Saturday, August 28, 2010

School.
Big F-U-C-K.

Just got my schedule and I don't see any fun teachers that I know, except for the one science teacher that, I suspect, smokes pot... rofl. Anyways, I signed up for AP Psychology since they didn't give me AP Art History. Art classes not available; what a shocker. I think I have a test the first week of school since I had to complete a packet over the summer. I love learning about the brain, theories and how certain factors affect the psyche, but man, it's a pain to do the writing. I also signed up for German class, because, well, I have no clue why. I was bored..? Since all my friends speak German and our school has nothing but German exchange students I might as well learn how to converse since I never get to use my Spanish skills around here.

Hopefully I won't be too shy this year and make more friends. So far I've been failing in that department of being social. I just prefer to be alone a lot, but I don't mind people once I get to know them.

@Crystal: I just use my free time to learn about music a lot. If you really love a certain type of genre of music, all you have to do is explore, and it's so enjoyable. I support musicians and musical events, it's just a part of my life. Thanks for enjoying the lyrics, I never really think of myself as a good writer.

@Shadow: Hahaha you get brownie points. That's exactly what it's about. But it goes deeper than that, it has a double meaning, I think of it as an extended metaphor for my own beliefs. Growing up in a Catholic home but feeling so indecisive and pressured by what to believe, it literally rapes my psyche since I was completely torn between believing in the God in the bible and believing that there's nothing. I've lost my faith from a lot of things in life, I guess now I'm what you'd call agnostic. I now accept who I am and what I believe in, but the daily pressure from others who judge me does get to me once in a while...

@Faroe: Welcome :D thanks for the comment, I guess I'm not one to write about the lighter things in life. Personally I think it's more reality than dark, but nonetheless.. You're a drummer? Nice! In fact, I don't know any drummers, and I definitely would like to play in your band if we lived closer lol.


Oh, like my new icon btw? His name is Rain. Not his real name, but he's a singer/dancer from South Korea. While I don't know about his musical career, but I'm aware of his acting career, and now I've become a fan of his. He's been in films such as Speed Racer (love it), Ninja Assassin (haven't seen it but will now) and a very cute Korean film called I'm A Cyborg, But That's OK (Love it!!). It is definitely a film to check out; quirky and a little strange, but a sweet and romantic comedy.
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Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Thanks
For those who commented. I really don't like the thought of sympathy or needing someone, but I guess it's OK to give in once in a while. So thank you Angel Zakuro, for praying for her. And for trying to explain what that thing was on the video.... maybe we should just refer to it as a What The Hell species XD

Thank you CrystalFlute, because your comments make so much sense. I find similarites between us on parenthood. I'd prefer being an aunt.

Thanks for the rest of you that commented or just read for the hell of it. Hope I'm not too overwhemling.

On other things, right now I'm just chilling, reading new books I got for $5 and listening to some more music. I've ventured into the more extreme realm of music, listening to acts such as Nominon, Pessimist, Apocalyptic Visions, and more. Enthraller and Arabyss so far are very enjoyable to me. One of my favorites is Blood Stain Child, who expertly combine melodeth with trance and electronic music. It's hard to bring such two antithetical genres together. And they're from Japan. The only complaint I have of them is that their English isn't too great... I think they'd do better if they spoke in a language they're fluent in. It's so funny when there's bands that are from other countries that speak English better than native speakers.

Anyways, they're pretty cool, check out their Myspace page: http://www.myspace.com/bloodstainchildmusic

I've also been listening to Tegan and Sara, quite different from the former lol. Call It Off and Hell so far are my favorites.

I've also wrote some lyrics this week. I'll share one of my more refined and gruesome lyrics that regards certain thoughts to something. It's extremely personal, so I find it a treat to be able to post it here. Tell me what you think, how you interpret its meaning. Brownie points for guessing what I thought about it.

Of Pearls And Swine

This pestilence is growing
Feeding on your decayed
The fire’s growing stronger
It’s burning your fallacious towers and mendacious mortar bridges
Arrogance and greed serenade each other
Spewing your masturbatory creed on the callow
And watch them get off on your disease

Abnegate patterns found in human nature
Preaching order but reeking of hypocrisy
Your lust is the only thing you know
A foundation brought up on ivory lies
Specially wrapped in satin thorns

[Chorus:]
Innocence spoiled by sordid desire
A virtue tainted by excessive need
In a land where pigs wear pearl necklaces
Where did we go wrong?

