Thursday, July 8, 2010

Artist block again
Well... not necessarily.. I just don't have the motivation to create the things I want to in my mind right now... nor do I have the supplies. Prismacolors are nice but damn expensive. And Crayola crayons gets a bit tiresome after a while LOL

Anyways, that quiz thing was fun to do. So far my summer is doing OK. There's a lot I'd like to talk about but don't know where to start.

And X_Shadowme_X, you deserve that dedication. All these years on MyO and I haven't thanked ya for the fun on this place? Blasphemy! Bjork is a bit of a strange person... one of those musicians that might turn you off at first but she'll grow on you if you listen a little longer...


RandompictureofacuteanimegirlwithacrayonihavenoideawhatthehellisgoingonYAAAAAAY!


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Monday, June 28, 2010

I was tagged
1. What is your opinion of TheOtaku?

It's pretty nice, people here are very friendly.

2. What do you think TheOtaku could do to improve?

I honestly don't know... maybe a random button to bring up random fanarts or fancomics or something. Just for shits and giggles.

3. What feature do you hope TheOtaku never changes?

I honestly don't know XD

4. What do you think about 'Community Chat'?

I don't use it so I don't know.

5. What's your least favorite thing to discuss with other members on TheOtaku?

Stuff that has nothing to do with the topic, unless it's just a casual type of talk.

6. How do you feel about MyOtaku? (If you're unfamiliar with MyOtaku, then skip)

It's where I grew up on here man, I'll never stop using it.

7. What do you like about anime?

The details in the art and the stories that people create using their imagination. Every character has a part of the artist's personality, not like an artist surrogate, but a piece of them that makes their characters unique. How realistic the art can be and how disproportionate and exaggerated it can be. How it's not really a cartoon but everyone thinks it is.

8. What do you dislike about anime?

Definitely how cliché they can get. The hentai crap. How some are always about a 15 year old boy saving the world or something like that and falls in love with a defenseless damsel in distress. Really, the Romanticism gets old, can't we have a heroine that kicks ass that doesn't have to be stupid or weak or show big boobs for once? >_>

9. Which unappreciated anime do you wish would gather more recognition?

I don't really watch anime... although Monster is one of the best anime/manga I've ever seen. It is definitely underrated, even if it is ranked #19 in the top 50 mangas/animes of all time. Then there's some really unknown ones, like Heads, Ikigami, Himizu. Definitely NOT family friendly, they are darker, psychological, more nihilistic mangas, but they are worth a read.

10. Moving to the topic of art: What is your preferred type of media?

I like them all, even if I'm not good at all of them. I have a lot to learn and to improve on.

11. What do you like the best about your artwork?

I don't know really.. I guess how I can have an impact on someone who really likes it.

12. How well do you handle constructive criticism on your artwork?

If it's helpful, I'll use it the next time I create something.

13. What kind of criticism do you like to offer to your fellow Otakus?

Whatever it needs to have criticism on. Usually I'm pretty mellow and say "oh, that's good." but if I really like the art and the artist, I could offer some tips for future improvement.

14. Oh fiddlesticks: someone has left a rather distasteful comment on your artwork(s)/portfolio, how do you handle it?

*shrug* Well, that's a shame. Can't please everyone though. Move on.


15. Which unappreciated artist on TheOtaku do you wish would get featured? (Or at the very least recognized?

Ones that fly under the radar but have the talent. (Nobody specific in mind).

16. If you could ask one question about the person who tagged you, what would it be?

What's your favorite piece of artwork?

17. Random Question: What song have you heard that is so awesome, it could qualify as your theme song?

Do I have to? There's so many songs that I like. I guess I'll have to go with Red Neck War by Byzantine since it's what I'm listening to right now.

18. Imagine this!
You awake with a jolt, not recognizing your immediate surroundings. It's dark, uneven, yet noticeably elegant. Quickly you establish that you're in a castle; ancient and mysterious. Filled with sudden confusion, you rush out of the current room in search for an exit.

However, as you're slipping through the creaky hallways a low bellow catches your attention. Freezing up, you warily peer behind you---eyes widening as you spot a cloaked figure bearing an engraved scythe and a wicked, toothy grin. Just as your heart felt like it could explode from it's confinement, a deep chuckle escaped the demon's lips and his first words to you are...?

"Damn, you tripping if you woke up like this!" XD

19. Last question: Assuming your soul hasn't been devoured in the previous question, what did you think of these questions?

They were fun to do.

