Thursday, September 10, 2009

School's in
'Kay. So first two classes I have are boring. All math stuff, bleh. I'm really gonna have to get my ass in gear this year, if I want to graduate and go to college. Not that I'm doing bad... but I'm going to have to take more responsibility now that it's getting harder and soon I'll become an adult. As much as I love to procastinate and am still able to get an A even if I wrote an AP essay within 2 hours before school without previous planning, I guess it might be a little better to start putting effort more.. college isn't just a free for all anymore. If you want to survive and have a job with an income just enough to get by, then college is pretty much the answer. It's a one way street; can't just work at a fast-food restaraunt to work your way up and still afford a living anymore....

heheh, it's kind of a lose-lose situation. You have choices, but they won't suffice; you can choose to not do work and finish school, but good luck living off of TV dinners the rest of your life, 'cause coal miners get no break. $10,000 annual just won't cut it. Or go to college and get a job that pays high but you'll most likely not be satisfied with a job or get a job you want after graduation because most jobs that actually make money are boring like the markets or the government. 'Cause artistry and musicianship just won't cut it. Damn it how I wish it was the 80's. Freakin' economy.

*sigh* so I'm planning to go into forensics or some sort of criminology so I can supplement my income so I can support my art. Reason is that the art world is tough to get into. You don't get much pay especially a freelancer. Only if you have a name. If you got a name, you're something. But if you don't, your art don't mean shit. As much as I love to help people and help solve crime to make a better place, it just doesn't cut it for me. I've been in a long line of family that's done work in law enforcement, government, or military. I've kinda wanted to break away from that mould, I was always the different person in the family. All I do is draw pretty pictures, but it doesn't cut it does it? I'm going to work my way in the art world then, do something I actually love rather than most people and do what society wants, what economists want, what you represent white-collar business Americans. Because art is just a pretty thing to look at. No need to look at the philisophical meanings underlining that fuel the creativity of the human mind. It's one thing that separates us from the rest of the animals. The purest form of communication. The only thing that connects people to each other. Even conflicting groups can agree with a beautiful piece. Appreciate it.

And we lost that. Does everyone take everything for granted now?

I'll prove them wrong. Maybe I'll even work for Disney or something. Wonder if they'll still be proud of me. I should stop wondering what everyone else thinks and think for myself. I'm a selfish stubborn person, and individualist that knows what she wants and is determined to get it.
At least there's a few people who're willing to support me and back me up. I give my thanks to those people. I really do.

Now that I'm done with that short summary of a rant, I'll explain the rest of my classes.

Well, my chemistry teacher looks like Michael J. Fox lol.

and I have spanish and another social study class. Fun.

But I'm really going to have to be serious now. No bullshit, college is in a few years and I need the money.

How attitude can change in such a few years. Must be growing up. Haha, yer lil' corn here growing up.
And I'd thought it'd never end.
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