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Subj: Upset
Mood: Feeling Ill
Time: 11:11 AM, central time
ugh............WhAT ThE HeLl Is HaPpEnInG tO mE!?
My body is so out of whack right now...especially with my diabetes...it's like, since going to the chiropractor and getting my brain stem aligned...all things hormonal are going crazy! My body is like reverting back to how "insulin-sensitive" it used to be. My blood glucose levels are jumping all over and suddenly crashing at bad times. I was sent home from work again yesterday because of it. Of course, with my blood sugar crashing I couldnt' drive. I called around for a ride and couldn't get ahold of anyone...ended up just sitting around for 45 minutes until I felt well enough to drive home. And I was sobbing the whole time. Oh yeah, sobbing. I finally admitted the truth...
*flashback*
God, I'm a strong person. I'm not scared...I'm petrified...please help me figure out what the **** is going on with my body.
*end of flashback*
So yeah, not fun. And my family is going nuts on me...*grr...get away from family...help!* And I'm working about 46 hours a week...and seeing doctors almost everyday on top of that and getting all these blood tests and urine tests done...uber fun...I'm hardly ever home but when I'm home I just want to escape!!! My dad is on business and he's the only one who keeps my family sane! I miss him like CRAZY!!!!!
TToTT
So, yeah, sorry about all the ranting, but I have a little more...please bear with me.
I found out who my roomate is for college next year...and also found out that she digs partying and hard liquor and possably even porn. Oh God, this is the opposite of me TToTT I just want to study and get to my 8 AM classes and keep my scholarships...as it is I'm working myself to death *quite literally* to make money for college...if I lose the scholarships, I certainly am doomed *away in a deep, dark, corner.*
*sobs like mad*
Please, pray for me...I don't think I'll make it through the summer...................
Please shoot me...right now...yes, that would be nice...