Friday, September 16, 2005

no way
okay so in the past few days i have realized that my life means virtually nothing to anyone except a select few. and some of those few are people i havent met face to face. so im kinda pissed that im basically just a waste of atomic structure.
but on a happier note i bought the first season to perhaps the best show of all time. yes i am talking about the fresh prince of bel aire. woot.
but im just sick and tired of people telling me that i am shit and that ill never be anything and all that shit. im fucking sick and tired of being used. i feel like im used all the fucking time. its starting to piss me the fuck off.
well thanks for hearing me rant i know its probably some stupid small petty shit but hey at least its something right?
later
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Tuesday, September 13, 2005

mother fucker
okay so apparently a "friend" of mine is going around saying i have gonnerhea or however the hell thats spelled. so now im pissed. and no its not true. it all started yesterday when an ex of mine called one of my friends saying that it burned when she pissed. so my friend thought of me out of instinct because i was the first guy she was ever with.
now keep in mind ive only had sex wiht one girl without a protection and i knew she was clean. but anyhow apparently she has something and everyone thinks its from me. i think that she either got it from her boyfriend or the guy she cheating on him with. i know it sounds confusing but read over it again.
other than that stupid shit everything is honky fuckin dory.
keep it easy.
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Monday, September 5, 2005

fina-fuckin-ly
jesus christ my work week was fucking hellacious. i had to do so much shit on my own that it started to hurt my muscles lifting over 500 pounds worth of ribs. god damn fuck that place. id quit if i had another job but i dont so i cant. but thank god today is my friday man, ive been waiting for this moment since last thursday and thank god it finally came.
as for everything else............ i dont care i dont have anything else to say but dont work for a steakhouse that run specials every two weeks especially when its fucking ribs. those things suck seal dick.
peace love and more chicken grease
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Sunday, August 28, 2005

   woot
well something good actually happened to me today. i recieved an extra 100 bucks for being employee of the month. badass. thats all i can say about it. and when my boss said my name and people were clapping, i get up get to the pathway towards my boss and i look at everyone, begin to clap with them and out of nowhere as if off of instinct, i say "yeah thats right keep it going for me, keep the clapping going. woot" then i grabbed my shit and asked my boss to leave that fucking meeting to take ribs out of the ovens. and everyone laughed at that, but hey im on the job and the meeting was going on longer than what we were told so i decided to take initiative and take the ribs out before the were scorched.
well i just thought id share that bit of info with you all.
woot
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

one of those days...........
god have you ever been in a modd that makes you listen to music that seems like the band knows exactly where you are coming from? well im in one of those right now and its starting to get to me. its like i try and i try and i try to make people happy and give them what they want and i keep getting the shit end of the fucking deal. its starting to depress me that my friends do this shit to me. it makes me wonder if they are friends or not. i dont know what to say about this shit. its keeps on happening and it seems to be more and more frequently.
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Saturday, August 20, 2005

   ugggh
okay so everyone seemingly has had the same fucking problem within one fucking week. first it was one pair of friends and now its anopther set. FUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!
and its hard for me because i try my damnedness to help them out and help fix their shit and its like its not even appreciated by some parties. but anywho thats all for now.
peace to all
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

   wil-debbie-beast
well the bitch fucked me over again. apparently she has a credit card in my name and has spent over the limit on it. so now i have been turned over to the credit bureau and now i have bad credit. god dammit the bullshit never fucking stops with the cuntbag. im getting sick and tired of this shit happening to me. i need something good to finally happen but it probably wont.

whats next opn the shit that fucks me over? death hopefully??????????
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005

ughh fuck
i hate work so fuck work. but its moneys in the pocket
peace all
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Saturday, August 6, 2005

okay so working all day with not nearly enough sleep sucks balls. i need a new job. but one cant always get what they want right? well other than that shit, hangin at brandon's for a while before i go to kevins for a while. i feel like a fucking nomad man. no place to go. i always say home is where the heart is, and that was said to me today aqnd i dont know where my heart lays at.
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Thursday, July 21, 2005

   a life changing moment........
okay so yesterday morning at like 2 am, i finished watching a movie that changed my entire life's perspective a lot of shit. the movie was American History X. it was the first time i have ever seen it and i am forever changed now becasuse of it. i never thought a film would change my views on things. but it had a great moral value to it that im grasping on to for dear life now because im changing my thought process for things. its great not getti g agitated so easily now. things i would normaly blow up on, i dont care and let it roll off the shoulders. it seems so different when this is the way it should have been for a long time now. well im just glad that something of this magnitude has finally happened.
peace love and always chicken grease
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