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Saturday, June 26, 2010

Art, kids, and a friend
I volunteer for a gallery at my town, which is actually quite the tourist town (I don't live in-town). There is a few art festivals here and it's quite nice. I got to help little kids make Jackson Pollock-like paintings (Expressionist, a.k.a the splatter painter). It's so fun to see kids having fun; I don't mind kids, as long as they're not mine, hahaha.

I don't plan on having children for many reasons, I might divulge into these things later when I feel comfortable talking about them on the internet. I still feel like I can't let my true self out and express emotion online, it's even harder in real life. Art really helps me with that.

I felt it was important that the kids could do that, liberate themselves however they wanted with the paint. Many parents would never let their kids do it at home, for it'd get all over their clothing and nice furniture and all sort of material things that don't matter in the end. They could paint however they wanted to; too many people tell others what is the right way to do things. Paint with your brush this way, do what I say, follow me.

It happens with politics and culture and many other things, any thought or idea or person that doesn't conform to the norm of society, or has a streak of eccentricity is condemned as crazy. I believe there are a few people in mental institutions that aren't crazy at all, just have different perspective than others. I'm not talking about the people who are medically proven to be schizophrenic, I mean people who see the world a different way that are highly intelligent are often stuck in these institutions. It's quite sad.

The kids often didn't know what to do with the brush, they only did what they were taught, and when there are no outlines to color in, they are lost. I enjoyed encouraging them to do what they wanted with the brush, and they did what they wanted, not how they were told. I hope that when they grow up they don't become tainted and cynical by the sick world we're living in, that they can think for themselves and express what they feel. I for a long time was not allowed to do that. I had a horrible temper that I still try to correct to this day, I can't trust easily, I'm a little more misanthropic than what's healthy.

Anyways, it was enlightening to see them create art, and hopefully they will continue to do that. I haven't had a rant in a while like that, a little bit more emotional and philosophical rather than the logical approach; it's harder to write what I want to say, I'm not good communicating my thoughts clearly, hahaha.

I just got thinking about a friend that I haven't heard of in a long time. I've called her twice and she won't answer. I know that she's okay somewhere but damn, she worries me a lot, hahaha. She lives in West Virginia, we actually met online, and she's the only long-distance friend that I have. It's surprising how close of a friendship we have even if we haven't met face-to-face yet. I can talk to her about things that I don't even confide with my friends in real life. Maybe it's because I've known them for so long...

I really want to see her. Her mom is crazy though, I really hope she's doing fine.
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Sunday, June 20, 2010

MR. BOOGIE TAMBOURINE MAAAAAN!
I've been listening to Maximum the Hormone's Mr. Boogie Tambourine Man



Man, I hope they tour in the US soon, their drummer just had a baby girl and they're touring Japan this summer. They have so much energy. The best funk-pop-hardcore-Mindless-Self-Indulgence-meets-System-Of-A-Down-and-Red-Hot-Chili-Peppers fusion I've ever listened to.

I'm great, we got a free channel for a month and I've been watching a ton of movies. I normally don't like TV, but I love movies. It doesn't have The Talented Mr. Ripley, but it's got Cujo. :3 I love Stephen King movies, because it totally pisses you off at the end because they're so crappy. Don't get me wrong, I love the King, but I feel that sometimes he probably gets tired after writing 700 pages so he decides to make a twist just to end the story quicker that makes you go "What the hell?". Meh, but it's Stephen King, he can write anything he wants to, and still sell big. I did like Salem's Lot.

Hmm, I went to a small festival (not even that, it was like a party with a bunch of townies that included the local drunk) hosted by Spread the Music Foundation. We only had one band, but they were OK, they played Ted Nugent, Three Doors Down, and other 90's covers. I volunteered for face painting. Let me tell you, it's nothing like regular painting. I felt gross touching so many sweaty children's faces. They moved too much so it messed up the pictures. Eh, they were cute little ankle-biters. It was fun though.

What else... oh yeah, Here's one pic of Spain I was able to upload

I got a sword in Toledo, and it's so cool! And it definitely works. I feel bad for the trees in my backyard LOL. I really want to learn some samurai sword techniques or martial art for something like that, just because it's that awesome. Then we'll see who'll try to rob my house >:0

I so want to visit Japan someday, it'd be neat to train in some Okinawan martial art. I'm learning Japanese from random online sites. I'm almost done with Hiragana. It's... surprisingly easy.. it's just the memorization part, there's so many character @.@ and Katakana is suppose to be harder, and kanji is even harder. I really like languages, I just don't know what type of jobs there are for them... hm...

