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Sunday, February 12, 2006
apology to yasha...i am so sorry...i love you
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Cia-Chan
Senior Artist
Posted Today at 05:00 PM
Oh God, Yasha, I wasn't even thinking when I wrote that crap, I was upset. Yes, you do push people away, yes, you do hate yourself, but that's why you need my love. Please except my love, even if I'm worthless too. Honest to God Yasha, I hid so much even from you. I kept up with the cutting and the starving myself long after I told people I stopped. I was told that therapists and pills would help and I thought "like hell they will" but honest to god sometimes now I just feel happy...genionly happy...and I hadn't felt like that in over 10 years...I just kept finding highs to lift myself up and then come crashing down. I have been an idiot. since you have been pushing away, I should force myself in, cause you are worth something. If I'm worth something, then you definately are. You probably don't care about all this, you probably think it's a load of bull crap, but I'm honestly trying to say how I feel. You don't think you can call me Cia? Then how you I call you Yasha instead of Yasha-San? How can I love you? Love is the most confusing, yet most powerful thing and I swear I love you and always will no matter if you hate me or not. Yes, it hurt that you felt I overeated, but you can't help that. Great, now I'm hurting myself over this! Wait, no you didn't need to know that, I'm just an idiot, ignore me...I'm not even a lovable idiot huh? but if you didn't care for me why would you be concerned about being able to call me cia or not sorry just confused ignore this ramble ignore this whole comment i think we should talk in person adn try to remove our masks...it makes us so damn vulnerable to remove them just a little...but if we can try just a little and we can yell and swear and sob and just get it all out but that's okay and um...if you didn't know yet, I'm a redhead now, just thought you should know that for when and if i see you cause it's permenant and some people haven't been recognising me. like my therapist thought i was someone else but whatever now i'm really ramblign i should shut up nbut when i'm upset i jhut ramble and say nothing in a matter of hundreds of words...god i'm such an idiot...p.lese talk to me soon we should talk im person
i love you
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