Tuesday, April 12, 2005

   ZAPS
Hello every one sorry i have been gone so long.. I just started my new training class and have not had much time to com by and post.. Which really sux and i am sorry..

Mel and I are i guess no more...=( she had thought that it is too stressfull to be in a realtionship... and i guess i can agree with her because it is so far away i can see how it can be stress full... but now she wants nothing to do with me... no messages no phone or anything which kinda sux... even being rejected by someone who is that far away...

What chance do i have with someone who lives near me... Oh well thus is life or how it seems to be latly

Any way i am going to go i will talk to you all later i am sorry this is not longer but i have to get back to class i will try and get to everyones sits later today but if i cannot i am sorry..

Have a great day... *hugs Everyone*
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Monday, April 4, 2005

   Last Day... =(
Sunday night was our last night at work here we are offically laid off... yea its kinda sad but i will be back after a week our new training class starts on the 11th WOOHOO week vacation but i am not sure what i am going to do... but oh well...

I do have good news though... I asked Melissa to be my Girlfriend on saturday she said yes *jumps up and down* i am no longer Single... YAY jus now have to figure out how i am going to be able to visit her often... I am thinking if i can get 4X10's at work I will have 3 days off every week so if i have the money i will try to visit her maybe once a month... or every other month??? I am not sure though...

Any way how has every one else been. Melissa says HI HI HI And that she will be back soon.. she is not sure when though.. I will be back soon as well I dont think i will be able to post this week but i will try to get to every ones site...

Sorry this post is going to be short but I have got to get some more stuff done before the end of my shift today.. I hope every one has a great week... *hugs every one* *kisses melissa*

~Joshua~
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Wednesday, March 30, 2005

   YAY
Woohoo MyO is back. It has been down for me for a few days... i am not sure why... GGGRRRRRRR RAWR ummm... HI *waves wildly* How was every one? *cires* mel left us... She should be back though...

any way I am just about off work so i will talk to you all later have a great day. *hugs every one* *kisses mel*

~Joshua~
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Sunday, March 27, 2005

   So what i am a SPAZ
Ok party sucked no one showed up so i went to bed... sad day but oh well shit happens... so how is every one tonight/day?

How do you all like my song? its one of my favorite songs right now. I was going to put Dir En Gray on but I could not find my CD with them on it *cires*

But i have evil plans in the work MUAHAHAHAHAHA umm.. hi MUahahahahaha... ok ummm...

Here is one of my poems:
The Morbid Corpse

The morbid corpse shows no pain
While the sun burn the flesh away
The stench of a thousand bloody deaths
Stains the eyes for many of years
The children play on what used to be
A bloody battlefrild where durring the
Hot summers and cold nights you can still hear the screams of
Terror from the still warm bodies of the dead
******

Its kinda weird but i like it so
= P

I am not sure i have anything else to talk about tonight ummm... i will talk to you all later have a good day. *hugs every one* *Kisses mel*

~Joshua~
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Thursday, March 24, 2005

   Kagome
Hello how is evey one today... Today i just wanted to make a confession I am in love with.... Kagome She is just the most wonderfull person I know... so sweet and caring.... she always makes my feel all warm and fuzzy... I am not sure what i would do with out her *Smilz*

Even when i am super upset just hearing her voice. makes it all beter again *sigh*

I am going to go for now i hope you all have a great day *hugs everyone* *kisses melissa*

~Joshua~
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

   seppuku *smilz*
Some times it seems like nothing is making any sence and not much is seen.

In times like these it seems tht all will do i a bottle of booze of a tanto. well maybe not a tanto but ya know oh well...

Today was not good got writen up at work for falling asleep... but it is my fault and i will accept the conquesces for my actions... Whatever they may be...

On a lil happier note i think i have finally goten all of my stuff in my new apt which is good... now for un packing Bleh...

but I am going to go not sure what else to write about and i kinda jus feel blah *hugs everyone* * kisses melissa*

~Joshua~
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

   sssshhhhhhh......... TWANG!!!!!
i think i shall reap vengence apon all those who hurt my friends... *evil Grin* MUAHAHAHAHAHA We shall rule this world... well maybe either that or distroy it.. Those of you who wish to join my legion speak now and become a child of the night... forever young living in darkness praying on those less powerfull than you... MUAHAHAHA

Hi how is every one tonight I am doing good runing on like 3 hours of sleep... but i guess its all good Smilz....

Ok i have a question for you a poll if you will. Are vampires sexi and if so to what degree. such as the act of someone biting you neck and you feeling the blood slowly being sucked out. a mojor turn on or eeew gross???

Some ppl that i have talked to are like its vile and gross others jus thinking about having the blood sucked out of them is like wow ya know. personally I find vampires really sexi. but i am sure most of you knew that already... *hides* no i feel all blah aaaaaaahhhhhh

I am so bored i finished all of my work within an hour of being here... now i have nothing to do but sit here and type maybe i will work on my story thus far it is comming along ok

if you were told that you had a week to live what would be the first and last things you would want to do. Me i would want to hold mel atleast one time.. and would prolly be the first and last thing i did...

