Saturday, November 26, 2005

Damn, I got a bad grade so now I am grounded. Yay...My life has gone from shitty to even more shitty. And to think I actually had one nice night on Thanksgiving. Stupid mom, I want to strangle her. Rawr...
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005

   My mom...
My mom is such a fucking BITCH!!!!!!! ARGH, I CAN'T STAND HER SOMETIMES!!! SHE NEVER LETS ME DO ANYTHING!!! I am blocked from basically everything, she's over protective, and she won't let me download this awesome online game. It was gonna take 23 hrs and 10 min to download because we have dial-up, and she's like no, I am not letting the computer run for that long for a stupid video game! It's not right. All my friends have it, and I really wanted to play, but no. Because my mom has to go and be stupid and mean and retarded! She is so unfair. Download it at your dad's house, she says. Oh yeah, I barely visit my fucking dad's house, so I'm gonna get to play it alot. Gee thank you mom, you fucking cock sucking hoe, thanks a lot...
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Saturday, November 19, 2005

   Tiiiiiiiiiiiiired...
I am insane. I am beyond tired, and here I am at the computer telling folk about my life. Yeah that's smart, and while I'm at it I think I'll marry a piece of sushi! Gah, so grumpy...must stop saying mean...things...sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep....
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Friday, November 18, 2005

   Happy day!
I am watching TV it is awesome! TV makes the world go round dude! I am gonna call my pal Partrick, and then I'm gonna call Anthony. Finally I'll be able to talk to him. Yay! Well din din time! May the cheese be with you.
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Well it's official, I have totally fallen for A1. Yep I have totally and absolutely fallen for him. Cupid you sadistic bastard. Bleh, I need to talk to him, and go frolic with penguins. May I have lightbulbs and turnips cryng with chalupas.
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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Why me?
Why me? Why is it that I just had to realize, after thinking for a long, hard time, that I still really like A1? WHY? Oh I know why, cause my fucking brain is retarded and I have no patience, and I am also a big weirdo when it comes to liking someone. But why me? WHY? I swear God is just waiting for me to jump off a damn cliff, he's watching me and is waiting. Damn I hate being so impatient, and I hate the fact that I care so much. But I do care, I care to the point where I would throw myself in the line of fire to protect the ones I love. But patience is a virtue in which I am seriously lacking, and it's not fair. I just don't know what to do. Jizzy tells me to be patient, but sometimes I just can't be. When it comes to A1 I can never be patient. I want to see him again, I want to talk to him, and it annoys me that I think about him this much! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??!! WHY ME, WHY IS IT THAT AFTER ALL THESE YEARS I STILL CARE ABOUT HIM SO MUCH?! WHY CAN'T I JUST BE CONTENT WITH BEING FRIENDS FOR NOW?! WHY ISN'T IT ENOUGH? Why is it that out of basically all the guys I ever dated, he is the one that has always stayed with me, that I have never been able to forget about him? I am always worrying about him, and just thinking about him, and hoping he is doing well. I don't care what he does, I just like being with him. I don't understand what makes him so special, and I just don't understand anything anymore. My feelings toward him confuse me, and I really wish I had his # so I could just talk to him. *sigh* I need advice, I really, really do. I need to understand these feelings for him.
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Monday, November 14, 2005

   Men are bakas
Men are bakas. They just do not get how us women feel! It's so frustrating, gah! I miss A1 (Anthony). I hadn't seen him for years, and now I saw him again, thanks to my bud Jizzy. We used to be together, and I didn't wanna break up with him, but I had to cause I was going to a different school, and I thought he'd be okay with it. Boy, was i wrong. And now after seeing him for years, my old feelings for him are starting to surface again. Actually to tell you the truth, I don't think they ever left. But it's soon to tell how he feels, and I'm just confused. I wish that I understood guys and the way they think, maybe I wouldn't be so confused that way. Gah, why must I be confused, and confused, and stuff? Bleh, I need to go eat pie! PIE!!!! I hope that we can talk about this soon, maybe that way I'll be less confused about everything. May the cheese be with you.
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