a lady was stopping people for surveys and I got stopped. I got to drink Diet Mt Dew and answer questions about it for $4. YEA!

Then: The library, where I got tons of books, including the 3 that came in that were on hold for me. I also put lots more stuff on hold and got the Ranma 1/2 Video jukebox. FUN< FUN< FUN!

Finally: Went grocery shopping. I finally found a photo album to keep mabudachi pics in!!! I got a huge low blood sugar, and then a high blood sugar, then Hiroko Kun drove me nuts #__# I got home feeling really sick and ended up having to call Kamenki to cancel...T.T She prescibed exhaustion so I slept for like 13 hours and still feel tired (usually I've been sleeping 6-7 hours a night, so this is more than scary)

Tomorrow: I work all day for theatre with a break from 12 til 1 during which I'm having lunch with my dad.
Friday: I'm visiting a college most of the day.
Saturday: I plan on stealing Yasha and Tora-Chan and keeping them til...
Sunday: Mass and swimming?
Monday: Order Senior Pics!

Well, hope to talk to you all soon. Maybe after some rest I will be able to visit and stuff. I'm living on borrowed internet time...speaking of which...I MUST GO!!!!!

*I have to wait at least one more day til I can submit things on Fanfiction...T.T*

~Cia-Chan

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

   New Site...in a way

Play wonderland online! Well, I still have some glitches to work out, but the jist of my theme is changed!

Today, I am going to the eye doctor, then maybe getting my hair done, buying fabric to make my kimono with, etc...

Tonight I am going to a Parish bonfire thing with Kamenki...whose computer is fried! Poor Kamenki!

News: I have joined FanFiction.net, but I can't add stories for two more days. After that, I will be putting up my story Heaven's Fighter.

Other News: Tora (superham99) and Yasha will be gone until at least Wed and then I plan on stealing them away Sat. and Sun. So they won't be on for awhile.

This week is private colleges week and I will be visiting some...Thurs I work for theatre again, Friday I visit Lawrence and Sat/Sun I hope to kidnap Tora and Yasha, drink tea, and look at pictures. On Monday, I order my senior pictures based on the proofs I got back.

So yeah, pretty busy...I just got back from the cottage yesterday...I've hardly ever been home! I guess I'm just a social butterfly! Well, I've got to go and I can't get on for awhile so goodbye everyone!

Ohio goseimas! (that's spelled wrong, I know, T.T;;)

Oh! Everyone visit Kamiya--so much Hatori!!!!

*wish me luck on my eye appointment and job search*

Bientot!

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Monday, July 11, 2005

Play wonderland online!

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   Sleepy...

Play wonderland online! Cia: Hiya Peoples!!!! ^^ I’m finally back! Geez; it’s been a long time. As you can see, I’ve changed my theme. *and drastically at that* I had a whole list of themes I was going to do, complete with music, background, avatars, etc. and I just threw that out and did something completely different!
Kyou: *sweat drop* Only you…
Cia: ;__; But it looks so good. I got the original background from Harusaki and then edited it so well ^^
Yuki: Once again, I believe that went “only you…” ^__^

Cia: You two look so great!!!!! With me in the middle!
Gure (Gure-Chan, not Gure-San): For the last time Cia! You are Hatori, not Tohru *goes into ramble about how Tohru is a witch*
Cia: But…I like Tohru…
Momiji: It’s ok! They are just being a bunch of dumbkroffs!
Cia: ^__^ You’re right Momitchi-Kun!

Haru: So, Cia, how was your visit to Tora-San’s cottage anyway?
Cia: I felt like a princess! I got to sleep in a huge bed and they bought special food for me (I’m diabetic as well as lactose intolerant) and we went swimming and tubing and stayed up late attempting to play Halo and playing Outburst and Uno and listening to music and watching CCS and Princess Mononoke. It was wonderful and we went swimming and saw fireworks and called Gure and talked to her over the phone and now that I’m home they’ll (Gure and Aya) be calling me and ….. *keeps rambling*

And I would like to apologize to Chibi Suki for not being on as of late!!! I am working on banners though.

Also apologizing to Kamiya for not being on!

Attack of the veggietales mad libs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


OOPS--You'll notice that my site isn't really changed yet--that's because Photobucket isn't working....sorry!

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Wednesday, July 6, 2005

   I didn’t quite reach my goal…

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My mom wouldn’t let me throw away my ACT results; she made me look at them.