What is it that makes ppl do what thay do? Are we already dead just wathcing a dream of what our life was unable to change what is to come... Are we just an ant farm for beings greater and more powerfull than us. what makes us who we are? why is it that all that is not seen will never be? In order to truly be free you must not just sit back and watch life pass you bye. You must grab a hold of it and make something for your self.

The only person who can make you truly happy is your self... In order to be happy around or even with someone you must be able to find inner peace. granted it may take a life time to truly be free form all but the journey is where you will truly find your slef and where you belong in this world. there is one quote in which i think describs this well "The world is unforseen in the eyes of those who cannot see their own suffering"

i am sorry for being a lil philosophical tonight i was just in a weird mood.. I hope you all have a great day *hugs everyone* *kisses mel*

~Joshua~
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Sunday, March 20, 2005

   ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz..... I am awake
Crapfuck lol that is a funny word ummm... well sorta I hate moving with a passion but i have my own place now so i guess its all good.

No more roommates no anoying cats pissing all over everything YAY... I am not very hyper tonight with moving and all i am just drained and will prolly be for a day or two.

I finally got the pictures from my last party on the 12 if you wanna see here is the url i am too lazy to make it a hyper link so = P Smilz

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/the_only_circus_boy/album?.dir=/6f1d&.src=ph

That should work for you all.. If you want to see them that is. I think i shall have anothere party when i get all settled in to my new place then my apt will be clean woowoo... any way i have a lil bit of work to do before i am off so you all have a great day.. *hugs* *kisses melissa* love you hun

~Joshua~
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Thursday, March 17, 2005

   I'm a lil teapot
I'm lil teapot short and stout here is my handle here is my other handle... Fuck I'm a sugar bowl...


How is every one tonight i am anoying my cube mate cuz i have energy drinks and I am bouncing off the walls right now... i cannot sit still this is bad i need more energy drinks but every where is closed why is everything closed... prolly cuz its 11 22pm I shall take revenge on something *grabs the katana* oh no its happening again i dont think i can hold it back any more... *his eyes start to glow Blood Red* * hair starts to turn back*

He is comming out i cannot hold him back... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA shall rule the world *looks around* who will join me *grabs melissa* I think you want to *rubs his lips over your neck* your heart is telling me yes so i shall make you one of me *lightly grazes your neck with my teeth* *evil grin* how are you feeling hun Before she could anwser * Sinks his teeth into the warm flesh of her neck* as the blood slowly rolls down her neck i lick it up slowly... now you must drink from me * takes nail and makes a tiny cut near the rist* Here hun...

*sings* Your a god and i am not... ummm hello every one hey look a mime... sssshhhhhh I am listening for the twang ... What twang? *pulls out a frying pan hits the mime* TWANNNNGGGG hehehehe Oh i think i broke him lets go... * walks away slowly* every one dance *jumps up on the table* *dances* BAM OUCH I ment to do that yep yep... (damn my bum herts now)


lalalalalalalalalalalalal like my song is it not perdy wwooooooohooooooo I am bored can you tell and i have weird things stuck in my head like lil bunny fufu he hops through the forest and get boped in the head hehehe...

My friends are growing yay i have friends i feel so special... tehe ummm... that was him *points over there* * hides you shall never find me* Muahahahaha *jumps out* BOOOOOO!!!!!!! did i scare you? huh huh did i did i

ok i already seem crazy i shall go before you all think i am even more crazy I hope you all have a great night... and an even better day.. I shall prolly be back on saturday but will try to get to every ones site today and whall i am at home cuz today is my friday so i will talk to you all later *hugs everyone* *kisses melissa* love you hun

~Joshua~
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005

   We are off to see the wizard.
Good Morning Everyone how are you today. *jumps up and down* Ok i am all rested and now i am super hyper *running round the cube* I feel so traped here. Oh well i will be free in about 3 and a half hours...

I did a few new quiz's today y'all can look if you want some are kinda funny. Others are intresting. and on one of them i did twice once with mine and mels's sn then our names the result was intresting (atleast i thought so)

I went and stoped by just about everyones page today. you know what I found out when i did that... I am older then i think eveyone of the people on my friends thingie i feel old *Grabs for a cane* granted i am not that much older then everyone but *cries* *flops on the floor* oh well...

Ok i am bored sitting here doing nothing because i got all my work done within an hour of being here which is good but really sux because once that is done i just sit here and do nothing. It is really hard to find some one to entertain you becuase not many ppl are up at this hour. usually ppl start getting up on the east coast at about 4 my time (7 east coast time) Smilz its all good I can jus spin in my chair * spin spin spin spin spin spin* *stands up* BAM *falls to the ground* Ouch my ass ok maybe that was not a good idea every thing was all blurry...

alright i must be getting back to making it look like i am working every one have a great day *hugs every one* Kisses melissa on the forhead* love you hun *sinks teeth into her neck* *evil grin* muahahahaha ok bye

~Joshua~
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