I hear the children scream
A thousand baring tattered wings held up by weak seams
In a hollow nightmare where dreams are shattered, forbidden
Purgatory becomes reality
These ghosts roam freely on our planet

Eternal silence, the only voice of God
Reaching for unrequited answers in this bleak sky
How’ve we failed to breach perjury
When they hand out promises laced with poison
And take that tablet of strychnine in your mouth

[Chorus]

Thine eyes shine despair
Your feeble days are numbered
Can you hear the children scream?
They voice their oppression and helplessness
Bound in a web weaved by hopelessness

[Chorus twice, the second one revised:]

Innocence spoiled by sordid desire
A virtue tainted by excessive need
In a land where the depraved prey on the weak
Can you hear their cries?


Have we thrown pearls before swine....?

I've already wrote the guitar parts for it. I wish I had a recorder, there's a nice portable one that I've had my eye on for a while. It has a drum machine and I could do the vocals and all I'll need is a friend to fill in the bass. Unfortunately I don't have enough money for it. I need to get a job.

Cheers.
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Friday, August 20, 2010

Long week
Hey people, hoped you enjoyed the last post, full of jest and all. But today I'm going to post something a little more serious. I need some sort of catharsis, so I am gonna try to write out and sort my feelings as best as possible.

My aunt has suffered from cancer for a long time, and right now she's in hospice care. She's one of the strongest people I know, she's had an extremely hard life and she's dying so young. We are currently up north right now and went to visit with cousins to see here. I like talking about the natural beauty of landscapes, and I had no idea how many hills and lakes there is up here. She's in a very peaceful rural place with all her kids whom we haven't seen in such a long while. It's so weird how family can just get close when there's an event like that... just wondering how long it'll last. Some people don't change, but she has great kids, and all those intergral familial issues somehow just dissipate. Hopefully we can keep close, it's really nice. We watched the grandkids play, laughed, played with the wolfdog-pups. I can upload some pics of them later, they're really cute. Today is the last day we might see her and it was really hard, my mom broke down and I was trying not to because I'm always the strong one. I just can't show emotion, especially around others, I have to be alone until I feel like I can trust that I'm safe and emotionally-stable to interact again. MyO has always been a great place for relief, private yet public, but knowing that my info and secrets are safe with the people here. I can trust you guys. Anyways, that was really tough as a lot of things in my life. But I shouldn't complain because the good outweighs the bad in my perspective at least. I have to tell myself that it's OK to be an optimist sometimes and a pessimist others... but to be a realist is what I try to be. And I am very realistic that in death can be obtained ultimate peace. Not necessarily spiritual or anything, I have no idea what happens in death, and it's hard for me to believe in a God. I'm sure there's a possibility in a higher power, but I try to be as realistic as I try to be open-minded. The only comfort I have is that she believes in it, and that's the best thing for her.

I also was able to get in contact with a very special close friend I have whom I haven't talked with in a very long time. She's not doing well at all, and I feel so powerless that I physically can't help her since I don't know where she even is... I know the general area, but she's going from shelter to shelter and friends' houses. I really want to beat her parents for fucking her life up. At least I KNOW that I'm not responsible and kid-friendly enough to have and take care of kids, I will never have a kid as long as I know that I can't be sure if I can be there for them. Some people just shouldn't breed :/ sorry for digressing there. I can't really organize my thoughts now.

sigh, all I can do is be strong for them. And I'm fine with that, I've always wanted to be looked up to as someone to come to for support and solace.

My dad's birthday is today too in all this mess, and it's kind of hard for him. Right now I'm taking care of the kids so he can have fun. I hope he does :3


In other news, how about something fun to distract from all the negative things?

I'm starting to watch TV more than usual. I never really like watching the tele, but there's some interesting stuff sometimes. Sometimes I like to watch the Syyyyefyyyyyyyye channel (I have to do that, I hate their logo change XD)
I watched one of those bogus paranormal shows. I like the idea of having something unknown to our limited knowledge of the world around us, the possibility of scientific discovery, because let's face it, we don't know everything that's out there so how can we be so sure of ourselves that extraterrestrials exist? The conventional ideas of the unknown are somewhat silly (like "extraterrestrials" mean "little green men"... it could mean ANY form of a living organism, including mircoorganisms like eukaryotes) anyways, while having logic of the natural world is essential since you can't assume that every bump in the night is a ghost, it's good to have an open mind and creativity for solving problems and for discovering things because you can't assume that every species in the world has been discovered. You have to balance what's "normal" and what needs to be investigated a little more before just concluding "A is this and B is that".

