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*okay, so this post is gonna contain a bit of tmi...read at your own risk*
First of all, thanks for your support!!! Thanks to all of you I now have 145 guestbook signings and a popularity of #698 ^____^ and I feel so ashamed cause I don't even get to peoples sites very often. I'm just too busy and sickly,,,,I'm so sorry TT_TT
Second of all, I am so sick!!! My weekend was so hectic and now I feel like I'm going to die. TT_TT I have pos...polysistic ovarian syndrome, which makes periods a living nightmare, so I have that all going on right now plus my diabetes is completely out of control so I'm dizzy and nauses and in pain. TToTT
I have managed to do well with psych though. The last test I got a 100% and on the paper that most people failed I got a B! I am so happy >_< I'm on top of my game for french too. I've been the top student in that class the last half of the year last year and all year this year. I am so happy.
As for solo and ensemble...I don't want to talk about it. I've been ranting and crying and my choir teacher gave me hugs and Kamenki consoled me and I just have to let everything go now. As for actual scores, I got two 1 and a *1, which means I will be going to the state competition with the other senior women to sing "ein hennlein weiss". I'm very proud of us, we did such an awesome job with that song and it's so fun.
Speaking of Kamenki...I can't get over how much I love her. *not like that--get your minds out of the gutter* I'm really never going to meet another person like her in my entire life. She knows me better than I know myself o_O;; she always knows exactly what I need and how to comfort me, even when I believe I am beyond comfort. Next year, we will be living about 5 and a half hours away from each other, but we will still be closer than ever. I just have a good feeling about it. We're both so abusive and posessive, lol, but we have a bond that can't be broken. I've decided that now. I can't express myself very well right now because of being so sick...but...but... I used to think I was meant to be all alone, that no one could touch me. I thought that I should live alone, constantly punishing myself, I thought I deserved as much pain as possible. And now? Well, I'm suffering the consequences. I have brain damage I'm working to overcome and pysichal scars that will never go away. Plus, I'm working on the invisible scars. I've been talking about my love for Kamenki a lot lately and she's uber embarrased, but honest to God Kat, you are one of the reasons I haven't died! Both you and Yasha have kept me from going all the way. The people here on otaku have helped so much as well...Oh God...I'm crying...but I dont' know what I'd do without you guys, especially Shishou and Pyroprincess and D+D and Damion. From the bottom of my heart, I thank God for all of you.
I'm really dizzy, so I think I'll lay down for awhile before doing my french homework and eating dinner. This week is a really frantic busy week for Improv, so I hope I get better *resolved* though I'll probably just burn myself out *cry*
Ja ne
Oy...and Wow...but still...Oy