Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Good Times, Good Times...that and I'm too lazy to write a real post...aka too tired...

Play wonderland online! Miss Cia says:
Hello, Damion-San.
Damion says:
ahh...........miss Cia.....am I correct in assuming so...?
Miss Cia says:
yes
Miss Cia says:
^^
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
how r u?
Damion says:
I've been good....
Damion says:
went in for job today...
Miss Cia says:
oh?
Damion says:
passed the first step..now I have testing on wed...
Miss Cia says:
kinda sounds like when I was getting my job...
Miss Cia says:
what company are you going for?
Damion says:
client logic
Miss Cia says:
O_O
Miss Cia says:
wow...............
Miss Cia says:
me, I'm just working in a warehouse...
Damion says:
sounds tiring...
Miss Cia says:
yeah...zzz...
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
yet instead of sleeping after work i watch anime on youtube
Miss Cia says:
lol
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
thats my average night.......
Miss Cia says:
lol
Damion says:
so.....how have you been...........?
Miss Cia says:
um...
Miss Cia says:
well...kinda taking it day by day i guess
Miss Cia says:
one hour at a time
Damion says:
just pressing foward huh>>?
Miss Cia says:
yeah
Miss Cia says:
the past few days have been hard, as you noticed on otaku i believe
Damion says:
thats...good......always foward......never in reverse.....
Damion says:
yeah I saw......
Miss Cia says:
heh, the past few days i think my heart was going in reverse and that's why i got so upset...now I'm reminding myself to keep going forward
Miss Cia says:
sorry, i shouldn't burden you >_<
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
i'm serious ;-;
Damion says:
its what I am here for...so dont worry about that.....
Miss Cia says:
thank...you...
Damion says:
no biggie.......
Miss Cia says:
so...how are things going for you? Last few times I've read your posts...seems you've been having relationship troubles yourself...not that i want to pry
Damion says:
a friend can always find refuge within another friend.........lol...^_^
Miss Cia says:
^_^ thanks
Damion says:
i guess you can say that....
Damion says:
its more means of neglect.....
Miss Cia says:
ahhh....
Damion says:
but she called me yesterday and spent about an hour appologizing.........
Damion says:
what was I to do........
Miss Cia says:
that's kinda...cute...^//^
Miss Cia says:
lol
Damion says:
I forgave her for the most part.....but I'm not sure where this puts us....
Miss Cia says:
sorry, this is so funny for me...hearing it as a female
Miss Cia says:
yeah
Miss Cia says:
relationships are hard no matter what the circumstances...
Damion says:
so there's nothing to do but await what may come...
Miss Cia says:
o_O;;; quoi? Je suis tres confuser!!!!!
Miss Cia says:
yeah, i guess so.
Damion says:
..............
Miss Cia says:
sorry about that interuprution >_<
Damion says:
I see you're still dabling in french...?
Miss Cia says:
french is my second language
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
thats cool
Miss Cia says:
i'm happy you recognise it
Miss Cia says:
^^
Damion says:
I try to be well rounded....
Miss Cia says:
sorry, when i get upset or what-not, i speak in french
Miss Cia says:
and...the part that just came up watching host club...o_O;; quoi...
Damion says:
dont wanna look like a retard durring a first impression.....
Miss Cia says:
lol
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
actually, at work, we have to pack up all these little boxes and my friend Kirstin and I hate it so today I started singing "je deteste les bots petites"
Miss Cia says:
(I hate small boxes)
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
sounds like ablast.............
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
oh yeah
Miss Cia says:
definate blast
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
but at least it's $7.50 an hour...better than nothing
Miss Cia says:
especially when it's over 40 hours a week...that adds up...
Damion says:
I guess.......but i am sure that your hour is worth more......
Miss Cia says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
i hope
Damion says:
I think I'll be starting out at $9.00
Miss Cia says:
=0=
Damion says:
depends on what are i'll be working in.......
Miss Cia says:
wow...where i am...first shift=$7.25, second shift= $7.50, graveyard= $7.75
Miss Cia says:
yep
Miss Cia says:
*blech* >.>