I couldn’t understand the set-up of it at first but all of a sudden I read the part that said, “for instance, your Reading score is a 99%. This means that 99% of the ACT-tested students scored at or below your Reading score. The rank of your Composite (average) score indicates that your overall educational development is likely in the top tenth of ACT-tested students.”

After that, I started crying. Then I was able to find the rest of my scores *magic*
I also scored 99% in English, 89% in Math and 90% in Science. I had a really bad headache that day though and wasn’t able to answer nearly as many questions as on the practice test…though I did much better on the essay on the actual than on the practice.
Overall, my score was a 31. I hope to re-take it in October to get at least a 32. Not that any of my schools are asking for that…I just want to prove to myself that I can do it.
Wait…that sounds stupid, ne? *Bows* I’m sorry…I must sound weird…it’s just that I really love learning!!!!! I miss school so much! (sobs)

And please don’t yell at me…I tell people that I got a 31 but wanted a 32 and they yell at me ‘cause a 31 is like awesome, especially since this was my first time taking the test…

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   Forgot to Mention

Play wonderland online! Forgot to say that Kamenki and I are starting the Kyou clones...

Also, when I was at her house I got to see the first 12 episodes of FullMetal Alchemist which is AWESOME!!!!!

okay, I'm going to sleep now.........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

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   Forgot to Mention

Play wonderland online! Forgot to say that Kamenki and I are starting the Kyou clones...

Also, when I was at her house I got to see the first 12 episodes of FullMetal Alchemist which is AWESOME!!!!!

okay, I'm going to sleep now.........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

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   Catching Up!!!!!

Play wonderland online! I don't I haven't been on in awhile...Friday I had theatre work, talked to Kamiya, and went to fireworks. Saturday and Sunday I went to my family's cottage. Monday I went to Kamenki's house and then "cottage" to sleep over. Tuesday we went back to her house and then tried to take me back home but my family had left and locked me out!!!! So I went back to Kamenki's for awhile but she had plans. Fortunately she was able to bring me to Tora's (superham99) where I slept over last night.

WEEE I haven't been in my own home for so long....^^; It's weird here....

Female Mabudachi Trio got together yesterday!!! We went to the library where I got 8 books...one of them I had put on hold and they gave me the wrong book -_-;;;

We saw fireworks...*shiny*

Next week, I'll probably be going to Tora's cottage for awhile...anything to escape my house where I keep all my razors I guess....

Those 3 are really keeping watch on me...thank God for friends.

And they won't let me get my hair cut short...THANK GOD FOR FRIEMDS!!!!!!!

Falling asleep, I'd better skip some stuff and make this quick...I've been in a really mood lately, trying to discover the real me...so here's me as a box...*note--most of this isn't the real me...I'll retake it sometime. I was just having fun being hyper*

