Thursday, February 17, 2005

   One week...

Yeah, I'm sorry, It's been so long since I had myo in my routine, i keep falling asleep and forgetting to post here. Besides, it's been a pretty busy week (again). What with the Junior-Senior Prom coming next week, and me being asked to sing the doxology + too many surprises all in one week, you simply can't expect me to be here everyday. I never knew I'd experience being bombarded with too many surprises and having trouble taking them all in. I feel as if I'm going to burst. yikes. Anyway, I hope you guys like the previous song I put here. It's from Phantom of the Opera. THe new song which is Phantom of the Opera again, as sung by Sarah Brightman and... um, the Phantom, is one of the most memorable songs for me. Would you believe I was able to sing this song? What with the lowest note + the highest note it's really a big achievement for me. Of course my version sounds different from this one. :D hahha! I just wish I could somehow let y'all watch it. I rather think I sung it well, even if I do say so myself. :D:D:D anyway, *phew* this has been one heck of a week. I really missed you all...doing this feels good. I wish I could keep doing this everyday.sadly, I'm not sure I can... *sigh* Anyway, I don't want to bore you all with my stupid stories so I guess I'll see if I can do my rounds. ^___^ *huggles* love you!

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Friday, February 11, 2005

   and she's back.

*dodges rotten tomatoes and cabbages* ok, I know, I know. It's been a LOOOOOOOONG while since I'vebeen here. But ask some people (#5 for example), I've been really really busy. Lots of things happened. Right now I'm getting ready to go and buy my shoes for the upcoming promenade which is on Feb. 25. I've got loads to tell you really, but I doubt if y'all want to sit there and read a very long post about everything that's happened. ^_^' I did miss you all terribly. ahehe, I hope you still remember me... *looks around* I feel like a total stranger once again, barging in on your homes. Now I think instead of boring y'all with my stories I'd rather go around and see what y'all have been up to. =D *huggles everyone* I've really missed y'all!!

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Friday, January 7, 2005

...

I know I always say I'd try to make up to you guys. I'm sorry. I know I haven't been here for a while again. My week had been going just fine but something happened earlier today and, well... it's kind of making me sad. I don't really want to talk about it. I guess it's because the more I talk about it, the more I feel sad. I've been really close to tears a few times after it happened but I can't let myself cry. I'm sorry, this might be confusing you. I just... I don't know, I guess I want to have someone to talk to, but there's no one here to talk to. I tried calling my friend but it turns out she's not there. Now's not a really good time to call anyway, it's 10:00 p.m. I really can't talk to anyone else since not too many people really know about my situation or at least how I'm feeling. This is only the second time that this - whatever this is - happened to me. I don't really understand why. I'm sorry. I'm just not myself today. **I wore a broken smile for the remaining of the day. I'm tired of doing it. must I really wear a mask everytime something like this happens? All I want is to be free, be who I am and not hide these tears away from everybody, even myself.**

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Wednesday, December 29, 2004

   a rant + pictures + Disney on ice = one sleep me.