Miss Cia says:
lol
Damion says:
thats odd.....I figured wherehouses woulda' paid more....
Miss Cia says:
yeah, no kidding, since we have to lift 50-60 pounds on a regular basis
Damion says:
do they at least provide you a back brace to avoid the workers hurting themselves..?
Miss Cia says:
um...are you kidding?
Miss Cia says:
plus, we work around machinery without any kind of safety warnings
Damion says:
not good.....
Miss Cia says:
it's a modern day sweatshop, but none of the other jobs I applied for took me
Damion says:
well..you must be presistant.........
Miss Cia says:
"not good..." so agrees my chiropractor...imagine, i had back problems before this even started...lol...i shouldn't be complaining
Miss Cia says:
i can live with it since it's only for the summer
Miss Cia says:
my parents are being nice enough that they're paying for about half of my tutition so I just have to raise the rest
Damion says:
either way.......even a short time, can cause long term effects.....
Miss Cia says:
i'm sure the work study jobs at school will be a breeze after this ^_^
Miss Cia says:
well, for the most part, it's good...it's built up my motabilism, improved my strengh
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
easy workout huh..?..^_^
Miss Cia says:
yeah
Miss Cia says:
a workout i get paid for instead of paying for
Damion says:
all the wonders of weightlifting without the sweaty men everywhere...lol......^_^
Miss Cia says:
well...there's still sweaty men...
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
shirtless sweaty men..?
Miss Cia says:
i wish...j/k...lol
Damion says:
huh....???O_o
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Miss Cia says:
actually, one of the first days the women were given a lecture...basically...we're not allowed to show sex appeal at work...
Miss Cia says:
lol
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
no fair..@!!!
Damion says:
jk
Miss Cia says:
XD lol
Miss Cia says:
yep
Miss Cia says:
hehe, i started a new series on youtube and i'm on episode 6 already
Miss Cia says:
yea!
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
coolness
Miss Cia says:
oh damn, i have an eye appointment tomorrow...make that today
Miss Cia says:
yep
Damion says:
what you watching now..?
Miss Cia says:
ouran high school host club
Damion says:
ah..
Damion says:
I heard of that one.....supposed to be a goodin'..
Miss Cia says:
it's funny
Miss Cia says:
actually, it's kind of like fruits basket
Miss Cia says:
and fruits basket is my obsession
Miss Cia says:
*bows in front of fruits basket shrine...aka bedroom*
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
I heard good of that one too.^_^
Miss Cia says:
yeah, but i like more "guy" stuff too...
Miss Cia says:
like rurouni kenshin...i just finished all the manga *tear*
Miss Cia says:
and yu yu hakusho
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
and inuyasha
Miss Cia says:
i plan on started naruto, bleach and samurai deeper kyo
Miss Cia says:
oh! and black cat
Miss Cia says:
sorry, i'm so hyper right now!!!
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
this is what happens when my blood glucose level goes high...i get really, really, really, really hyper and can type about 100 words a minute
Miss Cia says:
woohooo
Miss Cia says:
i bet you're really wishing i wasn't talking to you
Miss Cia says:
>_< i'm so sorry
Damion says:
make me look like an amature...........v-v
Miss Cia says:
lol
Damion says:
I'm supposed to be a programmer and youre typing about ten times faster than I am...loL

Miss Cia says:
10 times????
Miss Cia says:
are you saying you only type 10 words a minute?
Miss Cia says:
lol
Damion says:
well...something around there..
Damion says:
well.....um...no...not........that slow..hehe.....
Miss Cia says:
lol, i used to only type 14 words a minute...thanks to istant messaging and e-mail i've improved towards that 100 mark...lol
Damion says:
but you are going really fast......
Miss Cia says:
i wouldn't think so
Miss Cia says:
really?
Miss Cia says:
i don't even know how fast i type anymore....depends how hyper i am...lol
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
thats cool
Miss Cia says:
i have friends who type 128 words per minute, no joke
Damion says:
imagine going to a sort of competition....
Miss Cia says:
.LOL
Damion says:
secret weapon..........bag of sugar....(dum-dum-dum!!)
Miss Cia says:
XDDDD lol
Miss Cia says:
sorry, be right back
Damion says:
k
Miss Cia says:
back
Damion says:
k
Damion says:
wb
Miss Cia says:
hm?
Damion says:
Welcome Back
Damion says:
^_^
Miss Cia says:
oh >//<
Miss Cia says:
i've been a major ditz this week
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
what makes you say that..?
Miss Cia says:
i just have been...
Miss Cia says:
like, let's see, i'm sitting here in my pajamas...wearing three necklaces and earings that go down to my shoulders
Miss Cia says:
and i dont' even know why that matters
Miss Cia says:
i'm so weird
Damion says:
LMAO
Damion says:
i'm sorry but that's just cool
Miss Cia says:
hehe
Miss Cia says:
and i just got my hair cut short so my earings are like sooooo much longer than my hair
Miss Cia says:
hehehe
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
that reminds me..I need another haircut...
Miss Cia says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
omg...sorry...this is so funny...
Miss Cia says:
all of a sudden a cage appears out of nowhere
Miss Cia says:
this anime is so random
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
the guys to Haruhi--"Haruhi, of course there's a reason for you to dress up in this middle school uniform."
the guys away from Haruhi--"damn, she's cute"
that's the dire reason XD
Damion says:
LMAO
Damion says:
thats awesome..
Miss Cia says:
yep XD
Miss Cia says:
*watches more* LMAO
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
oh man, such a funny show
Damion says:
I'll have to check it out sometime..
Miss Cia says:
kyu....
Miss Cia says:
so what else are you up to right now?

