Tuesday, March 15, 2005

   Fish Taco with special sauce
Good Morning how are you all today? I am still at work Blah. ya know that is the one thing that is weird about grave yard. I will come to work on lets say monday and i get off work on tuesday. but meh oh well. there are up sides to working it as well... Like on my sunday i can do whatever I want because i dont have to be at work untill 10pm the next night so I can stay out all night partying...

The only really bad thing about working this shift. Is that there is only so much you can look up on the internet before it gets boring... mostly because just about anything intresting has been surf blocked. oh well that is life.

at least i am only here for another hour and 45 min. which is good tonight went by kinda fast. which means that the rest of the week will go by fast as well.

Ok i am going to go because i am so tired my mind is fried i am not sure what to say any more. I hope you all have a great day. *hugs everyone*

~Joshua~
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Monday, March 14, 2005

   Damn 13 hour days
I am so glad that this is the last day that i will have to work for 13 hours. it really sucks why well maybe that are just long and boring cuz i am only 3 hours into the shift and i have already finished all my work. *bangs heard on the desk* ok i am done complaning. i am off to find food i shall return and write more...


tehe *hugs everyone*

~Joshua~
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   Wrath of a 1000 year old vampire.
wow when weeks can go from ok to why fucking me it really sux.

OK it was great talking with melissa again. but only for one day. Cuz her internet and phone were moved because she is moving
=*( *Cries* That sucked but I can live...

I made plans to watch movies with a friend but nope. I got ditched (granted the person was sick which is ok but still sad) meh its all good shit happens but it seems like it all just went doen hill from there...

Saturday I had a party with some friends. My roommates had a big problem with that. This morning i get told that I have a week to get out of the APT. So now i have to look for a new place to live. I am sure i will find somewhere to live jus not sure where now and i have a week to find it.

Oh well that is life. Becides all the utilities are in my name. So if i leave off goes the power and cable muahahahaha. (Do you think i am evil.) damn bastards i shall rain vengence on thier heads.

Any way i hope every one has a great day talk to you soon.

~Joshua~
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Thursday, March 10, 2005

   I guess so...
Well i lost the bet today. I was on my way to work and just did not want to not talk to her nay longer. I did not care for this game any more being able to actually talk to her is much better. we only got to talk for about an hour and a half though. but much better than not talk ing to her.

So i guess i have to buy her a fancy dinner hmmm... but where anyone have an idea where i should take her. That is nice and where you would have to wear a colar and tie type thing... i am sure it will cost me an arm and a leg but oh well it will be worth it any way.

So melissa wanted me to wake her up this morning. but it seems that some one has knocked the phone off the hook because its busy and they have call waiting. so i am not sure what i can do to wake her up... its not like i can go knock on her door (i wish).

not much to say today oh i may have a party this saturday. a big un unless it gets crashed. any way i hope you all have great days. Love you much melissa *kisses her forhead* *hugs everyone else*

~Joshau~
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Wednesday, March 9, 2005

   Hmmm...
Wow day two it was really hard today not to pick up my phone and call her today. But i shall win the bet Muahahaha..

Question is it possiable to love some one too much? I dont think i t is. some ppl devote there entire lives to one another. In most ways that is not so bad. I mean to know you having the feeling that you actually belong some where. It has to be one of the best feelings in the world.

But feeling alone has to be the worst. At some point in time it does not matter how many ppl we have around we still feel so alone. Like there is noting left in this world. As if it is all spinning in a never ending ring of pain and violence. Well I guess that is not far from the truth. We all spin out of control. Looking around for some thing feel again weather it is pain or what not.

Oh well some days can get like that but its all good. I guess i just needed to vent I am sorry.

I am Fucking pissed Snowboard.com Has now been blocked Gaaarrrrrr.. i guess i will live. talk to you all later.

~Joshua~
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Tuesday, March 8, 2005

   Werk SUX
I am so tired... I did not get to sleep untill after 10am and had to be back at work at 5pm and i have to be here unitll 6 30am damn 13 hour shifts.

I am very glad i only have to do this one other time. its not bad atleast i get over time for it. I am not sure i will be able to win the bet cuz its only been like 3 hours and i already miss her.

