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A boy from my school was sentenced to jail today because of sexual assult. He made advances towards me and Tora-Chan but we didn't think...so it was really scary. I've just been falling apart lately--ripping at the seems. My diabetes and other health junk is seemingly out of control. School isn't going well. I've suffered brain damage and gained friends. I'm lost and feel inadequate when compared to my classmates. ... People are reaching out trying to help me but I can't respond. The thought of college makes my heart stop. I took the ACT in June and got a 31 (the highest score is 36). I wanted to re-take it and am supposed to today at 8 AM (meaning leaving my house at 7:30) but it's 1AM and I can't stop thinking...I can't stop crying. I talked to Yasha and...I feel so mean. I can't believe how horrably I take advantage of you Princess. Aren't you sick of me? Tora-Chan, aren't you sick of me talking all about myself? Cali-Kun, Corrine, whatever, if you're not sick of me than there's no God...
My God, why do you people put up with me? Why should anyone give a damn what I write on here? Why should anyone care about some random teenage girl in a state in the US that people from the South sometimes think is in Canada? I just don't understand and probably never will. It hurts to try and find out. I just feel like I can't make it anymore, it's getting harder and harder to act. I've felt like shoot for a long time, feeling like I'm stretching myself through the days and now it feels like I can't go on. It literally feels like a vice is tightening on my head. I'm losing my mind, I'm losing my soul. There's nothing left but a state of limbo.
Jesus Christ Superstar Lyrics
Poor Jerusalem Lyrics
JESUS
Neither you, Simon, nor the fifty thousand,
Nor the Romans, nor the Jews,
Nor Judas, nor the twelve
Nor the priests, nor the scribes,
Nor doomed Jerusalem itself
Understand what power is,
Understand what glory is,
Understand at all,
Understand at all.
If you knew all that I knew, my poor Jerusalem,
You'd see the truth, but you close your eyes.
But you close your eyes.
While you live, your troubles are many, poor Jerusalem.
To conquer death, you only have to die.
You only have to die.
I'm sorry, I just don't know anymore