The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:
kyu....

The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:
so what else are you up to right now?

Miss Cia says:
mm..i'm kinda scared now...
Damion says:
having connection problems..?
Damion says:
reason....for your fear..>?
Miss Cia says:
well, that and i got some e-mail dated july 19, 2006
Miss Cia says:
but it's only july 12, 2006
Damion says:
huh.???????
Miss Cia says:
ah! the apocolpyse...lol
Damion says:
so it was sent a week into the future...
Damion says:
makes total sense.........^_^
Damion says:
VIRUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
yeah, complete sense
Miss Cia says:
good thing i deleted it w/out opening it
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
*rubs eyes like little kid*
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
so...what are you all up to right now?
Damion says:
tired..>
Damion says:
talking to about 4 people in one window......checking reading and responding to myspace messages and listening to some rock music......lol
Miss Cia says:
wow
Miss Cia says:
i'm just kinda zoning out, lol, can't sleep yet because my blood glucose is way to high and i'm trying to get it normal...so...tired though...lol
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
take a cold shower or something..
Damion says:
or warm bath..
Miss Cia says:
hey, good idea
Damion says:
something to relax yourself..
Miss Cia says:
i don't have a bathtub though, it'll have to be the shower
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
you could sit on the shower floor...and pretend to have one..lol
Miss Cia says:
LOL
Damion says:
with a little ducky and everything...
Miss Cia says:
i just got some nice new shower gel too, lol
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
actually...>//<...i went out to bath and body works and bought a pink rubber ducky
Miss Cia says:
oh god, i'm so silly
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
and japanese cherry blossom shower gel
Damion says:
thats awesome.....
Damion says:
I'd shop there...if it werent for all the weird looks I get when i walk in there...O_O
Miss Cia says:
LOL
Damion says:
so I just go and stand by my mommy.......
Miss Cia says:
i made an ex go in there with me once, we got so many looks
Miss Cia says:
XDDDDDDDDDDD lmao
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
LMAO
Damion says:
I remember this time I was shopping with my cousin at the mall....
Damion says:
and she went in to victorias secret.....
Damion says:
so I stood outside..
Damion says:
and people where glaring at me thinking I was some perv....
Miss Cia says:
OMG
Miss Cia says:
LMAO
Damion says:
even people downstairs who happened to look up pointed and whispered....lol
Miss Cia says:
LOL
Damion says:
brb
Miss Cia says:
k
Damion says:
I am currently away from the computer.
Miss Cia says:
quote from show: "he's one of those quietly perverted people...how sick man"
Damion says:
k
Damion says:
thanks for waitning....
Miss Cia says:
tis fine
Damion says:
L Damion says:
funny qoute...lol>>^_^
Miss Cia says:
omg, they're having a water gun fight now
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
omg, nice use of the banana peel
Miss Cia says:
aligators now
Miss Cia says:
LMAO
Miss Cia says:
omg...*eye twitches*
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
what..?
Miss Cia says:
some former classmates decided to play a prank on a friend and made a website dedicated to finding a girlfrind for him...they even have an application form to fill out...
Miss Cia says:
*biiiiiig yawn*
Miss Cia says:
Oh man, quarter after 3...haven't stayed up this late in awhile
Damion says:
LMAO
Damion says:
thats just too funny.....
Damion says:
not the staying up thing...the prank...hehe
Miss Cia says:
yeah, i figured
Miss Cia says:
what time is it for you?
Damion says:
1:13am
Miss Cia says:
mm...not too bad
Damion says:
but I dont go to sleep for another 4 hours,,
Miss Cia says:
O_O
Miss Cia says:
why?