So I was completely confused when I saw this video



at first I tried to rationalize that it was something mechanical, it couldn't be a puppet since they'd be too wobbly, but the movement was more robotic. Which doesn't help explaining what the hell it is. Fact or Faked is a pretty good show, they demonstrate things with science very well unlike some other shows where they just run around and scream in the dark every time a sound is made (XD). But this... wtf is it? Does anyone have an idea of what it could be? XD I'm stumped.
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Saturday, August 14, 2010

Another random fun survery
[Is the last person you hugged related to you?] No

[Are you currently sick at all?]
Just allergies

[What brand of toothpaste do you use?]
I dunno, whatever I guess.

[Who took a picture with you last?]
A friend.

[Has anyone ever asked for your autograph?]
No XD

[Wal-mart or K-mart?]
Redneck or hillbilly? Can't I pick Walgreens?

[When's the last time you played Solitaire?]
8 years ago XD

[Who's the last person you heard swear?]
My dad XD

[What's the worst mainstream radio band?]
Shoot, there's a lot I don't like XD um... insert screamo here...

[Name a food you've tried that others would find odd:]
Not bull balls.

[What's one subject that makes you feel uncomfortable?]
Hm... there's really not one.. only the basiv=c personal questions that I would not reveal to strangers.

[Are you clumsy?]
I'm a ninja, what chu talkin bout?

[Do you prefer to use a mouse when you use a laptop?]
Yes, I get annoyed w/o one XD

[When does your driver's license expire?]
Don't got one D;

[Do you like pulp in your orange juice?]
idc

[Tell me one celebrity you'd like to punch in the face:]
Snooki (again)

[Do you watch any anime?]
Not as much as I used to.

[What was the last documentary you watched about?]
Steroids lol

[Name 3 people who you love to death:]
People I know... not specific XD

[If you could donate to any charity, which would it be?]
Anything with children and trafficking, hate that shit.

[What's one feature on myspace you find totally pointless?]
Don't go on myspace.

[Who did you last send a friend request to?]

[Would you rather have a personal chef or a bodyguard? Why?]
Chef, I can protect myself, thank you. I can't cook tho

[Name a character in the last television show you watched:]
BATMAN

[What candy makes your face pucker?]
Nothing XD

[Do you have a photobucket account?]
yup

[Do you believe that the number 13 is unlucky?]
no

[What's one thing you would NEVER do to your hair?]
grow it down to my butt

[Would you ever get a significant other's name tattooed on you?]
XD really now?

[Do you know any marines?]
Mmhm, yessir.

[Are you someone who gives good advice, but can't follow it yourself?]
I guess it can go either way.

[Why do you think that bisexuality is so trendy nowadays?]
No clue, society puzzles me.

[Would you ever consider becoming a vegan?]
no

[What's worse: a constant cough or never-ending sneezes?]
Sneezing.

[Do you know anyone with the swine flu?]
Nope

[When's the last time you were dragged into someone else's drama?]
I try to avoid drama

[Name a band you like that starts with the letter A:]
Acrassicauda

[What's one old school Nickelodeon show you wish was still on?]
Blues Clues XD

[What movie do you plan on seeing next?]
That new Exorcist movie I guess. I've been wanting to rent Chapter 27 though.

[What's the last thing you think of before you fall asleep at night?]
What I'm gonna do with my life

[Is there someone you can't stand in the room that you're in?]
No one's here

[What's a dumb name for a band?]
Anything too wordy or cheesy

[Polka dots or stripes?]
swirlys 8D

[Who did you last kiss on the cheek?]
Nobody

[What's your favorite Halloween movie?
Just about any horror

[Has anyone ever called you a 'freak'?]
Yep.

[Do you still have your wisdom teeth?]
yep

[Do you know anyone who does a lot pills?]
You kidding me? This whole town is on drugs

[Do you have a good relationship with your mom?]
I think so

[Lastly, what are you doing after you finish this survey?]Probably bed.