Hey guys! ^_^ Yeah, the computer's still being a pain so I'm not able to go online much. I just snuck into my dad's room to try and post this up. He's outside with several of his 'friends' doing who-knows-what. tsk, I swear if he brings those people here ONE MORE TIME without giving us as much as a heads up, I'm going to go out there and throw a fit at them. rawr. *fumes* It's that I'm suddenly an introvert or an anti-social human-being or something, but really. Dad's always out with those 'friends'. Rarely coming home early. Then when he does get here at home early, he would always arrive with several of those people. What's so bad about it? Well I'll tell you what. How about walking around wearing only your PJ's and not even having your hair combed and then being seen by them, mostly GUYS?? >_< I SWEAR!!! I've been embarassed being seen many times in only my pajamas and once even being in my bathrobe because I had NO IDEA they were there!! grrrr... *deep breath* *sigh* There. Glad I took that out. Really, dad and his uh... 'friends' are getting on my nerves. I'll try to lighten things up by posting this picture of me and my best friend. Via and me after going to a concert at Celebrity Sports Club Plaza. =) We were picture-happy. :D (I hate my teeth. they're horrible. >_< gah...) And then this one's me and my lil' cousin (the one I once told you about. :D) I just arrived home after one very *stressing* day at school. So I really look like I need cleaning up. >_< T_T cute isn't she? my cousin I mean. :D and some shoes. the black ones are mine. XD ^^o We took this on the way to the concert. :) and look at Mr. Teddy Bear!! ^^o picture taken sometime between early November and Mid-november. :D Yep, that's how early we decorate our house for Christmas. :D Mr. Teddy Bear with SnowBall. ^^o (one of my dogs. :D) and these are pictures of our house during xmas! ^_^ We haven't finished putting the Xmas lights yet when I took these pictures. so it's not much. you could see the stool Manong used to put some on. and part of our car. haha! XD from outside our gate (yeah, we Filipinos are really cautious.) you could see the paint on the gate chipped. We just had it repainted and now it looks freshly painted again. :D hmm.. what's that big plant blocking the view? you could see my grandfather's jeep there, and part of one of our cars. XD another look at the roof. you could see my brother's basketball ring, and a bit of the umbrella. a blurred picture of what we call a Parol. :) You could see a lot of different kinds of parols here when it's nearing Christmas. :) We've had this parol for about 5 years already. :) I rather like it. It has this kind of... native filipino culture style in it. :D (in case you're wondering, it's because there are lots of modern-looking parols out there. I rather prefer the old styles. :D) and lastly, it's the christmas tree look Manong designed. :) woah, that's a lotta pictures there... Sorry if it took you guys quite a while to finish downloading this page. ^_^' eheh.. uh-oh. I could hear dad coming. I better hurry up and wrap this up. tomorrow or rather, later (it's 2:30 a.m. already.) Aunt and I are going to take my lil' cousin (yeah the one above) to see Disney on Ice. :) I hope it's fun. I haven't gone to one in more than 10 years already. I miss it. :( *hugs everyone* sorry I couldn't visit again. Blame it on the computer. >_< I love you guys! ^^o mmmmmmwah! ^.^

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Monday, December 27, 2004

   and then she comes back.

Oh man... It's been over a week since I updated! >_< I'm sooo sorry everyone... I've been through a hectic time, but you know what? It was all worth it. Remember the Grandfinals Carol fest thing I was talking about? (read previous post) Well you see.... WE WON!!!!!! *jumps around* whee! ^.^ yes!! WE won!! ^______^ *BIG GRIN* 30,000 bucks!!!! can you believe that?? woohoo!! *starts dancing* =D That's mainly the reason why I wasn't here for the entire week... and then the week after that was Christmas already, and with all the preparations I had to do, I didn't have time to go here, AT ALL. Again, I'm so sorry for not coming here... but can you forgive me for still being happy? I mean, we won the grandfinals! How can one NOT be happy about that.. right? *gives everyone a hug and a smoochie* Though it does make me sad knowing I completely missed Christmas with you guys and not being able to do something for y'all. and it's my FIRST CHRISTMAS with you guys too! >_< *sigh* oh well, we can't have everything. ... But being here doesn't mean I can be here everyday though... I know I said I'd be doing my making up during the holidays, but I'm sorry. My computer's not working really well plus my aunt's got something planned. >_< PLease don't be mad, ok? You all still know that I love you, don't you?