Damion says:
I like to watch the sunrise...
Miss Cia says:
that's sweet ^//^
Damion says:
that and I suffer from insomnia...^_^
Miss Cia says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
well, i have an eye appointment in about 7 and a half hours and work right away so i'd better go take that shower/bath/ruibber ducky event and get some shut-eye

Damion says:
LMAO
Miss Cia says:
that and i havent' been feeling well....-_-
Damion says:
be sure to post about it..LMAO
Miss Cia says:
lol
Damion says:
sorry to hear so....
Damion says:
anything I can do..?
Miss Cia says:
i should just post this conversation, lol
Damion says:
LMAO
Miss Cia says:
remind me to stop worrying?
Damion says:
I dont mind..
Miss Cia says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
i worry until i get a fever
Damion says:
STOP WORRYING!!!!!!!
Damion says:
hows that...?
Miss Cia says:
XDDD *blown away from shock*
Miss Cia says:
*has a heart attack*
Damion says:
8-)
Miss Cia says:
doki, doki, doki
Damion says:
um..........
Miss Cia says:
?
Damion says:
oops....hehehe,,
Miss Cia says:
LOL
Damion says:
didnt mean to give her a stroke...*dashes into the distance..*
Miss Cia says:
Kyou Clone #3: come back, damn it!!!
Miss Cia says:
Kyou Clone #3: how dare you kill Cia?!
Damion says:
damn....
Damion says:
a witness......
Miss Cia says:
lol!!
Damion says:
*runs back with a spoon*..
Miss Cia says:
Kurama Clone #109: he wasn't the only one I'm afraid
Miss Cia says:
spoon?!
Miss Cia says:
LOL
Damion says:
mustn't leave any witnesses....*swings spoon in the air*
Miss Cia says:
LMAO
Miss Cia says:
what the hell?
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
idk
Miss Cia says:
Kyou Clone #3: what does a spoon have to do with--*is knocked out by getting hit in the head by spoon*
Miss Cia says:
lol
Damion says:
I'll kill your clones with my mystical spoonof ownage.....
Miss Cia says:
LMAO
Damion says:
scoop the brain function right out of them...lol
Miss Cia says:
XDDDDDDDD
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
well..I'll let you get going so you can wash up and get some rest.......
Miss Cia says:
thanks
Miss Cia says:
talk to you soon, i hope
Damion says:
dream sweet miss Cia
Miss Cia says:
^//^
Damion says:
lol
Miss Cia says:
you know, you really do have a way with words...
Miss Cia says:
i'll try my best
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
so I've been told.....
Damion says:
thanks
Miss Cia says:
night...errr...morning...er...um...enjoy the sunrise ^_^
Damion says:
lol
Damion says:
thanks..
Damion says:
rest well



~3:24 AM, Wednesday July 12, 2006

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Tuesday, July 11, 2006

zzz

Play wonderland online! too tired to say much of anything. It's midnight and I just finished putting up the eleventh chapter of my fanfiction--Hatori's Hidden Heartache.

Also, I've made the decision to start sharing work stories.

Also--working on an original song...here are the lyrics...warning...a bit graphic...
Alone…Again

Here I am, crying in the dark
you think you've found my heart
but it's died, away, astray
here i am, the walls are closing in
admitting to my sin
loving you has brought me only pain

and here i am, again
again your voice is running through my head
hear your lovely words…but they’re all make-believe
Oh…why is it, no matter where i run to...
you remain?
oh, here i am, alone again

the blood gushes out my veins
i thought i washed out all the red
but still the stain remains
who knew that my chest
could burn this way...for you
tearing off your ring.........

and here i am, again
again your voice is running through my head
hear your lovely words…but they’re all make-believe
why is it, no matter where i run to...
you remain?
oh, here i am, alone again

so why? why do you disappear?
take what's left of me...then leave me in despair?
here i am again, crying in the dark
there you are again, you think you've found my heart
but if you want to know the truth
it's already there with you...

