Friday, May 21, 2004

   ..I sit here...

... at my grandmother's house again. I've had an amazingly rough day at school, and I can't beleive school gets out next Thrusday. 0.o About the "rough" part-- since this is described as "an online daily diary" by Adam, I beleive I will take this time to rat out, whine, and complain. ^^ If you don't like the idea, skip ahead to the paragraph after the next. ^^

*ahem* As I have complained about before, my algebra grade is at its all-time low right now. I was releived when we came to a new chapter, as it was extremely easy, I understood material, and I did well on assignments. As the chapter drew to a close, I prepared myself for the chapter test by studying and practicing the different problem styles, solutions, et cetera. Yesterday was the test, and I ~bombed~ it. A 69 out of 100!!! T.T I couldn't beleive it. I understood the chapter, did my best on everything, and studied for several hours every night before the test, and I ~STILL~ manage to fuck it up. 0.0 My self-esteem dropped sooooo much after that, I feel like shooting myself. And speaking of suicide, I was slitting my wrist two days ago because I suddenly got really suicidal. (read Cai's side of it at her blog) In any case, that suicide urge passed rather quickly (it took two days), and I suddenly find myself in another. 0.o I swear the last time I was this unstable was the beginning of February... for reasons I'd rather not release to the general public. In any case, that's my ranting streak... or the beginning, anyway... mwahahaha... The only other thing I have to whine about is more generic-- the school district suddenly decided that it'd be a great idea to make all algebra students in the district take a specific final. I looked at my review sheet and thought to myself, "what the hell IS this shit?" (pardon meh French today- I'm in a bad mood. I'll clean it up later). I haven't used half the crap they put on that test since last year! I can see myself failing this year's Algebra... Or not... I'll at least end with a "C"... college can't be THAT important, right? I'll join Sara flipping hamburgers at McDondald's and live with my mom. ^^

Onto happier stuff: I'm currently at my grandmother's house with my little brother. She, grandpa, my uncle, and Mark are watching "Lassie" on television. I decided I'm above '80s movies and am writing this. ^^ Unfortuately, her ISP's worse than mine, so hers is really slow. T.T I swear, when I get my computer back, I'm SOOOOO going to be visiting everyone's blogs! Dude, it's a pain in the butt that it takes so long for this site to load. In fact, I'm going to back up this post on a file before submitting it so I don't lose it. o.o I've only been typing for... *checks watch* ... twenty minutes. ^^

I'd love to see how everyone is, but as I've whined about before, this computer can't handle the loading times. -.- I'll see how you are later! Maybe I'll walk to the library...? Anywho, this is a shoutout and thanks to everyone reading this for wasting their time to read about my personal life that really isn't any of their business. ^^ Love you all! *huggles*

This is... CLAIR, the IMMORTAL, signing off *still hugging*
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