Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Soul Creation
okay so i have all of my shit to move out later on tonight. and since its like 2 in the morning right now, i have to be at my grand parents house tomorrow at liek 9 to do some work and shit they asked me to do. so that sucks since i have to move and its my day off.
other than that not much else going on. not really looking foward to the near future. but hell itll be an experience right?
well keep it easy
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Friday, November 11, 2005

If I would, could you?
okay so im moving out of my friends house in like less than a week. it saddens me because i dont want to go, but its the only way for me to grow by myself and not have my path already layed out before me. so ill be out by like next thursday.
other than that not much else. im liking this girl a lot. always have soemthing to say when im around her. and lately when im at work and im thinking about her, my day seems to go faster liek its a hidden will or adrenaline i never knew i had. so thats pretty awesome.
all in all not doing too bad. take it easy and keep it real, just dont let it go wrong.
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Sunday, November 6, 2005

Ummmmmmmm........yeah?
things be goin on the good side for the moment. met this very awesome girl. hope that one goes well. and other than that have a good one.
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Tuesday, November 1, 2005

Razorblades in Candy bars
yeah so halloween was cool. went to this haunted house type of shit thing. where there was supposed to be this prison break and all that crazy shit. and they needed more people to be insane. so i had the liberty to hide in a bush then jump out at little kids that nearly shit themselves when i screamed at them like the singer from cannibal corpse. it was great until this big black guy started screamin back and broke the goddamn rail that kept them and me apart. that mother fucker deserves to get an ass beating. but either way, it was cool.
other than that, fuck this game i quit
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Sunday, October 23, 2005

All this pressure is centerizing
okay so there is this force of nature, named Wilma, coming toward me as i write this. now this bitch is pretty vicious and all that shit. and its headed right for us. i did what i could to help my mom's house, my friend joe's house and the house i live in right now. lets just hope that this doesnt do what they say itll do. either way ill just move. but other than that i wish i had some percs right now, i have a huge knot in my back the size of a baseball and it hurts like a bitch.
keep it real, and most definitely keep it groovy. peace be with me and most importantly peace be with you!
im out
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Friday, October 14, 2005

8 before him i killed them all
okay so ive had a few thoughts lately about my life. why am i here doing what i do? thats the big question i keep asking myself. but i cant find an answer to that one question. i wish i knew what i was doing wrong. hell id lkike to know if i was doing something right. but i cant find answers to these seemingly simply questions.
i guess im getting very depressed with my life. like i cant do anything right and i should just quit while i was ahead.
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

feel good inc
yeah i actually feel good right now. im on pain pills and weed. great mixture. i know i shouldnt be doing it but it takes the pain in my knee and my lower back away. it makes me want to smoke a lot of cigarettes though. but all in all i feel great
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Friday, October 7, 2005

damn
have you ever felt like everyone around you is so happy that it makes you fuckin depressed? i feel that way right now and its really taking its toll. like im the only person who doesnt deserve that one thing i wish i could have. i want to be happy but it just wont happen. im sure you guys all know. it just makes me wonder what i have to do to prove myself worthy of being happy. like its some kind of test or trial over time that i have to overcome.
i already feel like i have the weight of the world on my shoulders and that doesnt do much in helping me out. when will it be my time? when can i be able to finally say that i am truely happy?
i guess the sun has set all darkens for me in my life.

so leave this one. in this hole, that is me........
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Friday, September 30, 2005

i was a creature before i could stand
okay so ive been in this funky assed mood lately. its like im constantly downing myself. ive been told a lot recently how good of a guy i am. and somehow, last night i just went apeshit in my mind and satarted coming up with things that counteract it all. and i dont know why but everytime i hear the same thing over and over and over again and its good, my mind fucks me over into making me think the complete opposite. i have no idea if this makes any sense to anyone. but i dont know. maybe im just a very complex individual. all in all i dont know.
later.
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Sunday, September 25, 2005

another one bites the dust
well two of my bestest of friends are leaving for the marines tomorrow. im happier than shit for them both to accomplish their dream and all that spiffy shite. so to Brandon Simonet and James Druin, i give a HUGE WOOT WOOT.
thats all, later
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