and…here I am again
again your voice is running through my head
hear your lovely words…but they’re all make-believe
why is it, no matter where I run to…
you remain?
Oh, here I am, alone again.

why is it that
i try so hard for none to touch me?
yet you approach, and suddenly i can hardly breathe?
need your hands on my chest, my hips and then my lips
wanting you to take, every part of me?

but here i am, again
again your voice is running through my head
hear your lovely words…but they’re all make-believe
why is it, no matter where i run to...
you remain?
oh, here i am, alone again

and here i am, again
again your voice is running through my head
hear your lovely words…but they’re all make-believe
why is it, no matter where i run to...
you remain?
oh, but, here i am, alone…again




Yeah, the song is still in the works...oh, goodness, I'm tired.

One more bit of news. My brother is helping me improve my site, how do you like it so far?

night

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Sunday, July 9, 2006

These last few days I've been crying...

Play wonderland online! I try to say I'm better, I try to tuck it away, but at night the tears still come. I feel like something has been torn from see, shattered stolen. Jordan, why, why? Couldn't you see I love you? It's times like this my angsty lyrics come out...

Here I am, crying in the dark
you think you've found my heart
but it's died, away, astray
here i am, the walls are closing in
admitting to my sin
loving you has brought me only pain

and here i am, again again
your voice is running through my head
why is it, no matter where i run to...
you remain?
oh, here i am, alone again

the blood gushes out my veins
i thought i washed out all the red
but still the stain remains
who knew that my chest
could burn this way...for you
tearing off your ring.........

and here i am, again again
your voice is running through my head
why is it, no matter where i run to...
you remain?
oh, here i am, alone again

why is it that
i try so hard for none to touch me?
yet you aproach, and suddenly i can hardly breathe?
need your hands on my breasts, my thighs, my hips and then my lips
wanting you to take, every part of me?

so why? why do you disapear?
take what's left of me...then leave me in despair?
here i am again, crying in the dark
there you are again, you think you've found my heart
but if you want to know the truth
it's already there with you...

and here i am, again again
your voice is running through my head
why is it, no matter where i run to...
you remain?
oh, here i am, alone again

and here i am, again again
your voice is running through my head
why is it, no matter where i run to...
you remain?
oh, here i am, alone again

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Thursday, July 6, 2006

   Wow

Play wonderland online! This is the first morning, or rather, afternoon now, that I've been at my own house since Sunday...4 days...I spent them all with Kamenki! and at work! which i have to leave for in 20 minutes...but it's payday today so that makes me happy...8 hours a day $7.50 an hour adds up eventually...yea college tution money...

^_^

guess what Cia has learned to do??? Make hearts ^_^ ¢¾

yea!

oooooooooooh...so there's this guy at work who is really hot and until I learned his name I just called him "resident hottie" but then I found out his name was Erik...anyway...one of the boxes went through the name machine yesterday before I was ready for it and so the label was torn off and needed to be repacked and I felt so bad, but Erik was around and so he took it from me and our hands touched and he smiled and was like "i'm so glad I'm not the only one who does that" and took it to get repacked for me ¢¾_¢¾ sigh....

I got all scratched up on the machines yesterday and was like "too bad he can't kiss the scratches all better" and was turning red and Kyo was like "oh...it's not like, Kyo, why don't you kiss them, blush, blush, giggle, giggle." and I was like "no offense Kyo, but you're not real...and Erik definately is...*blush*" and so Kyo is like "so you want a real guy, and a guy you hardly know at that...kissing scratches that are way up high on your upper thigh (I was wearing short shorts)" and I turned beat red and was like "akdiawoefuhglasdjkfjwelj" and Yuki was like "You see what you've done now, stupid cat? You surprised her into a stuper. It's alright Miss Cia. I'll take care of it for you. (and he kisses the scratches)." By this time I'm even more red and bumbling more. Kyo is also red "YOU DAMN RAT!"

yep, that didn't really write well...I'm too hyper right now...

oh! I bought the fruits basket card game yesterday ^^

sigh...I'd better get going...I want to be able to take care of one more e-mail, read the snail mail, and then get to work.

