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Sunday, December 5, 2004

   Torn
Yesterday (saturday) I experienced being torn between two of my friends.

It's not a very pretty feeling and even until now, I feel really bad when recalling what happened.

*sigh*

But before I go on with the story let me first give you guys a background on the people involved.

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Marlo - a senior who's a very good friend of mine. During rehearsals and activities, we usually have lunch together.

Kwami - a senior who's a very good friend of mine too.

Abi - another senior who's a good friend of mine.

marielle (?) - a senior who's a friend of ate Abi.

james - a freshman in college who's a part of himig xientia too, like us.


**Again, before going on, you need to know that Kuya Marlo and Ate kwami are... let's just say "not in very good terms" with each other. Something happened way back (about july or august).

***for all you non-filipinos out there (just in case), 'ate' means big sister. while 'kuya' means big brother. I use it as a form of respect because they're older than me. =)
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After rehearsing our song for the grandfinals this coming Dec. 8, they finally called for a 30-minute lunch break.

As usual, Kuya Marlo and I decided to eat at McDonald's, the nearest place to eat (not counting the school cafeteria of course).

Ate Abi then asked me where I was going to eat, I told her both Kuya Marlo and I opted for McDonald's. She asked if she and her friend Ate Marielle(? I'm not sure of her name. ^_^') can come eat with us. We said sure, why not.

So it was set. We were already walking down the street with Ate Abi and her friend ahead of us when Ate Kwami suddenly appeared (yes, APPEARED. heh, I didn't know where she came from. she was just suddenly there. weird.) beside me.

She told me, "Sabayan mo ko maglakad." (Walk with me.)

I hesitated at first.

Then she grabbed and pulled my arm, forcing me to walk with her.

That left Kuya Marlo behind us, walking alone.

And it left ME feeling er... squished between the two of them.

I was afraid either of them might feel I'm taking sides. So what I did was casually try to slow my pace down so I won't be walking with Ate Kwami, but be fast enough not to be walking with Kuya Marlo. So I stayed between them.

It kind of worked until we got to McDonald's.

We went in.

Ate Abi and her friend already found a table for the four of us.

I was about to go over at the table when suddenly Ate kwami asked me where we were going to eat. By the 'we' she meant the two of us.

I was about to answer "here" when she said "Ayoko kumain dito. punta tayo sa iba." (I don't want to eat here, let's go somewhere else.)

I was actually surprised. I mean... Was she really doing it on purpose? She KNEW Kuya Marlo and I were supposed to eat here.

At first I didn't know how to answer her, then I said "ehh... nagpromise na ko sa kanila na dito kame ehh..." (ehh... I already promised them that we'll eat here...)

Ate kwami glanced at Ate Abi and Ate Marielle, obviously pretending she didn't see Kuya Marlo. Then she said, "hayaan mo sila magdate." (Let them date.)

I bit my lip. If I go with Ate kwami, I was afraid Kuya Marlo might feel as if I'm taking Ate kwami's side, y'know, and be mad at me. And I already promised him we'll eat together. wahh.

Before I could say anything though, Ate kwami grabbed my arm and pulled me toward the door. I tried to resist but to no avail. I looked back to where Kuya Marlo was seated - alone.

I saw him glaring at me and looking hurt at the same time.

wahhhh.

Ate Kwami then let go of my arm and started to push me from behind. (heh, we were having quite a struggle). I tried to look back again at Kuya Marlo but found he was surrounded by Kuya James and some other people I didn't know.

I sighed and finally gave up resisting and decided to let Ate Kwami push me through the doors.

We ate at the Food Court (yes the mall is just beside my school.).

I felt really really really bad about what happened.

I can't help but wish they'd already get along. ~_~

*sigh*

and so we went back to school, turns out they were already practicing.

The whole time I couldn't bear to look at Kuya Marlo. I was afraid he might just give me his *hurtful glares* again.

So I waited until rehearsals was over.

Finally, they dismissed us after saying some last minute announcements for this weeks activities.

I took a deep breath, getting myself ready for whatever might come.

I turned around and was surprised to find him giving me this look. I can't quite understand what he was trying to look like... heh.

I slowly approached him and gave him what I hoped looked to him like an I'm-sorry-are-you-mad-at-me look.

heh, and yes, it turns out he wasn't mad at me, he was mad at Ate Kwami. Even though I was relieved to learn he wasn't mad at me, it still didn't feel good knowing they're STILL and much more mad at each other.

Yes. I feel torn and squished between the two of them. wahhh.

It doesn't feel good being stuck in between two of your friends.

I mean, I don't want to take sides, all I want is for them to finally forget whatever happened and get along well.

T_T

*sigh*

again, I'm sorry for not being able to go here for quite some time.

wahh. now my tutor's here and I've got to run. I'll visit when I can ok?

I hope you all had a better week than I did. *huggles*

missin y'all sooo much.
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