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Friday, December 10, 2004

   Hectic Week ahead

aw man! I don't know how we'll go through next week. *Monday - rehearsals for Carol Fest on Tues(Dec 14.) [Inter-zone competition] + Rehearsals for SiS GrandFinals on Thurs(Dec. !6). [interschool competition] *Tues - Carol Fest Eliminations + rehearsal for SiS GrandFinals. *Wed - Rehearsal with some artists for the production number on SiS - song: Kumukutikutitap + (if not eliminated) Rehearsal for GrandFinals of Carol fest on Dec. 16/17. *Thurs - SiS Grandfinals Competition - taping at GMA (call time at 8:00 am taping starts at 10:00 a.m.) + (maybe) Carol FEst grandfinals. (3:00 - 5:00 p.m. at school) + Mass Celebration for teachers day (we're in charge.) *Fri - (if the grandfinals is not on thurs) Carol Fest Grandfinals + (if teacher's day was moved) Teacher's Day celebration. wahhh. All of us Himig Members are really pressured because most of the classes we're in to are counting on us for the Carol Fest. But the SiS grandfinals is messing everything up. I'm starting to wish we hadn't entered it at all. Maybe we should've gone for the recording contract instead of the SiS contest. *sigh* And my classmates think I must be taking pride knowing they call me 'Extra-curricular Girl' because of all the activities I suddenly find myself drowning in. HAH.If they only knew how I feel right now. What with the reportcard giving on our Christmas party, I'm sure to have a sulky Christmas this year. *sigh* What a blue, blue christmas. :( P.S. I'm sorry for not coming again. *sigh* I don't know why but I've been feeling strange all week. kinda tired and... sad, I guess. I'll try to make it up to you guys over the holiday break ok? I hope no one's mad.

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Sunday, December 5, 2004

   Torn

Yesterday (saturday) I experienced being torn between two of my friends. It's not a very pretty feeling and even until now, I feel really bad when recalling what happened. *sigh* But before I go on with the story let me first give you guys a background on the people involved. =================== Marlo - a senior who's a very good friend of mine. During rehearsals and activities, we usually have lunch together. Kwami - a senior who's a very good friend of mine too. Abi - another senior who's a good friend of mine. marielle (?) - a senior who's a friend of ate Abi. james - a freshman in college who's a part of himig xientia too, like us. **Again, before going on, you need to know that Kuya Marlo and Ate kwami are... let's just say "not in very good terms" with each other. Something happened way back (about july or august). ***for all you non-filipinos out there (just in case), 'ate' means big sister. while 'kuya' means big brother. I use it as a form of respect because they're older than me. =) =================== After rehearsing our song for the grandfinals this coming Dec. 8, they finally called for a 30-minute lunch break. As usual, Kuya Marlo and I decided to eat at McDonald's, the nearest place to eat (not counting the school cafeteria of course). Ate Abi then asked me where I was going to eat, I told her both Kuya Marlo and I opted for McDonald's. She asked if she and her friend Ate Marielle(? I'm not sure of her name. ^_^') can come eat with us. We said sure, why not. So it was set. We were already walking down the street with Ate Abi and her friend ahead of us when Ate Kwami suddenly appeared (yes, APPEARED. heh, I didn't know where she came from. she was just suddenly there. weird.) beside me. She told me, "Sabayan mo ko maglakad." (Walk with me.) I hesitated at first. Then she grabbed and pulled my arm, forcing me to walk with her. That left Kuya Marlo behind us, walking alone. And it left ME feeling er... squished between the two of them. I was afraid either of them might feel I'm taking sides. So what I did was casually try to slow my pace down so I won't be walking with Ate Kwami, but be fast enough not to be walking with Kuya Marlo. So I stayed between them. It kind of worked until we got to McDonald's. We went in. Ate Abi and her friend already found a table for the four of us. I was about to go over at the table when suddenly Ate kwami asked me where we were going to eat. By the 'we' she meant the two of us. I was about to answer "here" when she said "Ayoko kumain dito. punta tayo sa iba." (I don't want to eat here, let's go somewhere else.) I was actually surprised. I mean... Was she really doing it on purpose? She KNEW Kuya Marlo and I were supposed to eat here. At first I didn't know how to answer her, then I said "ehh... nagpromise na ko sa kanila na dito kame ehh..." (ehh... I already promised them that we'll eat here...) Ate kwami glanced at Ate Abi and Ate Marielle, obviously pretending she didn't see Kuya Marlo. Then she said, "hayaan mo sila magdate." (Let them date.) I bit my lip. If I go with Ate kwami, I was afraid Kuya Marlo might feel as if I'm taking Ate kwami's side, y'know, and be mad at me. And I already promised him we'll eat together. wahh. Before I could say anything though, Ate kwami grabbed my arm and pulled me toward the door. I tried to resist but to no avail. I looked back to where Kuya Marlo was seated - alone. I saw him glaring at me and looking hurt at the same time. wahhhh. Ate Kwami then let go of my arm and started to push me from behind. (heh, we were having quite a struggle). I tried to look back again at Kuya Marlo but found he was surrounded by Kuya James and some other people I didn't know. I sighed and finally gave up resisting and decided to let Ate Kwami push me through the doors. We ate at the Food Court (yes the mall is just beside my school.). I felt really really really bad about what happened. I can't help but wish they'd already get along. ~_~ *sigh* and so we went back to school, turns out they were already practicing. The whole time I couldn't bear to look at Kuya Marlo. I was afraid he might just give me his *hurtful glares* again. So I waited until rehearsals was over. Finally, they dismissed us after saying some last minute announcements for this weeks activities. I took a deep breath, getting myself ready for whatever might come. I turned around and was surprised to find him giving me this look. I can't quite understand what he was trying to look like... heh. I slowly approached him and gave him what I hoped looked to him like an I'm-sorry-are-you-mad-at-me look. heh, and yes, it turns out he wasn't mad at me, he was mad at Ate Kwami. Even though I was relieved to learn he wasn't mad at me, it still didn't feel good knowing they're STILL and much more mad at each other. Yes. I feel torn and squished between the two of them. wahhh. It doesn't feel good being stuck in between two of your friends. I mean, I don't want to take sides, all I want is for them to finally forget whatever happened and get along well. T_T *sigh* again, I'm sorry for not being able to go here for quite some time. wahh. now my tutor's here and I've got to run. I'll visit when I can ok? I hope you all had a better week than I did. *huggles* missin y'all sooo much.