ttyl peeps

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Thursday, June 29, 2006

   A sad but often too true poem...don't drink and drive

Play wonderland online! Jenny was so happy about the house they had found.
For once in her life 'twas on the right side of town.
She unpacked her things with such great ease. As she watched her new curtains blow in the breeze.
How wonderful it was to have her own room. School would be starting; she'd have friends over soon.
There'd be sleep-overs, and parties; she was so happy
It's just the way she wanted her life to be.
On the first day of school, everything went great.
She made new friends and even got a date!
She thought, "I want to be popular and I'm going to be,
Because I just got a date with the star of the team!"
To be known in this school you had to have clout,
And dating this guy would sure help her out.
There was only one problem stopping her fate.
Her parents had said she was too young to date.
"Well I just won't tell them the entire truth.
They won't know the difference; what's there to lose?"
Jenny asked to stay with her friends that night.
Her parents frowned but said, "All right."
Excited, she got ready for the big event
But as she rushed around like she had no sense,
She began to feel guilty about all the lies,
But what's a pizza, a party, and a moonlight ride?
Well the pizza was good, and the party was great,
But the moonlight ride would have to wait.
For Dan was half drunk by this time.
But he kissed her and said that he was just fine.
Then the room filled with smoke and Dan took a puff.
Jenny couldn't believe he was smoking that stuff.
Now Dan was ready to ride to the point
But only after he'd smoked another joint.
They jumped in the car for the moonlight ride,
Not thinking that he was too drunk to drive.
They finally made it to the point at last,
And Dan started trying to make a pass.
A pass is not what Jenny wanted at all
(and by a pass, I don't mean playing football.)
"Perhaps my parents were right....maybe I am too young.
Boy, how could I ever, ever be so dumb."
With all of her might, she pushed Dan away:
"Please take me home, I don't want to stay."
Dan cranked up the engine and floored the gas.
In a matter of seconds they were going too fast.
As Dan drove on in a fit of wild anger,
Jenny knew that her life was in danger.
She begged and pleaded for him to slow down,
But he just got faster as they neared the town.
"Just let me get home! I'll confess that I lied.
I really went out for a moonlight ride."
Then all of a sudden, she saw a big flash.
"Oh God, Please help us! We're going to crash!"
She doesn't remember the force of impact.
Just that everything all of a sudden went black.
She felt someone remove her from the twisted rubble, And heard,
"call an ambulance! These kids are in trouble! Voices she heard...
a few words at best.
But she knew there were two cars involved in the wreck.
Then wondered to herself if Dan was all right,
And if the people in the other car was alive.
She awoke in the hospital to faces so sad.
"You've been in a wreck and it looks pretty bad."
These voices echoed inside her head,
As they gently told her that Dan was dead.
They said "Jenny, we've done all we can do.
But it looks as if we'll lose you too."
"But the people in the other car!?" Jenny cried.
"We're sorry, Jenny, they also died."
Jenny prayed, "God, forgive me for what I've done
I only wanted to have just one night of fun."
"Tell those people's family, I've made their lives dim,
And wish I could return their families to them."
"Tell Mom and Dad I'm sorry I lied,
And that it's my fault so many have died.
Oh, nurse, won't you please tell them that for me?"
The nurse just stood there-she never agreed.
But took Jenny's hand with tears in her eyes.
And a few moments later Jenny died.
A man asked the nurse, "Why didn't you do your best
To bid that girl her one last request?"
She looked at the man with eyes so sad.
"Because the people in the other car were her mom and dad."
This story is sad and unpleasant but true,
So young people take heed, it could have been you.

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Monday, June 26, 2006

Still thinking of J-Kun

Play wonderland online! The Moffatts - Misery Lyrics




I cry myself to sleep again tonight
'Cause I cannot hold you tight.
I wish I could see you again tomorrow
To take all this sorrow
Sorrow, I'm hollow (misprint in booklet)

When I touch you
Can you feel It
When I need you
Can you give it
When I look in your eyes
Can you see me
When I fall
Will you catch me, catch me, catch me

Chorus:
Misery
Is what I feel
When you're not around
So I can't heal
Misery
Is what I feel
Is what I feel

These tears on my face
Are for you
I wish that I could hold you
Touch you, feel you
My heart is bleeding
Can't you see
I wish that you could hold me
Touch me, feel me

Chorus

Chorus

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Sunday, June 25, 2006

   Well...I'm back...I guess...

