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“Ring, Ring”
Hatori: H…Hello?
Ayame: Hari-San! ^^
Hatori: Ay…Ayame, is that you?
Ayame: But of course Hari-San!
Hatori: Ayame, I’m sorry, but I really can’t talk right no…*throws up*
Ayame: Hatori? Hatori? What’s wrong? Are you…crying?
Hatori: *finishes puking* I…need to be serious right now and I just can’t be that with you Ayame. The only one of you two that I can be somewhat serious with is Shigure.
Ayame: If you need to talk to Shigure, Hatori, then do so.
Hatori: B…but Ayame…
Shigure looks up, clueless. Ayame tosses him the phone and he picks it up.
Shigure: Hatori?
Hatori: Shi…gure *throws up again*
Shigure: Hatori, what’s wrong??? And you’re crying too, aren’t you?
Hatori: I’m sorry, I just…for some reason I just can’t stop *pukes once again*
Shigure: …*realizes what day it is* This isn’t about Kana is it, Ha-San?
Hatori: No…no it’s…
Shigure: Then this is…what you told me about?
Hatori: I just don't understand how anyone could love me I...
Shigure: Hatori, stop!
Hatori: No, listen! I don't know how anyone can love me when I'm so pathetic. There...there's just something i me that just won't let me show my true self to anyone. I try but I just...not even with you two. The real me is more serious and loves books and...but I always stayed in my room reading. I was all alone; I had friends but hardly ever saw them.
Shigure: Hatori...
Hatori: I try so hard to be myself but I'm always a different person depending on who I'm with. I just subconsciously fear that if I;m not like my certain group of friends they won't accept me. I'm being torn...I don't know who the real me is anymore and yet I still hate myself..I just!
Shigure: Hatori, the things you told me earlier...Hatori, have you, did you do anything to yourself??? Hatori! Hatori!
Hatori: No.
Shigure: Hatori tell me the truth!!! Did you try to hurt yourself again?!
Hatori: ...Yes! I saw the razor in the shower and brought it up to my arm. I was so afraid, but yet I brought it closer and closer...and then, I cut my arm. It hurt; I knew that what I was doing was wrong and I was so frightened--so afraid of what I what else I could do to myself. But the pain helped ease the pain of hating myself and all my selves. It helped curve the nausea that came with even thinking about myself and how pathetic and useless I am. So I brought the razor up to my arm and cut it again and again...
Shigure: Hatori! Aua and I are coming right now.
Hatori: The others in the house, Akito specifically, won't let you stay for long and your showing up here will disturb them.
Shigure: I don't care!!! We need to get to you right now!
Hatori: ...
Shigure: Hatori?! Did you hear me, Hatori?!
Hatori: ...Shigure, please try to make it here on time.
Shigure: *thought, not spoken* On time?
Hatori: I still have some love for life...as well as for you and Ayame *hangs up*
Shigure: Aya, we need to get to Hatori as soon as possible. There's no telling what he might do.
Aya: Right.
Meanwhile, at the main house, Hatori bends down to pick up the gun he has on the floor.
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