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myOtaku.com: Clair Chanteur


Monday, October 18, 2004

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So how's everyone liking the backgroung music? heh. I know it's a lullaby. But I like it. It makes me feel... all warm and relaxed... as if I don't have to care about any problems at all. though... at times it would make me think of my mom and how much I miss her. I wish she'd just go back here.

Soo, I'm giving my BIG thanks to our one and only, dear, dear Sahkiryce and to my friend, Christine. If not for both of them, I wouldn't have been able to get this on. ^_^

*big hugs*

so thank you to both of you! I owe you! ^^o

I would've made a special banner, but school work isn't allowing me the time. *glares at school work*

oh well.

Today has been normal. I was late yet again for flag ceremony.

The afternoon wasn't bad.

We had choir practice. You know what that means. ^_^

Practice ended earlier than usual, so I had to wait for my ride (which arrived later than usual). And guess what, they waited for me! and by 'they' I meant *him* and the other fourth/senior years. heh. aren't they nice? I felt rather guilty cuz it was getting dark. But they opted to go and stay with me so I won't be alone waiting for my ride at school.

So, the day has been pretty normal. I'm expecting tomorrow to be a bit different. I don't know why, but I just have this inkling. heh.

*shrug* weird.

_______________________________________________

I don't know what made me post whatever my post was yesterday.

I guess I was just feeling lonely and uncared for yesterday.

Thank you for all the comments.

I know I tend to make small things big deals...

And yes, I am quite a moody person too. It just so happens that everytime I post I'm feeling happy. ^_^

But I do try my best to always be happy.

Like Hannah (a friend of mine) said, she liked the aura she sees/feels around me. She said it's cheery, and happy, light-hearted and calming, with an elegance and sophistication of a person with grace. heh. I have no idea how I make her feel that way. I admit I'm what you can call somewhat of a "brand-concious" person. but *shrugs* I have no idea how I came to be 'elegant, classy and sophisticated". weird. O_O

Another friend of mine (christine) said, all she saw was I'm someone whom people can talk to. in short, Approachable.

*shrugs*

this is weird. oh well.

I'm feeling kinda down. No need to worry about me though. I'll get over this soon enough.


If you're allergic to mushiness and sappiness, scroll straight down to the comment box and skip reading this part. If you're not and you have enough time to waste on me, go and read.


What I'm feeling now is no where near love. It's just a 'fondness' of a person, isn't it?

I find myself wishing I should never have gone down those stairs leading to the covered court where they held the contest.

Cuz maybe if I didn't go down, I wouldn't have these feelings for him now.

I thought I cleared things up with myself that what I'm feeling for him is nothing more than a friendly feeling. That I just missed him so.

But nooooo. Here I am being all mushy and sappy, not being able to stop thinking about it.

It's a shame he's my friend and he has fallen for someone else who, according to him, doesn't feel the same way for him.

She's a childhood friend of his. They had been friends ever since 1st grade. and we have been friends since what? last year.

I asked him if he ever planned on telling her, he said no. I asked why. He just shook his head sadly.

tsk tsk. I told him he should tell her, cuz what if she feels the same way for him?

With a sad sigh, he told me how she kinda started to avoid him and all. She acted as if they weren't best friends before.

:(

But he would never know unless he tries... right?

What makes me sad is he tells me this. Mind you, I'm not the only one who knows this, but of course it makes me sad. Imigine how you'd feel. Though I am happy because at least I know he trusts me enough and at least that means I am a close friend, rather than just a friend.

How ironic. To be sad and happy at the same time.

People around me (namely my dad, aunt, grandma and all my other homies) don't know about it. They keep teasing me and stuff, saying he likes me.

I don't like hearing it because it just gives me hope. Hope for nothing. hah. I guess I should just be happy he's my friend and I at least get to spend time with him.

Yeah, I now understand how it feels to be "so near, yet so far". ^_^

...

It's weird, when I think about this, it makes me feel... heavy, and it's a bit hard to breathe. same as when I look at the time and know it's just several minutes before I see him again. I feel light and giddy, but heavy and sad at the same time.

How weird is that? O_O

bleh.

There has been too much mushiness and sappiness already it's all gooey yuck!

This has certainly been a result of me spending too much time online and listening to the love songs my dad downloaded. not to mention I've just been recently readign Romeo and Juliet. heh. O_O

So I guess this is enough for today. (not that I'm planning to do this again some other day, I'd rather not. It's making me feel down and deppressed)

Here ends the mushy part of my post. It has been mushier than usual so I guess you should be glad if you didn't read it. Sorry if it was such torture to those who bothered to read. Though I'm guessing no one will. ^_^

I still have to study for my Chemistry long test tomorrow!

I hope y'all have a nice day!

*hugs*
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