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Wednesday, December 1, 2004

Just a quick post

urgh. Thanks to everyone who keeps visiting. I know, I know. I don't deserve your visits. wahh! Blame it on the telephone company who cut our phone line for half a day because of who-knows-why! And the school work er, projects and all. hmpf. *sigh* oh well, let's just smile on it, shall we? I hope y'all are having a much better week than I am. I'll tell you all about it when I can, awkie? *huggles* I miss you all! Please, please, please forgive me. T_T I love you!

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Sunday, November 28, 2004

   A good, yet not so good week.

I know, it's been almost a week since I went here. *sigh* If you knew how much I had to do you would be surprised I'm here right now. First off, we spent the week working on our Egyptian structures scale model. I spent two nights (wed, and thurs) over at my friend's house. Other than that project, I had to keep up with my FIlipino Project which was supposed to be due last last week but since one of my group members(there were three of us) was absent from school for a week, we weren't able to do it. I had no idea how I can contact her. >_< THEN, we were asked to do a rocket. a water powered rocket. Besides all these, Himig was asked to sing in the opening ceremony of our Science Fair. I had a bit of trouble with time and everything, but it all went ok. At least that's what I thought. *sigh* I'm trying my best to keep up with everything, but it seems, I can't. I really can't. It's all thanks to my Biology Teacher. I won't say what's the problem here. It's enough I have to worry about it here on my own. *sigh* I'm sorry I had to go back here and give you all a deppressing post. I'll try to come back later, hopefully with something good to tell in my mind. *hugs* Thanks for reading.

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Monday, November 22, 2004

   Gomen!

SOrry!! I only got to like... up to 'D' on the commenting. and that was like 2 hours ago. Something came up. ~_~ I'm sooo sorry! I can't stop and put in a long post now. I'm in kind of a hurry. I'm soo sorry! I even just noticed the PM I received! NO time to look at it though, whoever sent that to me I hope you don't mind waiting until tomorrow for me to open that! >_< I'm really really really really sorry! *gives everyone a hug and a chocolate bar* Forgive me? I wuv y'all! Toodles! ^^o

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