Oh, and I think I have a new obsession:



omghessocutesqueeeeeee *cue fangirlish squeal*

Sorry, my fangirl side rarely comes out, I promise I'll keep her in check. He's yummy tho >:3 XD

Now for a slow headbang



That's right!
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Thursday, August 12, 2010

Hello! Nothing new really. Well, that's an understatement XD
I had tons of fun hanging out with my friend last week =D we met some really creepy people that kept on stalking us though DX but we got rid of them C: we had a blast at our town's festival, they had fireworks and stuff. We then had met up with some other friends and got dinner at a local restaurant at 12 at night XD I didn't eat anything that day because I was too excited.

Was a little depressed in my motivation for art. Then I drew a Sasuke fanart and am not depressed anymore XD dunno why I chose him, I needed something to draw...

Been thinking for future careers and am not sure if I want to go into Psychology or Law Enforcement... could be a state trooper, but I don't want the jackass-pig label that cops get... don't get me wrong, I respect the law and all, but there's a lot of corruption that's been going on too. Corruption is bound to happen anyway though.... but I want a balance in having an art career as my second job, since I can't make a living on that alone... I want flexibility and creativity, but I also want the stability and security that comes with a regular job... can't decide what I want! D:
I don't want a boring job! Maybe I'll just end up living in my car for the rest of my life playing a banjo on the highway x) I just got mail from a university in Hawaii =D dude, I'm so gonna go there if I get a scholarship! XD

Oh yeah, and there's a Megadeth tour comin' around October. Gonna see if I can get tickets, there's special limited $10 tickets. Hopefully they hadn't run out D:

In other words, I did a random survey thingy!

[] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an mp3 player/ipod/discman.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You love your family
[x] There is a pool/spa in your backyard.

T 0 T A L: 6

[] You dress the way you want to.
[] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[x] You have never been beaten up (The advantage of being a martial art student XD)
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to. (As long as my parents don't hear it XD)
[x] Your room is big enough for you
[] People don't use you for something you have. (Unfortunately that happens a lot)
[x] You have been to the movies.

T 0 T A L: 4

[] You have over 500 friends on facebook (Fuck Facebook)
[] You have pictures on facebook
[] Your parents let you have a facebook
[] You get allowance/loan.
[] You collect something normal.
[x] You look forward to going to college
[x] You don't wish you were someone else.
[] You play a sport.
[x] You want to do something after school/college

T 0 T A L: 3

[x] You own a car/truck.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parent(s). (We're pretty cool like that :])
[] You have never got a failing grade on a report card in your life
[x] You have friends. (A small, but very loyal group C:)
[] You've never had a detention (It was in 3rd grade and I don't remember why I got it XD)

T O T A L: 3

[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You are happy with your life
[] You usually aren't sick.
[x] You know more than one language. (Not fluent, but some Spanish, Russian, Japanese, and currently trying out German)
[x] You have a screen name. (YAY XD)
[] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[] You don't have any enemies

T O T A L: 5

Total over all: 21

times it by 3 = 63

101%+: A+
90-100%: A
80-89%: B
70-79%: C
60-69%: D
00-59%: F
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WTF? A D? You mofos try to rip me off XD I'm very happy with my life btw, I could be rotting in a diseased ridden hole y'know!

In the spirit of auto tune, I'm gonna post a video that I had already posted in one of my worlds, but wanted to share it on here with you guys 'cus you're special =]



Check out the original video too, it's pretty hilarious.
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Tuesday, August 3, 2010

I've got not much to say...
...other than that I came to check up on y'all here. Thanks for the comment on the lyrics and thinkin that they're not faggy. I know I shouldn't say that word, I love the gays though, so please don't hurt meh D: I saw an e-card dedicated to me and it made me happier :) not that I wasn't already happy... XD thanks noir!

Not much to say... been looking at the local bookstore for some manga ;) they don't have a great selection, but they got some nice travel and history books :D I don't have enough money to buy them D: oh well, I'll be selling glow sticks on the corner and make money that way XD

omg, do you know what's awful yet hilarious at the same time?



A woman finds an intruder in her bed and her brother goes on an unintentionally funny rant.

XD I swear to god we were laughing for hours. He's sticking it to them!

Gonna be gone again, a friend is spending the week with me and we're gonna tear it up >:D

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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

New shit.
I just submitted my pic for the underappreciated anime/manga contest. I did a manga called Manhole. It is awesome if you like horror.