	You Are? by href='http://www.livejournal.com/users/gtosaku' style='color: #DDDD88; text-decoration: underline;'>Osaku
	This is about you and me..err I mean you...
	Name	Cia
	Nickname(s)	Cia, I'm so unoriginal ^^;
	Age	The one I act like, or the one I actually am?
	Hair Color	brown/blond
	Natural Hair Color (if different)	same
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	Righty/Lefty	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>righty
	Innie/Outtie	innie	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
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	Sign	aries...but why does that matter?
	Glasses/Contacts/"I Can See"	baka glasses -_- *blind******
	Birthmarks	nani? what daya mean?
	Song that Describes Your life	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>umm...*someone's going to kill me for this one...* "I Don't Know How to Love Him" or..."I Want to Change the World" yeah...two...what can I say? I have multiple personalities that won't be ignored!	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='text-align: center; font-weight: bold; background: #666; color: black; padding: .2em; border-style: solid; border-color: black; border-width: 1px 0px 1px 0px;'>Relationships (aww)...
	Are You In Love	love? What the h3ll is that?
	Who Are Your Best Friends	Gure and Aya!!!!!!!!!
	Do you Intend/Want to Get Married	um...that's see what happens in the far, far, away future! j/k...I'm already married ^^
	If So, Where	NJ	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='font-size: small; padding-right: 2px; background: #666; color: #fff; text-align: right; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Do You Want a Family (kids!!!)	yes!!!!! Chibi-Chan!
	If So, How Many	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>lots? ^^ I'm about to have 3 (one already...two on the way ^^)...-_-;
	If So, Boy/Girl/Doesn't Matter	I have one girl...and according to the ultrasounds I'll be having another girl and a boy.
	Aspirations (You go-getter you)...
	What You Wanted to Be When You Were a Kid	teacher
	What Do You Want to Be Now	teacher/writer/SINGER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='font-size: small; padding-right: 2px; background: #666; color: #fff; text-align: right; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Where Do You Want to Live	NJ
	Where Do You Want to Visit	Egypt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And Japan, and all of Europe, and *rambles*
	Where Have You Been That You'd Rather Be Right Now	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>NY *Actually, I'm pretty happy with NJ*
	What Would You Change About Yourself, Given the Opportunity	My weight, *how much I love bocky*
	Favorites...		style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
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	Vacation Spot	um, NY, couldn't you tell that?	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
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	Music Genre	CCM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *It rocks my world* Dare to rock the boat!!!!
	Band	Michael W. Smith	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
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	Flower	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>gardinia
	Smell	nani???? How about jasmine/vanilla?
	Shampoo	DOVE	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='font-size: small; padding-right: 2px; background: #666; color: #fff; text-align: right; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Ice Cream	I can't eat it...T.T	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='font-size: small; padding-right: 2px; background: #666; color: #fff; text-align: right; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Website	OTAKU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='font-size: small; padding-right: 2px; background: #666; color: #fff; text-align: right; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Car	nani? Who drives anyway? Cycling is so much better!!!!!!!!!!!!
	Movie	InuYasha 2	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='font-size: small; padding-right: 2px; background: #666; color: #fff; text-align: right; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Actor	*Viggo*/......
	Actress	why would I be interested in them...they aren't attractive...
	Holiday	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>hmm........4th of July
	Soda	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>soda is bad for you...*I'm a hypocrit*
	Book	JUST ONE?????!!!! Reading so much is a sickness I tell you! A sickness! A sickness!
	Game (Board/Computer/Word/Drinking..It's all good)	manipulating men,,,,,,muahahaha!
	Either/Or...		style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
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	Pop/Rock/Rap	NONE!!!!!	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='font-size: small; padding-right: 2px; background: #666; color: #fff; text-align: right; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Work/Play	What? There's such a thing as work?
	Car/Train/Plane	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>BICYCLE!!!!!!!!!
	Cat/Dog	Dog.....except for Kyou ^///^
	Coke/Pepsi	does it really matter? In the great scheme of things...when we get to heaven will God ask "Which did you drink...coke or pepsi?"
	Color/B&W (photos)	Black and White with blips of color
	Tomato/Chicken Noodle	Chicken Noodle
	Noon/Midnight	Midnight
	Hot/Cold	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>hmmmmmmmmmm
	Dawn/Dusk	Dawn	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
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	Have and Siblings	yeah...
	Cry Easily	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Yes! T.T *collapses in sobs*
	Think You are Smart	um...depends on your defination of "smart"
	Act Your Age	why would I?
	Have Any Tattoos	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>EEKS!
	Have Any Piercings	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Of course
	Have Any Pets	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>not yet...
	Get Jealous	YES	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='font-size: small; padding-right: 2px; background: #666; color: #fff; text-align: right; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Ever Like Boy Bands	yes...T.T;;;;;;;;
	Believe in God/Allah/Jesus/etc.	OF COURSE...HOW CAN YOU EVEN ASK THAT NO GENKI!!!!!!!! READ ABOUT THE SODA THING AGAIN!
	Take Criticism Well	no...T.T *colllapses in sobs again*	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='text-align: center; font-weight: bold; background: #666; color: black; padding: .2em; border-style: solid; border-color: black; border-width: 1px 0px 1px 0px;'>Have You Ever...
	Gotten Drunk Before	NO
	Smoked (cigarettes)	NO
	Done Drugs (Any)	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>presciption...a lot
	Kissed a Member of the Opposite Sex	no...wait a minute...Kyou just Frenched me	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='font-size: small; padding-right: 2px; background: #666; color: #fff; text-align: right; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Kissed a Member of the Same Sex	ICK	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='font-size: small; padding-right: 2px; background: #666; color: #fff; text-align: right; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Been on an Airplane	sure	style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>
style='width: 2px; border: none; background: #448;'>	style='font-size: small; padding-right: 2px; background: #666; color: #fff; text-align: right; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>Been on First Class on an Airplane	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>no.....
	Skinny Dipped	style='font-size: small; padding-left: 2px; background: #888; color: #fff; border-style: solid; border-color: #777; border-width: 1px 0px 0px 0px;'>EW
	Had Sex	NO WAY.....how am I having 3 kids again, nani? Be mature people.
	style='color: #DDDD88;'>Take this Survgen survey!
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