Tuesday, February 8, 2005

   Hmmm...
I lye awake
cyring in my sleep
wondering what to take
to rid me of this anoying tweet


Crying I see a shattered voice
Screaming out for sanity
now we make a choice
to die alone or join a family


Why does it have to be this way
I see that you are deeply sad
why dont you come out and play
or does that make you a bit more mad


For the world belongs to you and me
will you hold on to this moment and try to be free
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   Death To All
GGGGRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

You know what I am sick of ppl I think i shall i dunno wow i wanna jus hide in a hole far far away. it usually goes with out saying that is you tell someone to F*$# off that they leave you alone cuz you do not want anything to do with them...

Well some ppl jus dont get it.. i think i am getting super sick of my f*&^ing ex... GGGGGRRRRR.....

Ok i think i am done sorry...

Any way how are ya'll today I am super bored here at work... and melissa wont talk to me its sad she is on Snowboard but no anwser to the IM saddness... oh well maybe i can talk to her in the morning. That is if she wants to talk to me. But if not i guess i will not which would be sad...

Any way i am going to get balck to work *bleh* xP...

*Muah* I <3 U melissa later hun

(beings how i think you and the raven girl are the only ppl who read this)
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Monday, February 7, 2005

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   Long weekend
This has to be the longest weekend i have had in a while.... and i so jus wanna go back to bed tight now... but no i have to be at work.

Any way about my weekend sence i am not sure what else to talk about on here... OK it started on thursday at 9pm when i finally got off work for the secound time that day but what ever.

went home and wanted to go to bed from the super really long day... but no my roommates decided we are going to have a party... ( i mean i am all for party but long work day wanna sleep and ppl going to be over not the best.

any way so we get super drunk have a few ppl over to pass the time... ya know so i think we finally pass out at about 3am ( but how long would i sleep) Not long 0_0 my phone woke me up at like 8am Damn ppl

But taht is all good cuz it was my friend from out of town. (who i have not seen in about 2 1/2 years) So she calls me up and says I am in Portland and that i should go up there and see her.

So my roommates and i head up to portland to go meet her. we get there and she F@#$#*^ Has to leave see her for 5 min. well not wanting to wast a trip to portland we go get food... WOO Arby's they have good frys... ok back on topic...

She calls me back saying STAY in portland for another hour i am trying to stay longer here maybe hang out a lil more. I am like ok what ever so we walk around the mall. its about 11am now adn we are getting super tired. *Ring Ring* YAY she is calling back so we meet her at the Max station and then head back to our APT.

We chill there for about 30 40 min and her mum calls. ( I am like F*&^ I gotta go all the way back to portland and i jus got home) well turns out that hemum decided to stay in portland for another night. so she is partying at my house tonight so we hang out all day cathcing up talking about old times and what not. finally about 8pm we are like ok bored now... so we break out the booze and yet another fun night of drinking... we stay up quite a while and what not i think they passed out at about 12am I on the other hand could not sleep for some odd reason and was up untill 4 am... (not good we have to have her back at 10am)

So we wake up at about 9am which is not good it takes like an hour and a half to get her back. so we take her back to her mum so they can go off and do whatever... so i have to go back home only to leave right away ( forgot my phone felt very naked untill i had it again) anyway we had to leave to go to the back and make a money order for my rent... but shit the bank closes at 1am and its 3 now... Oh well life will go on. so we head back to the apt. and watch Blade3... well we have it i am not sure if it is even out on DVD yet. but we Downloaded it. yea yea bad juju oh well it was a really good movie... ok its about 4 now *before the movie* and my GF calls me she says "we need to talk" i am like shit what did i do now. she thinks it would be better if we were just friends i am like ok maybe that would be best. (she is kinda nutz) *Smilz*

So after the movie i get a call from a friend saying that "we have the stuff ready" *damn out and about again all i wanna do is go to sleep* so off to lake oswego about 6miles away... luckly we got a ride and did not have to ride the bus. so we get there get our stuff and hang out for a lil...

then the person who gave us a ride is like wanna party tonight. * I am like hell ya* (shit another sleepless night* oh well...

so we get to this party and get a lil messed up there. but the party is kinda lame so we get out of there about 12am or so i am not to sure about the time really i was a lil gone.

So we are chillin at her house she is in the hot tub being all weird (lil drunk) I decided not to get into the tub cuz i really did not want to do anything with her... ok we head back inside ant start watching tv but i am like super tired and a lil drunk... maybe a lil more than a lil... hehehe so we head to bed and what not... we are laying there and for some odd reason make out a lil before passing out... about 2 or 3 hours later my phone starts going off again...

its natilee My most recent EX... well being super tired and still inebriated... Accendently sent her to voice mail oh well... asleep again i wake up about 11 am still feeling all bleh like i have not slept in like 4 days. Well we get up and head out.

I wanted to go see my lil brother so we head over to my mums house he is asleep in the living room...*SSShhhhhh* * Jumps on him* " Wake Up Punk Ass" Hehehe i am such a nice brother. so after sitting there for a while talking with him we decide to go to applebees.. Really good food... now its about 12 30-1pm adn she wants to go to this mall that is way off in another city about 30 min away so i am like ok but i need to be home by like 4pm cuz i have to be at work at 10pm so i need some sleep before work...

well we head to the mall and walk around there for a while then leave its about 3pm... I like ok jus need to get home cuz now i am super tired and jus wanna sleep... well we were in the wron lane and could not find how to get back on the highway so we head out another direction where we know that will get us back to the highway...

30min later(GGGGGRRRRRRR) ok so i get home its about 4:15pm ok this is all good i can still get some sleep...

Well sorta because i forgot my phone at home on saturday i was not able to call melissa =( so i called her and talked to her for about an hour and 45 min then off to sleep i go... set my alarm for 8 30 expecting not to have any problems (WRONG) My alarm wakes me up i look at the phone and turn the alamr off then pass back out.

waking up at 9:30pm 10 min after the bus goes by my street *damnit* i have to be at work at 10pm and the next one does not come untill 10:23 man my supervisor is going to have a fit well i get a ride from a friend but still dont get here till about 10 30 but oh well what are they going to do fire me... (We are all being laid off in about a month so Blah)

any way that is my weekend fun stuff *wishing Melissa could have been there*

so would have made out with her instead

*shit did i say that out loud* well i still have to decide what to get her for v-day beings how she is my valentine and all... *Big Smilz* I think i do know what i am getting her i am jus not going to say.

I am going to get back to work ya'll have a good day hugs and kisses melissa

~Joshua~
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