Wednesday, March 8, 2006

Life Couldn't be Worse For Me Right Now
I'm really sorry, but this is going to be a really long post.

There is this kid named Martin at my school, and we used to be really great friends. However, ever since the beginning of this year, I have really not wanted to be his friend, and in hindsight, I realize it's my girlfriends fault that I stopped being friends with him back in September or October. Martin has been such a sarcastic asshole about the fact that me and my girlfriend Jatna have gotten together, and I just can't stang him anymore. Also, everytime I have gotten really pissed off at him, because he really disrepected me, or because he was being a real asshole or being really rude, I ended up apologizing to Martin.

Don't ask me how that works. I have no idea. I've thought about and I've thought about that, and the logical conclusion to that has escaped me. So, ever since he got back from the Mexico Trip (a school trip to Mexico), I've decided to cut off all ties to him (and for many OTHER reasons in addition to all the ones I've mentioned so far). He didn't know what was wrong, but he knew that I was basically mad at him, because I didn't even say "hi" to him and I don't even look at him.

So finally, Martin asked me yesterday why I was so mad at him. So, because I didn't want to have a long discussion about why I don't want to be his friend anymore, I kept my answer short and sweet: "I'm simply tired of waiting for you to grow up." For the most part, that's exactly why I don't want to be his friend. So, he got mad at me, and was really hurt and sarcastic, and called me really immature, as he was walking out the door, so I was just like "...Okay. I don't care."

So, this morning... What does he do? Even though he knows I'm right behind him, and we are both going to the same place, he delibrately tries to close the doors on me, so the first time he does it I call him an "asshole". I don't think he heard me, though, because he had his headphones on.

The second time, he did it, I lost my temper with him and shoved him from behind and said: "Don't you shut the doors on me you jackass!" So, he just chuckled kind of, went over to the door, and said, "You know, I think it's really dumb of you to think I was trying to steal your girlfriend", (because there was this whole drama where he was being a sarcastic asshole about us being together and so I thought he was jealous or something) and... okay.

So I can't remember the second thing he said. Then he slammed the door on me and stormed off. I started to run after him, but then remembered I had to pee like a racehorse. So I dashed off towards the bathroom. After I finished my business, I was going to go talk to my advisor about the whole incident, but then I saw my PRINCIPAL. So I opened the door for him and just talked to him about the whole thing.

I told him exactly what happened, word for word as far as I could remember, and told him the reason I was coming to him with this, is because (even though I'm doing it more for my benefit) I just don't want me or Martin or both of us to lose are temper and do something stupid and get one or both of us in trouble. Again, I'm really only bringing this issue to teachers because I myself don't want to get in trouble, but still. So HE talked to my advisor, and their both going to talk to both me and Martin about it.

In other news, my girlfriend chewed me out, because she was mad at two OTHER people. I'm kind of over it, but it's just like "Damn, I won't ask what's wrong from now on. Jesus." (I actually DID SAY that to her, TOO.)

Then, my result from 1500 dollars in testing to get accomadations for the SATs, resulted in nothing. All those reports from therapists and everything... and the college board still said "Your not getting accomadations."

Now, my girlfriend was being really rude to me, and then she got an atitude with me and told me to call her later. So, I just think to myself, "Just when I thought my day couldn't get any worse..." "What the hell did I do?!" "Is it something I did?" and "...whAT?" My good luck at the beginning of the school year seems to be coming to an end.