I want nothing more then to have her fall asleep in my arms. to be able to look into her eyes and truly let her know i feel. To be able to see the look in her eyes when i say "I Love you"

Feel her hands inside mine as we walk through the park watching the stars. Our hearts intertwined in one another. connected now and forever no matter how far she is I alwasy feel her in my heart. I can sence her soul even over 2000 miles away. Its kinda hard to explain it. it is almost as if i can hear her feel her thoughts.

i prolly sound kinda crazy but i think i fell really far with her. Maybe even the farthest i have ever fallen before. I dont think i have ever felt this connect with someone. Just her sn on my phone makes my day better. Hearing her voice when i wake up makes it to where no matter what goes wrong its all ok.

I feel so lucky to have met her. I have only know her for about a year in a half and never really met her. I can see my self being happy with her.

I know my words cannot bring justice to how i feel. I can only express a small part of how i feel for her. I think only one thing would truly say it all *gets down on one knee* Melissa... You droped your pen.

I am sorry if that was mean I love you any way hun. Stop biting your lip.

I am going to go now *hugs Every one* *kisses melissa on the forhead* I love you.

You all have a great day.

~Joshua~
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Monday, March 7, 2005

   *Evil Grin*
Good morning y'all how are you today? I dont know how i am going to get though this week. Melissa and i have a bet going which i dont think she will be able to finish but whatever.

The bet is from tonight midnight my time untill tuesday we cannot talk no messageing or posting on one anothers MyO after midnight tonight. If she wins I have to take her to a fancy restraunt when she comes to visit. If I wil she stays for another week. If we both win I am not sure i think both happen

I am not sure i will be able to do it cuz i think i will go nutz after like prolly 2 days. She is like one of the only ppl i talk to on an every day basis. I just care for her so much. I think they will have to commit me after this cuz i will prolly be talking to walls.

any way i am going to go i will prolly post later today have a good night Y'all.

~Joshua~
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Sunday, March 6, 2005

   Phones
Phones are to play with... or to talk to my kagome and make her Smile. and much more... that came out wrong oh well.

Some say i am evil i am not sure why... Maybe its because i like to torture them with my words. maybe i will put some writing on here some time. but i am not sure that i would be able to cuz some of it is not decent for young children. all though its not like its something that they will not see or read some time in there life any way. I am not sure i dont want to be kicked off of MyO that would suck. becuse i love to ppl here thay are really nice. *hugs everyone*

"drinks all around" I am thinking about haveing another party soon maybe this friday not sure. I think that would be at the some time as my friends so i am not sure if i will do it this weekend or or not. It would be fun any way. I will have to find out what day hers is.

*dances around the cube* how the hell we end up like this why wernt we able to see the signs we missed. Sad song but i like it. I need to but some music back up on myO but i am not sure what song to put up. maybe y'all can give me some idea. here are some choices I can put up Dir en Gray wicked kool band, Deadsy another really good band, or Maybe Mindless Self indulgence.

What would you like to hear? Yay pearl Jam is on now. another good band. (winamp) wow i need some sleep i think i may just crash when i get home BANG *head falls on desk* Shit that hurt lol.

On a kinda sad note my applcation for the new APT's was declined *cries* it sux. There is always other ones. I think i would need a new roomie though. any way i am going to get going before i write a book on here. I will talk to y'all l8er *hugs everyone* *kisses Melissa on the forehead* love you hun

~Joshua~
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Thursday, March 3, 2005

   WOOHOO
Ok i was asked in the pics form my party which am i. I am the one with braided hair and to piercings in my bottom lip.

any way I have so good news I went to go talk to the new APT's today. and tomorrow i may be getting a new place. If every thing goes right. *crosses fingers* but i should have the apt by March 10th which does mean that i will prolly only be on here at work.

OK i got to get to work now sorry for the short post. hope you all have a great day. and if you get a chance you should check out the pic's they are kinda funny

~Joshua~
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Tuesday, March 1, 2005

   Vacation is over
Ok my vacation is over now which is kinda sad but oh well. Had a prity good vacation spent most of my time in the city which was fun. Then for prity much a last chance at fun on friday had a prity big party. I would have to say one of the biggest i have ever hosted. cost me a bit but was so worth it. I have pictures form it if any of you want to see go here.
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/the_only_circus_boy/album?.dir=8493&.src=ph&store=&prodid=&.done=http%3a//pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/the_only_circus_boy/my_photos

We were all prity trashed it was great. Think we will have to have a party really soon. maybe when i have my new apt because i think i am moving really soon. Not to far though just the apts next to the ones i am living at now. which might suck cuz i am going to be living alone but oh well it will be good for me.

Any way i am going to go before i talk to much y'all have a good day.

~Joshua~
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