In other words, not much happening. I'm gonna take a break from the computer and enjoy the sunshine while I can. I don't know where I might end up in the future, but I know that the country is always gonna be in my heart.



A typical countryside in Michigan. Not a picture that I took. But I'd like to take a picture of the country area where I live because it looks so pretty when the sun shines on it.

What are some of the beautiful natural landscapes do you have where you live?


Oh oh, I wrote another esoteric song that I imagine that'll sound like the love child of a threesome with Emperor, Pink Floyd and Meshuggah... with blast beats, no chorus and and Jesus-like vocals! Without the drugs plz C:

Chaos Theory

...And somewhere the tornado rages, frail swirls of debris standing between us
Disaster erupts from the bowels of a volcano, igneous hearts hardening from the liquid that flows

The earth starts to tremble, tectonic plates shifting beneath my feet

Enmassing the forces, skittish fault lines relay a trepid message to your epicenter
The core of infamous terror
quakes until collapsion

Folding trees and severing skylines, the ocean submits to the waxing crescent
A fiery moon spell unearth the horror

Enslaved to the incantation of a desolate wave, revealing the Sirens that never sung
Sleeping forever, until the moon becomes full again. Then.

The butterfly's wings open...

..Okkk, that was embarrassing :D
I have tons of other crack faggy stuff I wrote that will remain in secrecy >:D
I got a sound editing program that can record, mix, and edit music :D now all I need is a mic and I can start making demos and stuff. A friend of mine plays bass, all we'll need is a drummer and a singer. We'll play cheesy covers and make them awesome XD

@X_Shadowme_X: XD Adam is the most obviously gay man on American Idol, which is a shame because he's not bad looking. XD him and Matthew Bellamy should have a sing-off for who can sing higher. I'm for Matthew. Then he can face Bruce Dickinson. That'd be intense...
Yeah, tell me about it, I know 40 year olds who act 12 =/ I dunno...

@GoodMonkey: Welcome =D and I don't know a lot about physics. In fact, I never took a physics class... I just like music a lot XD

@CrystalFlute: Hello, glad you came around! I know what you're talking about, there's always that one asshole that thinks he's right no matter what. Oh well I guess.. I love how music is so subjective that you can take something and make it your own, and there's always more room for improvement. That's the beauty of the arts :)

@DarkWolfDemon: What are some stuff you like to listen to?

I'm gonna go and eat Taco Bell and get fat now =D I'm lovin' it! *steals McDonald's logo* *runs away*
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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Free, but where to go now?
I was deleting some previous posts I had on here, it's so weird how far I've come and how much I've grown. It's amusing to see how immature and exuberant I was, how naive, and how angry I was. Feel free to make teenage angst jokes here. Remember all the rants I did? XD I'm pretty sure that I started that trend. But now, I just don't feel all that pent-up rage and "screw the world" sentiment. It's just all trivial to me now. Heh... I guess they call it growing up. I still don't feel grown-up, we're always growing. Now when I look at the world around me... I just shrug and laugh. Still wish we had some sort of bomb to destroy the population of parasites on this planet. But that's besides the point. I think its funny how the internet has created a utopia, a communitiy of idealism, and yet a modern war machine of skewed information and elitists that try to one-up each other and prove that their point is right. A wonderful world right? I'm a silent observer, not too bright but not average, just a simple person that wants simplicity in a complicated place. I feel too old for this shit and too young to be able to live through it. If I digress from a topic, don't worry, I'm just desultorily organizing my thoughts on here. Go ahead and ignore that.

Hm.. a weird fact... In 10 minutes, a hurricane releases more energy than all the world's nuclear weapons combined. Just found that online and found it to be intriguing. Of course you never know anymore what's truth and what's fabricated fact on the internet, anyone can take a number and put it out of proportion against an idea and make it a statistic. Everyone's trying to be too smart for their own good. Even a cynical bitch like me becomes a bit surpised by little things in this world.

You know what's hilarious? Astrology. I was never the one to believe in mysticism or any type of religion... faith just doesn't appeal to me.. but that description, holy crap, its scary XD I was born Jan 20. That describes me so well, and I suck at describing myself XD I'd like to see what your astrology sign is and how close of a comparison do you think it is to you? Exactly describes you, or not accurate at all? I don't care if you think it's a crock of shit, do it to humor me, I'm bored XP

In any other news that makes relative sense to anyone, I'm trying to write songs and stories, something that hasn't happened since 7th grade. Phenomenal really, I'll post them up when I have the time. They're not my best, and I want the criticism so please don't hold back.