Play wonderland online! Yes, I'm back on this site, complete with a new theme and everything! Let's take a poll, how many of you thought I died? LOL, I suppose some of you visited me on my other site. I don't get the chance to do much on there though, because I've started a new full-time job. By the time busy season hits in July, I'll end up working up to 70 hours a week!!! I'm going to try my best to be more active on here again though, since this place has saved my life a few times ^^;;

Yeah, I quit this site a long time ago because of problems I went through with an old boyfriend. I'm not going to go into details, but things are kinda cleared up now, we're both moving away from each other and I'm back on here. I met, and fell in love with, someone else, but the situation turned out like tokyo babylon. Sometimes, I'm still too much like our beloved Subaru and Tohru. I care too much for other people and not at all for myself. I'm still trying to find that balance. J-Kun didn't want to be attached to me when he moved away, so we said a final goodbye and he left, without giving me a new address or anything. I'm still in pain...in fact, I feel like someone stabbed me in the chest, but I know that I have to go on...that I have the strength to go on...and that somehow, everything will turn out alright.

These past few days, I've been pulling a Daisuke. "Don't look at me now, soon I'll be happy again, soon I'll be smiling again, but right now I'm crying so please, don't look at me right now because I want you to see me happy."

Kinda like that.

Hence, this theme. The doomed love of Seishirou and Subaru.

And, therefore, my coming back to my friends. Please regard me kindly!

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

   Well, I had a long day

Play wonderland online! First I couldn't get to sleep until midnight.

Then I got up at like 6:30 or so.

Then I got ready for school.

Then I went to homeroom.

Then I went to talk to my choir teacher.

Then I went to English.

Then I skipped Physics to work on learning a song for 90 minutes.

Then I had chior.

Then I had yearbook and stayed late, bought some food and brought it to the chior room with me to practice the song some more.

The lesson went late and I ended up missing half of my last class.

Then I had an Improv party with food and soda and comedy games.

Then I read my letter from Tora and cryed.

Then I had some dinner (thank god for refreshing tea from starbucks!!!!)

Then I practiced a special song from the seniors to our choir teacher.

Then I practiced songs for the choir concert.

Then we had the choir concert and I had a solo ^//^

Then my choir teacher and I hugged to death. I LOVE YOU MR. VSIC!!!!!

Then I came home, ate some food cause my blood sugar was low, and came on here to type out my really long day. Yeah. Now I have to take my night time meds and try to get rid of my splitting headache.

I won't really be on here for awhile. Tomorrow I'm missing a bunch more of physics, cause it's the special senior mass and I'm singing a song with my friend Julie-Chan (the one I was working on all day today). I also have a meeting tomorrow night about a new juice that is supposed to help regulate blood glucose levels in diabetics. On top of that, I have a huge presentation to give on Friday.

*phew* tomorrow is the power breakfast in AP English though and that will be fun.

Just in case I don't come on for awhile--this is why...

Saturday: THE WALK TO CURE DIABETES!
Sunday: Graduation Mass and Senior Awards.
Monday: last monday of high school!!!
Tuesday: last tuesday of high school!!!
Wednesday: last wednesday of high school!!!
Thursday: Finals
Friday: Finals and Graduation Practice.
Saturday: Cottage
Sunday: Cottage
Monday: Cottage
Tuesday: ??
Wednesday: FREAKIN GRADUATION, Y'ALL!!!
Thursday: PARTIES!
Friday: PARTIES!
Saturday: PARTIES!
Sunday: PARTIES!



So yeah, the next few weeks are crazy. After all that, I start my job and register for classes next fall at school orientation. Since the next few weeks are so hectic, I won't be on and apologize in advance for not making it to sites, etc. I'll try to still check my PMs once in awhile.

Love you all!!!

~Cia

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Well, long time no see

Play wonderland online! I'm basically coming back from my break now and making some changes around here. I've forgiven you, spectre-01, in fact, I feel sorry for you that you are confused and don't know what love is. Now that I have found real love I know it will conquer all.

I love you, J-Kun.

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Tuesday, May 9, 2006

   Love

Play wonderland online! "You Raise Me Up"

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.



I have found what true love is and I never want to let it go, not ever. If anything else is love, I don't want it. All I want is to stay near my beloved forevermore. This song is for him and what he means to me. He does so much for me. I cry tears of happiness and joy thanks to him. I love you, J-Kun.

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