Monday, December 4, 2006

   tell me what u think
my good friend felicia ryder wrote these....she would like feedback and i am spreading the word....lets just call it my good deed of the day


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Biting my own lip raw I watch my youth die away

Admist the mess you see, there is shame and hate

Another hour was killed today.

Of your promise, I am grateful but what do you want with me?

I could never break my end know that, I myself will break first.

There's no holding this back any longer,

it's been growing inside, becoming stronger long enough

I won't die gasping for breath under your hand

i won't sacrifice my will as I'm being choked.

Hope may be suffocating, but my soul will live.

So will you watch my life fail or plan your escape?

Cracking the broken wall will go down,

Cold lies have been told,

Observe as I tear away unaffected in mind, body broken.

Rather than becoming another product of your life,

I see through you and I will struggle for anything for this is hell.

Rebels may live, and angels may cry,

Saints may sigh and gods may lie

But you haven't won the battle nor the war.
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ugh i dont know...<-she named it not me



i pour out my soul in torrents

words wasting slowly away

desire going for ambitions so high

how is it you fling them down

you claim to know me

but do u even know yourself?

i thought you were there for me

i thought you had my back

i never thought youd be the one to dig the knife in so deep

never thought youd make me bleed

though now its just a cut

it feels like so much more

ive never been left alone before

o why the glances of hatred it seems?

why the ignoring grimaces?

what didd i do to deserve

this vow of eternal silence?

all i wanted was for us to be happy

yet isnt it ironic?

the thing i wanted so badly

seems to be killing me now.

these tied ends unraveled now

when did the world begin to blur

we had alot in the palm of our hands

and now were left with memories

memories that hurt and sting

memories that dont seem to faze you

have you even begun to understand

that id still die for you?

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he knows who he is, he knows but it wont matter.


you say
you wont drag me on the ground
but before i even met you
i was the one crawling around
you wouldnt be wasting your time
id be the one with time thrown away.
stop running oh wont you stop running through
the empty minutes of my day
cuz then cant forget you, ive tried everyway
almost alike that is kinda ironic
two caught up in lies, shame, pretenses
two falling.

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there ya go comment and stuff please and thank you!
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Monday, November 13, 2006

   IT FEELS GOOD!
ZOOOOMG!!!!! I AM WEARING LIKE THE SINGLE MOST COMFORTABLE SWEATER EVER!!! =D
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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

   I hate it when my pants get wet
HAHA! it took me typing that out to see how wrong that sounded....well u know when it rains and u have really LOOOOONG pants on and they get under ur shoes and get wet and then when you take off ur shoes ur socks get wet n its just so uncomfortable???? no? yeah well maybe its just me but i hate it when my pants get wet....in more ways than one....hehe JUST KIDDING! well ne who HAPPY HALOWEEN!!!! im gonna get on a sugar high today!! whopee!!! well um i think thats all ive got to say...geez im boring.....later!
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Thursday, October 26, 2006

   more dane cook...im getting these from felicia but theyre funny as hell
I wanna be a fireman! I didn't really wanna be a fireman--I thought I did. I just wanted to spray sh*t with a hose. That's what I really wanted to do. I wanted to be a like sprayman, -no! I was f*ckin' good, I'm not laughing! I was really good with a hose. I could make it feel like it was raining-if you closed your eyes you'd think it was raining--THAT'S how good I was. You'd be like '"Oh my God, it is really raining, it's very cold rain.'... If I got to a house and it was fully on fire, f*ck that, I quit! I would just stand outside and watch it burn with everybody else and the woman next to me would be like 'PLEASE! MY SON! HE'S SCREAMING IN THERE!" and I'd be like 'Well he's probably on fire. That's what happens when you're on fire lady-- What are you doing out here. You f*ckin' think-for-yourselfer! why didn't you make a map for him or something!"


