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• 1993-01-20
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• Bumfuck, Michigan
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• 2006-05-08
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• The person that annoys the crap out of you no matter what
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• Seymour Buts (sorry I'm immature XD)
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• Being the self-proclaimed idiot.
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• 1999
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• DN Angel, Naruto, Full Moon wo Sagashite, Azumanga Daioh, Death Note, Princess Monoke, Akira, Jin-Roh, Samurai Deeper Kyo, MARS, Eternal Sabbath, Monster, KouKou (Highschool) Debut, Detroit Metal City, Otomen, Highschool of the Dead, Insubstantial Paradis
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• To see a cow go quack.
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• I have many, ad infinitum.
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• I will eat you, ad hominem.
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Sunday, August 2, 2009
This sucks
Really, I'm kind of tired of TheO. No one ever really comments, especially here except for 4 people. I know I haven't made an effort either. I just don't feel connected to this place anymore. I don't know. I'm just kind of getting bored I guess. But I miss a lot of you guys. MyO was awesome, but now I just don't care. It doesn't matter. What I'm having trouble with is some people I know in real life as well. I'm just being whiney right now maybe. Or maybe I'm tired. Yes..
I'm just truly tired, and life just goes fast, people use you, and all this shit gets in the way. I want to move on but can't let go. I don't even know what the hell I'm talking about. But I'm not in a bad mood. Not at all. In fact, I had a fantastic week. I'm just too tired and unfocused to write about it now. But I miss people that I once used to know, people I met a long time ago in real life. But I'm afraid to contact some of them now. Afraid they forgot me. Or mistake my absence as rudeness or avoidance, not fear of rejection. Would they take me back even after such a long hiatus? Or do I just serve as a good/bad memory now? I've never feigned loyalty, but have others? No wonder I'm such a recluse, bastards misundertand me all the time. Or am I misunderstanding them? Maybe. I hate opening myself up. Leave a gaping hole for everyone to just stick their finger in. But no matter what happens I stay strong. I'm no cutter, no abuser, no attention whore, no killer (yet), but I'm not going to be nothing either. I just need enough sustinence for fuel. Sympathy is overrated. I'll survive, and find someone that is for real. I'm sorry if none of this makes sense, but I need to rant it out. I can't hold things in forever, and this site is such a good scapegoat.
And I won't let this duality of feelings override my experience and how much fun I had. I had such a good week. I don't want to break that streak.
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