Been listening to a lot of black metal and drone stuff. Am just learning about what trip-hop is and found out that Muse isn't all that bad of a band. I always steered clear from them because I thought they played Coldplay and Radiohead stuff, apparently alternative music bores me. Then I listened to Stockholm Syndrome (was originally looking for the Blink-182 version). They're not boring at all, and they actually write quite clever and intelligent lyrics. He has an interesting vocal style. I heard he can sing extremely high falsettos. I'm female, which means we're naturally higher in pitch than males, but jesus on a pancake, I can't sing that high XD
I should learn not to be so close-minded lol.

Right now, I'm listening to Earth. Whenever I need to relax, I listen to these guys. No words, just the drone of the sluggish guitar strings (hence the genre name “Drone”) that resembles a western style of music.



Isn't it amazing that all music is, is soundwaves which is just displacement of molecules in the air (which physics consider it a fluid), which is the vibration that gives us the joy to express our deepest feelings no type of linguistics in the world can translate?

Anyone have a group they highly recommend? I’m always looking for something new to listen to.

"Music hath charms to soothe a savage breast, to soften rocks, or bend a knotted oak."
William Congreve


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Saturday, July 17, 2010

Lyrical stuffs.
Uhm... I'm not used to showing my writings in public to people so please be gentle with me XD I hardly like showing the emotional side of myself except on here where I can freely say and do without repercussions lol so I guess these were lyrics I wrote (well, they don't have music to them so they are technically just poems). I'm happy to see that Belinda wants to see them =D =D

Symbitoic -

moon shaodws over
black seas, dim grass, and both the
craters on these planets

earth is all silence
gravity overpowers
the revovling rock

Two collide in one
Universe. Like human and plant
They need each other.


XD an e.e.cummings inspired poem! And I am aware that the definition of symbiosis is not correctly used in the poem.. just shut up and enjoy it XD

hm... another one I found, much more in a lyric format. Imagine some sort of headbanging music, or synths, or acoustic guitar, or whatever suits your fancy when you read this.

Bone-yard Ballroom -

Vice-grip avarice comes before closing in on taking action
Everyone has a finger to point their blame
Idolize, let the rich be deaf, suffice dead satisfaction

Fallacy came before faked reaction
As gray overcast covers their eyes, decadent, in shame
When the final mentality withered them to cynicism

When the acid rain rusted the sheet metal armor they wore
Consume, let the wise fall over, defecating on their own conceptions
And harden the igneous hearts of the sore

Who lie in the austere soil with the bones and the stone
And danced a melody caged in by gates
For the dead eat the living, the true zombies with warm flesh and bone
lie here today

Right in the heartland
Disregard themselvs and take for granted
What little the vultures left over

The heat of compassion went cold
And hardened our igneous hearts

Soon, we'll join them again
When our bones lay cold under stone again.






Well that felt good getting off my chest. XD it's not as good as I read it now then when I read it years ago. Hopefully I'll be able to share with you more private works, when I become comfortable. Can't be a lone wolf all the time I guess =)
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Friday, July 16, 2010

Yeah, I want to travel south this year.
Beginning lyrics of this song:



Alice In Chains is the only band left from my 90's childhood that makes me feel nostalgic and a little sad with a faded memory type of feeling. I don't know if I'm afraid of getting old or having life pass by. AIC has always spoken to me in a secret way... as if Layne was right there in the room commiserating right next to me. RIP, died of O.D. like all the Seattle grunge singers do.

Just love listening to the 90's acid rock/grunge, when no one was copying Chris Cornell's voice, lmao.

Lots of things happening this summer. There's a few writings that I found that I did in school last year for creative writing...poetry I guess. I was amused and might want to share them on here. Would anyone be interested?

@Magnus: lol my blocks are always on and off. I think it is the lack of motivation that gets me off guard, that or insecurity. Work your way up to the higher levels slowly, I rush everything and then it messes things up XD and thanks for the suggestion, I should do something in charcoal, glad you liked the Jared Leto picture.

@Shadow: Not my style.....KILL IT KILL IT!!! D: but you write good!

I g2g my baby cousin is streaking in the room XD helping babysit family that's over. Ahh.. it's complicated shit. He's cute as the dickens tho, XD
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