This would be the ultimate full circle slap in the face of the United States... What if this happens, because look we are the greatest country on Earth but we get a little cocky from time to time. If we don't like the way your country's doing its business, we'll kick the door in, "Hey, hey knock it off, you're bugging the world, cut it out. And if you don't listen to us we'll throw all kinds of weapons and crazy **** at cha', which we always apololigize about using twenty or thirty years later. Listen we're really sorry about that, we were a little drunk at the time and we got a little rambunchious, the bomb we didn't know it was going to do that, we thought it was a contained blast and we didn't know it would make everything blown to smitherines. And you were being kind of a bitch. Country! {snap} Country! {snap} you are being kind of a *****. Are we cool now and mind if we leave like three or four thousand troops and maybe some supplies here do ya, DO YA MIND. You wouldn't want us to get drunk again would ya! High five us, photo opt, FA-CHINK! [camera sound]. We get a little cocky....what if when the mothership comes over middle America and we are all sitting watching TV, all the news crews are just focusing on there watching, right, what if one of the hatches finally open, out of the UFOs come thousands of 100 foot Native American Indians. We're gonna be watching like '**** those are huge Indians, please tell me they aren't giant Indians, Goddamnit they're huge Indians, alright good game America, we had some fun huh.' Hi Giant Indians, we did some sh*t and ahhh..... Could you show us how to make giant corn?!


Did sharks like get together and go,Let's start attacking people. A guy in the news, again, the other day. A couple days ago, he got bit by a shark. The shark let him go. He was telling the story, they brought him back to the beach. Which is just where he wants to f-ing be, anywhere near the ocean again. And the news reporter was like, "What happened? Why did the shark attack you? Were you taunting it? Yeah, I go in the sea sometimes just to f*** around with the sharks. I have this thing called a Shark Rocket and I shoot it at them. And it really annoys them. And then I just wade there in the water and they come at me. But I'm really good at eluding them. I know this hip move, it's something porpoises do and I then I pretend that I have a bottleneck and I stab them in the gills. And it really is effective......
How did you get away? I just punched it and it let me go. Let's recap this. A f-ing shark come throught the water...right and this guy...Hey! The f-ing shark goes over to this guy...bites, this guy punches it in the face and a shark goes ALRIGHT! And tell me there's no time in your life when you swim faster than when a f-ing shark lets you go.

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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

   lol
"Fuck this game! Its four in the morning grandma! You WIN!! I'm sitting on Baltic with Crap! I'm paying luxury tax outta the ass!! And I hate it when you're the banker grandma, where'd all those pink fifties come from?! Get away from me grandpa, Nana, is a cheating whore!!"
-dane cook



haha i just thought it was funny

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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

   HIT AND RUN!!!!
hahaha i acidentally hit a car today....and i quickly looked around to see if ne one was there and drove off...hey my cars the only one that got damaged....nevertheless ::shrugs:: i feel bad now. oh well. susan asked me to update this thingy ummm well in a way i guess i did....not my fault my life is boring.
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Sunday, October 1, 2006

   The Internet Upsets Me
The internet/any form of talking to people upsets me.....seriously. I am allways busy so on Sunday nights (like tonight) i decide to just catch up on the past weeks events and its never good. too much drama for me to handle. blah. but anyway i bet you (whoever you might be) that tomorrow im gonna get my ass kicked and yelled at by my parents.....cause of report cards. im failing calculus....nuff said. and i have a fucking 83 in english......how did i get a 83 when i swear i got like all A's on my assigments. ::sigh:: i hate school....its the only thing i ever get in trouble for. i cant wait till i graduate. not to mention move out.

anyway, on to better and brighter things. i have the sunstreak stuck in my head. if you dont know who im talking about then you should totally check them out. orrr i dunno if youre into that type of music. its rock basically but not like hard rock. speaking of which, i listened to a bit of mushroom heads new (or is it......not very much into them....okay so dont shoot me) cd and i think its good. i like it.

hmmm so yeah my life is pretty much uneventfull. lol i go to school, i go to soccer whatever, and then i got to work on weekends. the weekly routine. boring as hell but very peacefull. in a way untill i get caught up on whats going on in the world around me.

yeah about that ive come to realize something. i am pretty much the living dead. my life is controlled by others, i go through the same routine day after day like the same conversations, same conflicts, same everything, and i manage to daydream non stop and be totally oblivious to the world around me. that kinda scares me.

i guess im just a very boring non-social person/loser....oh well.