It'd also be nice to see some of the music scene in Japan. Then I can see MTH on tour. YAAAAY *hi-jacks plane and flies to Japan to see them on tour* Oh crap, you can't joke about that stuff, 'cause the gov't will hunt you down and cuff ya D: *hides behind couch*

Y'know, this page needs some sprucing up



OMG WTF IS THAT?!


Cheers.
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Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Blah blah
MyO's been flipping out, can't see some comments or anything. Oh well.

Can't believe the year is over... well, actually I can. XD no more of this:





I should've put those down for my answers on exams. XD I got a C in chemistry so I might've as well anyway. Hmmmmm, what is the Ph for NaOH? I dunno, but this sucks




XD I'll have to find more pictures to post. Soo..... how's everyone? =3
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Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Manga/webcomic thingy
So I decided to start doing a manga-comic thingy...
http://www.theotaku.com/fancomics/view/8312/the_enigma

I only started out to get better at drawing with this style, so the story might not be much, I want to save some of my more better, more sophisticated stories when I can draw them better. It's gonna be crappy because the first time you do something is always crap, but I'm just practicing with this story so it's ok that it's crap. Hell, it might grow into something more and I might like it.

Might as well start getting recognition now when I'm young, so maybe someday I'll be well known enough to do professional manga-style comics and art. So if you want to read, it's there. I'm currently working on page two now.

Other then that, had an interesting day, teachers freaking out and watching movies and stuff. Lol.
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Sunday, May 30, 2010

ifjadfszmn oenifsaonisduoklns D:
My scanner isn't working and somehow my wireless mouse with batteries is dying on me DX

F************** S***** A**!!

at least the censors are working.

XD

I
have
no
life

Soooo... I changed my background and my site around. Anyone want to give me HTML tips, 'cause I'm a 'tard and I can't do it by myself X3
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Monday, May 24, 2010

My new BG
Hillary Clinton... with mouths for eyes.

Your LOLWTF for the day.

Nothing against Hillary, just this picture made me laugh and scratch my head in confusion at the same time. Yep....

I don't know...
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Monday, May 10, 2010

blahh
I miss Spain so much, I want to go baaaack



That's not a pic I took, btw. I'm having a hard time loading pics on this computer.

Someday I'm gonna backpack around the world. I don't care how stupid that sounds. I want away from this rain and cold weather lol. Summer better come real soon.
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Thursday, April 29, 2010

Rainy day
Today was a little sunny, but the week shows it's going to be rainy. Oh well, rain is fun too. I remember when I used to dance in the rain, and nothing mattered back then. Oh the angstyness.

Sorry for sounding a bit depressed last post, but I've just been a little anxious. I see so many people that I know and love that have thrown their lives down the drain. So many people have betrayed me and they betray themselves. I just... there's always this paranoia in me, like 'wow, am I going to turn into that person? Will I be like they are?'

I just hope that I neve lose sight of what's important like so many people I know. They all look but never see. How can they be so blind? I just hope I never become what they are, I just hope so. I'm so young yet feel a little old, lol, because I've seen and been through things that just wear me a little. I'm still capable of being independent and optimistic about things, I know true strength comes from overcoming the shit people bring and not regressing into that cycle of hate or violence.

I've always admired the people that could do that. I have friends who've been through some serious stuff, always made me wonder how they woke up the next day. It's not like they plan anything: they just do it. I think those people have a certain sense of the world unlike the many sheltered like us, and they are able to overcome by lifting their chin and smiling. I'm not talking about turning the other cheek and putting a mask of happiness to hide the pain, I'm talking about real happiness. Sure, they're a little damaged and messed up, and it shows... but they never let themselves down no matter how much others around them try. They see their own potential and break out of that cycle of hate... That's what I call true strength, true courage is the will to power, to survive, mind over matter. Those people who have it tough and come out with a few scars and battle stories, but are OK are the ones I admire.

I've just seen those who couldn't break out, and I feel a little sorry for them. Everyone does have a choice though. Maybe not the choice of influence over other people and the environment, those are in a circle of no control, but we have the power to do what we want. No one sees that, so they regress and regress. I'm sorry to those who have no choice, but even the Nazis could choose whether to join Hitler and his psychoticism; and there were a few that rebelled against him.

I just hope that I could be one of those people, even if death was the only option, I would remain my true self instead of be someone else. Thanks for hanging in there and for telling me your thoughts.

Anyway, this post has too much angst in it.



YAYS!!
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