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

   no offense to anyone thats blonde but this is funny
A blonde calls her boyfriend and says, "Please come over here and help me. I have a killer jigsaw puzzle and I can't figure out how to get it started. Her boyfriend asks, "What is it supposed to be when it's finished?" The blonde says, "According to the picture on the box, it's a tiger. "Her boyfriend decides to go over and help with the puzzle. She lets him in and shows him where she has the puzzle spread all over the table. He studies the pieces for a moment, then turns to her and says, "First of all, no matter what we do, we're not going to be able to assemble these pieces into anything resembling a tiger." He held her hand softly, led her to a chair and said, "Secondly, I'd advise you to relax. Let's have a cup of coffee, and then. ... "He sighed, "let's put all these Frosted Flakes back in the box."

A blonde goes to the movies, her boyfriend asks if she wants any thing to eat, she says yes M&Ms. So he goes to get her some M&Ms. He comes back with the M&Ms and gives them to her, she opens up the bag and pulls out all the brown ones and gives it to her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked why she gave him all the brown ones, and she said "Oh I'm allergic to chocolate."

There was 3 moms... 1 was brunette, 1 was a redhead and the other was a blonde. The redhead mom walks into her daughters room and finds a cigarette. She says "I didn't know my daughter smoked." The brunette walks into her daughters room and found a beer can. She say "I didn't know my daughter drank." The blonde walks into her daughters room and finds a condom. She says "I didn't know my daughter had a dick"

A blonde was sitting outside a store on the curb crying..the manager of the store spotted her outside and went outside and asked the blonde whats wrong...she said her mother just died..and the manager said oh I'm sorry.. the blondes cell phone starts to ring and she answers it and says hello..omg! are you serious!.. and she hangs up and the manager asks her who that was and the blonde says...that was my sister...her mom just died too!

A blonde walked into a gas station and said to the manager, "I locked my keys in my car. Do you have a coat hanger or something I can stick through the window to unlock the door?"
"Why sure," said the manager, "I have a hanger you can use."
A couple minutes later, the manager walked outside to see how the blonde was doing, he heard another voice from a blonde inside the car. "No, no! A little to the left."

A blonde, brunette,and a redhead are hiding on a farm from the police. The brunette hides in the chicken pen, and when the cop goes by, she says "cluck cluck" with the chickens, and he goes by not noticing. The redhead hides in the pig pen, and when the cop goes by, she says "oink oink" and the cop doesn't notice. Now the dumb blonde goes and hides in a potatoe sack, and when the cop walks by, she says "potato potato!" and she's busted!

There's a smart blonde, and Santa Claus ... they both jump off a bridge, which one made the biggest splash

neither .. because they both don't exist!

There is a mirror that sucks in people that lie. A red hed walks up and says "I think I am the smartest girl in the world." and she gets sucked in. A brunette walks up and says "I think I am the prettiest girl in the whole world." and she gets sucked in. Then, a blonde walks up and says "I think...I think...AHHHHHH!!!!" and she gets sucked in.

What happened to the blonde when she tried to blow up her ex husbands car?
She burnt her lips on the exhaust pipe!
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Saturday, September 9, 2006

   FUCK!
fuuuuuck i got a $165 dollar ticket for wreckless driving. the police woman told me that i ran a red light. BULL-FUCKING-SHIT man i did not!! it was clearly yellow!!!! goddamn it.
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Tuesday, September 5, 2006

   my idea....already taken...damn
so i told my mom i had a revolutionary idea, i could go to sydney, australia and spend a day there and then fly over to honolulu, hawaii and re-live the same day so it would be like september 5th two times....and then she asked me if i ever read 80 days around the world n i was like no n she was like that idea has already been acknowledged...i was like damn

ps-ummmm how bout some friends?
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